She gestured to the small samples of the lunch menu sitting on plates that covered our table in the back of the restaurant. Canterbury had a modern rustic design; it was all glass, heavy dark woods, Spanish brick tiling, and copper, wire, and naked lightbulbs. Jason was from Canterbury in England and the style of the food was British gastropub. “Eat,” she said. “And talk.”
So I did, cutting into a miniature gourmet burger. I told her everything that had happened with Caleb yesterday, wondering how only a day had passed from the moment Patrice had “introduced” us to now.
“Holy shit. I want to meet him.”
“No,” I said adamantly. “He’s only here for a week or two and this is nothing serious. Meeting my family does not scream ‘casual.’ ”
She squeezed my arm at being referred to as family. “Okay. Whatever you want. But can I ask something?”
“Shoot.”
“You wanted to talk to me about this because you needed to tell someone, or you wanted to talk to me about this because something about it is bothering you?”
My smile was reluctant. “You know me so well.”
“So what do you think is bothering you?”
“Why? Are you going to tell me what you think is bothering me?”
“You know me so well.” She grinned cheekily.
“Okay, you first.”
Harper sighed. “I think that you try to control everything in your life because your parents were flakes when you were a kid and because you couldn’t control your life falling apart after college. Controlling everything now makes you feel safe. But you can’t control this guy. And you can’t control how he makes you feel. And that freaks you out.”
My heart thumped hard at her words and I felt an uneasy roiling in my stomach. “You should have been a psychologist, Harper.”
She glared at the bite in my tone. “You asked what I thought.”
I studied my glass of water, unable to meet her eyes, because for some inexplicable reason I wanted to burst into tears. Why couldn’t I just enjoy being with this guy without overanalyzing everything! I wiped at a nonexistent smudge on my glass and said softly, “I don’t even like him, Harp. How can I possibly want him this much and not even like him? What does that say about me?”
“What don’t you like about him?”
I looked at her, recognizing the curiosity and concern in her gray-blue eyes. “He’s arrogant. He’s rude to people in service—never says please or thank you. Just treats them like servants. There’s a coldness to him. Not in bed. Not at all. But outside of it, yes. And sometimes … he looks at me like he can’t stand me and hates himself for wanting me.”
She was quiet a moment, her brows drawing together at my last sentence. “Maybe you’re right to be uneasy about this, then. Casual sex is supposed to be uncomplicated. He sounds way complicated.”
“You say that … and it makes total sense.” I nodded. “That’s what I think too … and then I’ll think about not seeing him again and I feel …”
“Yeah?”
“Agitated.” I smirked as I encountered the right word. “Like an addict would.”
Harper—adventurous, grab-life-by-the-balls Harper—didn’t tell me to just ignore my concerns and go for it. Instead, she touched my arm and said, “I thought sex with this guy would be a nice distraction. That it would maybe shake off the shadows in your eyes. The ones Gem’s death put there. But they’re not gone, Ava. Maybe you should quit it with this guy and find someone else to do the casual thing with.”
Her concern made me pause.
If Harper was telling me that, then I should listen. I nodded and looked away, my gaze skimming distractedly across the restaurant.
Wait. What?
My eyes swung back toward the hostess podium, where none other than my Bastard Scot was standing with a group of three other men. He was wearing a different suit but wearing that same brooding, intimidating expression.
“How is this happening?” I groaned.
“What? What is it?” Harper’s eyes followed mine.
“He’s here.”
“Who’s here?”
“Caleb,” I snapped, turning to her with what I was sure was a look of horror. “Seriously. Some omnipresent being is playing with us. No two people can keep bumping into each other like this without the help of some twisted Fate.”
“Oh my God.” Harper’s lips parted in awe. “Is he the tall blond who hasn’t shaved in a few weeks?”
“Yup.”
“I thought you said he was a biker Viking dude?”
“He wears suits for work. He’s the CFO for Koto, remember. But yes, biker boots, jeans, and tattoos are his usual deal. None of which matters because they’re on the move. Oh God, please don’t see us.”
However, my pleas went unheard as Caleb’s eyes came up from the man he was walking beside as they were shown to their table. He scanned the restaurant and his gaze promptly snagged on the sight of me.
I saw them widen a little as I schooled my expression to neutral.
I gave him a nod, not wanting to be rude, but hoping he would just nod back and otherwise ignore me.
Apparently, Caleb didn’t feel like being his usual rude self. He excused himself from his group and began making his way over to us.
“Oh my God, he’s gorgeous,” Harper said under her breath.
“Shut up.”
A smile played around his beautiful mouth as he slowed to a halt in front of our booth. “I’m really beginning tae think you’re stalking me, Ava Breevort.”
I rolled my eyes. “I was here first, Mr. Scott.” I gestured to Harper. “My best friend is the pastry chef. Harper, this is Caleb Scott. Caleb, meet Harper.”
Harper reached out her hand and he shook it. “Pleasure.”
She grinned. “You too.”
Her grin gave away too much about her knowledge of him and he shot me an entertained, knowing smile. “Lunch break?”
I nodded. “We both work long hours. We grab time together when we can.”
“I look forward tae trying your food, Harper.”
Who was this charming guy?
“I can promise you’ll like it,” she said confidently, making him grin at her in a way he never smiled at me. “Where in Scotland are you from?”
I hadn’t asked him that. I was too afraid to ask him anything because we weren’t about that.
Caleb was unruffled. “I live in Glasgow, but I grew up in a wee place in central Scotland. Linlithgow. It’s not far from Edinburgh.”
“I’ve always wanted to visit. Ava and I try to travel somewhere once a year, and Scotland’s on our bucket list.”
Stop telling him things about me. I threw her a tight smile, which she ignored.
“Well, call me biased, but I’d recommend visiting it over any other country.”
“Straight to the top of the list, then. So you here with your work people?” She gestured behind him.
“Lunch meeting, aye.” He frowned distractedly.
It was on the tip of my tongue to ask him what was wrong, but I stopped myself.
That wasn’t what we were.
His gaze moved to me, the frown only deepening. “I’d best get back.”
“Sure,” I said casually, as if I didn’t care one way or the other.
Caleb’s frown turned to a full-on scowl. “See you later, then. Harper, it was nice tae meet you.”
“You too. We should all have drinks together while you’re in Boston.”
He nodded but didn’t give her a definite answer (thank God) before he shot me one last enigmatic look and turned around.
As he was walking away, Harper huffed. “Rude? Really? Because I found him perfectly charming.”
I cut her a look. “He’s not normally like that. Although … he was like that with Patrice.” A bitter chuckle of realization escaped me. “He’s only a shit to me.”
“You’re right about the way he looks at you,” she mused. “When he first came over he looked almost happy to see you … and then …”
“And then?”
“Pissed off at you.” She rested her fist on her chin. “But it could have been because you were as warm as a frozen waffle to him.”
“I wasn’t that bad.”
“You were cooler toward him than I’ve ever seen you toward anyone. Even to the many men you’ve shot down in the past.”
“I’m protecting myself,” I admitted. “I don’t see what is so wrong about that.”
“Well, have you thought that maybe he’s reacting to your coldness by being cold in return?”