Have You Seen Luis Velez?

“Yes,” she said. More resigned than motivated. “I will go because it means a lot to you that I go, and you mean a lot to me.”

He almost told her about Luis Javier Velez, Esquire, and the civil case. The acquitted shooter maybe having to put all three of Luis’s kids through college. He opened his mouth to tell her. But then he closed it again, and decided to wait until he was sure it would genuinely happen. He didn’t figure she could bear even one more disappointment.



“I hope you like chicken and dumplings,” Sofia Velez said.

They had just been called to the table. Raymond and Mrs. G were standing in the dining room doorway, arm in arm, waiting to be told where to sit.

“Oh, wonderful!” Mrs. G said. Raymond couldn’t tell if she felt genuine enthusiasm or was faking it to be polite. If the latter, it was a good fake. “It’s one of my favorite meals. I used to make it for my husband all the time, but I haven’t had it for years.”

“It sounds good,” Raymond said, because it also didn’t sound like anything he had eaten, ever.

Luis Senior showed them to places in the center of the table, carefully pulling out a chair for Mrs. G and holding it and guiding it as she sat. They waited while every member of the family came to his or her place and took a seat. It was a big family, so it was a big production.

“Abuela will say grace,” Luis Senior said.

Raymond felt first alarmed, then relieved. He wasn’t sure how Mrs. G would feel about a Christian prayer, being Jewish herself. Then again, she didn’t have to say it. Just listen to it. But Abuela would say grace in Spanish, which seemed better to Raymond somehow. Safer.

Luisa, the teen girl who had given him the medal, was sitting to his left. She slipped her hand into his. At first it startled him. But he looked up and around and saw that everyone was joining hands with everyone else. He took Mrs. G’s hand with his right.

Their abuela spoke four or five sentences in Spanish, then said, “Amen.” Raymond didn’t know if she had ended the prayer in English or if the word was the same in both languages.

“Amen,” Raymond said, because he couldn’t imagine how or why not to.

“Amen,” Mrs. G said.

They unclasped hands, and Luis Senior began to spoon chicken and dumplings onto plates, which were passed down the long sides of the table.

“Oh, it smells heavenly,” Mrs. G said.

“Well, I hope you’ll enjoy my cooking,” Sofia said. “We’re so happy you came. We’re so glad to see Raymond again. He made quite an impression on us. He was so sad because he was worried he wouldn’t be able to give you the help you need. You know. Finding this other Luis Velez. And then when we heard what had happened . . .”

The room fell silent save for the sound of plates being picked up, passed, set down.

“All I really meant to say,” Sofia said, stumbling on, “is that you’re very lucky to have such a thoughtful young man for a friend.”

“And don’t think I fail to appreciate it,” Mrs. G said. She picked up a tiny forkful of chicken and dumplings. “Not a day goes by that I’m not thankful.”

She tasted the food, and everyone watched and waited to see what she would think. Everyone. Even the toddler. Maybe because she had made her love of chicken and dumplings so clear.

“So, is it as good as what you used to make?” Sofia asked.

“No. It’s better. I never made a batch this good in all my days as a cook. And I was a fair cook, if I do say so myself.”

“Well, I’m glad you like it.”

They all ate in silence for a minute or two. Raymond was feeling transfixed by the food. It felt satisfying in a way he was not accustomed to feeling. Each bite he shoveled into his mouth grew larger than the last.

Sofia spoke again. “I’ve been thinking about the question Raymond asked me.” She directed the remark more or less to Mrs. G.

“I don’t think I know the question,” Mrs. G said.

“Oh. Sorry. He asked me what you can do for a person who’s going through a bad time.” Raymond felt his face flush hot as she spoke. “And I don’t know, really. The only thing I can come up with is that you need to know people care. Not only about you, although that’s nice, too. But about what happened. About your friend, the one you lost. I thought about it, and I thought that trial would have been very upsetting to me because it would feel like the jury was saying my friend didn’t matter. So I just wanted to let you know that he matters to every single person at this table.”

Raymond watched Mrs. G carefully as she chewed and swallowed.

“Thank you,” she said. “That does help a little.”

“I hope you believe us,” Luis Senior added.

“I do. I absolutely do. Because you understand what it meant to be Luis. I’m afraid that’s where things fell down with the jury.”

They ate in silence for an awkward second or two.

Then Abuela began to speak in rapid Spanish. Raymond waited patiently, both for her to be done, and for someone to translate. He vaguely, distantly wished he had gone on studying the language.

When she wound down and finished, Mrs. G surprised Raymond by answering her directly. “Recuerdo también,” she said.

Raymond stared at Mrs. G for a moment. Everyone at the table did.

“You speak Spanish?” he asked.

“A little. Yes. I asked Luis to teach me some. First I asked him to teach me to say ‘Lo siento, no hablo muy bien espa?ol.’ I wanted to be able to apologize to Spanish speakers for not knowing their language well. Because I noticed that everyone else in this city seems to do the opposite. You know, make them feel bad for not speaking English. But then I decided that wasn’t good enough, because why apologize for not being able to do something that you can just as easily learn to do?”