“Is there something worse than navel-gazing?” he’d asked during a fight. “Because that’s what it is.”
I wondered what Jeremy would think about Gabe Parker calling my writing “funny.”
“How’s the burger?” Gabe asked.
“Good,” I said. “It seems like you come here a lot.”
He nodded. “Yeah,” he said. “People are nice and the food’s great.” He looked at the remainder of our fries with a deep longing in his eyes.
I pushed them toward him. He hesitated.
“I’ve had enough,” I said, and since he hadn’t walked out of this interview, I didn’t have to worry about hoarding food like a chipmunk. Yet.
“It’s not that,” he said, though he took a few and dipped them in ketchup. “I’m really not supposed to be eating this in the first place.”
I tilted my head questioningly.
“James Bond can’t have love handles,” he said, leaning back and patting his stomach.
“I’m sure that’s not a problem for you,” I said with a laugh, thinking he was joking.
It became immediately clear that he wasn’t.
I knew that actors and actresses made sacrifices to look the way they did, but I’d never really thought much about it. I just enjoyed looking at the results. Gabe moved the fries away, and I felt a little guilty for all the ogling I’d done.
“My trainer will be pissed,” he said.
He looked so sad that I was momentarily speechless.
“When can you have a burger and fries again?” I asked.
He glanced down at the tape recorder as if it was a snake ready to strike. “After Bond,” he said. “Unless we start shooting the second movie right away. Then it’s protein shakes and lettuce until we’re done.”
He held up his almost empty beer glass and gave it a loving look.
“Farewell, friend,” he said before finishing it.
There was a long silence and then he smiled—but not a real smile. It was funny how I could tell them apart already.
“Not that I’m complaining,” he said.
His voice was a little lower, a little slower. Not drunk, but on his way.
“Are you excited?” I asked. “About Bond?”
“I’m lucky,” he said as if that was the same thing.
“It’s the role of a lifetime,” I said.
“I was their second choice,” Gabe said. “They wanted Ollie.”
I froze.
Now we were getting somewhere. I knew that this was what I needed—what I’d come for—yet I couldn’t ignore that extremely icky feeling knowing that I was possibly, maybe taking advantage of the fact that Gabe was more intoxicated than he should be.
But this was a job—to me and to him—and if anything, this had leveled the playing field. Plus, if I were a guy, I might not even have these guilty feelings, let alone acknowledge them. I’d probably be ordering him another drink or offering to buy him shots.
I couldn’t let my crush on Gabe keep me from getting a good story.
“Ah,” Gabe said, leaning back. “You’d prefer Ollie too.”
“No.”
“No?”
“I don’t have a preference,” I said.
It was a lie. Because of course I had a preference. In life—in my fantasies—it was always Gabe.
But I knew what critics had been saying. Because while Gabe was gorgeous, he wasn’t a natural fit for Bond. Not the way that Oliver was.
Oliver Matthias was sophisticated. Cultured. It was the accent, of course, but he was an intellectual as well. An Oxford grad. Someone who had performed in the West End, doing Shakespeare and Beckett. He had years of experience, starring in a BBC teen comedy version of Pride and Prejudice when he was sixteen, then returning to the small screen to do a miniseries version of Cyrano de Bergerac after university. Even a prosthetic nose had done nothing to dim his appeal with his female fans—myself included. I might have even had a poster of him as Darcy when I was a preteen.
He was a proven leading man.
But according to interviews with Ryan and the Bond producers, Oliver hadn’t even been considered for the role. My journalistic senses, as immature as they were, were now the thing that were tingling.
“My mom prefers him too,” Gabe said.
“No, she does not,” I said.
He raised an eyebrow at me.
“My mom loves Bond,” he said. “She said—and I quote—‘Was Oliver not available?’?”
I winced.
“I know what people are saying,” Gabe said. “Contrary to popular opinion, I can read.”
“No one thought you couldn’t read,” I said.
“They thought I couldn’t read good,” he countered with a thick, hick-like drawl.
I didn’t really have a response because to tell him that wasn’t true would be a lie. People did think he was a bit of a rube. It didn’t help that his management had been pushing that version of him up until he landed Bond.
Interviews amplified his “good country boy” qualities—that he might have been a simpleminded community college graduate, but his talent was just as homegrown. While Oliver was someone who had been trained and cultivated, Gabe was all-natural. He was genuine.
But that also meant he was a harder sell in roles that went against that brand.
Bond had been a surprise.
“It’s fine,” Gabe said. “I’ve been working with a dialect coach, who promises me we’ll keep my ‘hyucks’ down to a minimum.”
“I think you’ll be great,” I said.
“You’re the only one,” he said.
There was clearly more to this. Everyone already assumed there was a rivalry between the two former co-stars. Jacinda Lockwood had been linked with Oliver before rumors of her dating Gabe emerged—was this all part of a longer, deeper competition between the two of them? If Oliver had really been the first choice, then why didn’t he get the role?
“Have you seen his latest movie?” I asked. “Oliver’s?”
It was a period piece—romantic and epic—and the thirteen-year-old me that had been enamored with Oliver Matthias couldn’t wait.
“I’m going to the premiere tomorrow,” Gabe said. “Looking forward to it.”