Anastasia! I am Anastasia when I am in trouble just like at home with my mother.
"Okay," I mutter, placating him. I don't want to fight. "Did Ryan catch up with the woman in the Dodge?"
"No. And I'm not convinced it was a woman."
"Oh?" I look up again.
"Sawyer saw someone with their hair tied back, but it was a brief look. He assumed it was a woman. Now, given that you've identified that f*cker, maybe it was him. He wore his hair like that." The disgust in Christian's voice is palpable.
I don't know what to make of this news. Christian runs his hand down my naked back, distracting me.
"If anything happened to you . . . ," he murmurs, his eyes wide and serious.
"I know," I whisper. "I feel the same about you." I shiver at the thought.
"Come. You're getting cold," he says, sitting up. "Let's go to bed. We can cover third base there." He smiles a lascivious smile, as mercurial as ever, passionate, angry, anxious, sexy—my Fifty Shades. I take his hand and he pulls me to my feet, and without a stitch on, I follow him through the great room to the bedroom.
The following morning, Christian squeezes my hand as we pull up outside SIP.
He looks very much the powerful executive in his dark navy suit and matching tie, and I smile. He's not been this smart since the ballet in Monaco.
"You know you don't have to do this?" Christian murmurs. I am tempted to roll my eyes at him.
"I know," I whisper, not wanting Sawyer and Ryan to overhear me from the front of the Audi. He frowns and I smile.
"But I want to," I continue. "You know this." I lean up and kiss him. His frown doesn't disappear. "What's wrong?"He glances uncertainly at Ryan as Sawyer climbs out of the car. "I'll miss having you to myself."
I reach up to caress his face. "Me, too." I kiss him. "It was a wonderful honeymoon. Thank you."
"Go to work, Mrs. Grey."
"You, too, Mr. Grey."
Sawyer opens the door. I squeeze Christian's hand once more before I climb out onto the sidewalk. As I head into the building, I give him a little wave. Sawyer holds open the door and follows me in.
"Hi, Ana." Claire smiles from behind the reception desk.
"Claire, hello." I smile back.
"You look wonderful. Good honeymoon?"
"The best, thank you. How's it been here?"
"Old man Roach is the same, but security has been stepped up and our server room is being overhauled. But Hannah will tell you."
Sure she will. I give Claire a friendly smile and head to my office.
Hannah is my assistant. She is tall, slim, and ruthlessly efficient to the point that sometimes I find her a little intimidating. But she's sweet to me, in spite of the fact that she's a couple of years older. She has my latte waiting—the only coffee I let her get for me.
"Hi, Hannah," I say warmly.
"Ana, how was your honeymoon?"
"Fantastic. Here—for you." I pop the small bottle of perfume I bought for her onto her desk, and she claps her hands with glee.
"Oh, thank you!" she says enthusiastically. "Your urgent correspondence is on your desk, and Roach would like to see you at ten. That's all I have to report for now."
"Good. Thank you. And thanks for the coffee." Wandering into my office, I rest my briefcase on my desk and gaze at the piled up letters. Jeez, I have a lot to do.
Just before ten there's a timid tap on my door.
"Come in."
Elizabeth looks around the door. "Hi, Ana. I just wanted to say welcome back."
"Hey. I have to say, reading through all this correspondence, I wish I was back in the South of France."
Elizabeth laughs, but her laughter is off, forced, and I cock my head to one side and gaze at her like Christian does to me.
"Glad you're back safely," she says. "I'll see you in a few minutes at the meeting with Roach."
"Okay," I murmur, and she shuts the door behind her. I frown at the closed door. What was that about? I shrug it off. My e-mail pings—it's a message from Christian.
From: Christian Grey
Subject: Errant Wives
Date: August 22, 2011 09:56
To: Anastasia Steele
Wife
I sent the e-mail below and it bounced.
And it's because you haven't changed your name.
Something you want to tell me?
Christian Grey
CEO, Grey Enterprises Holdings Inc.
Attachment:
From: Christian Grey
FW Subject: Bubble
Date: August 22, 2011 09:32
To: Anastasia Grey
Mrs. Grey
Love covering all the bases with you.
Have a great first day back.
Miss our bubble already.
x
Christian Grey
Back in the Real World CEO, Grey Enterprises Holdings Inc.
Shit. I hit reply immediately.
From: Anastasia Steele
Subject: Don't Burst the Bubble
Date: August 22, 2011 09:58
To: Christian Grey
Husband
I am all for a baseball metaphor with you, Mr. Grey.
I want to keep my name here.
I'll explain this evening.
I am going in to a meeting now.
Miss our bubble, too . . .
PS: Thought I had to use my BlackBerry?
Anastasia Steele
Commissioning Editor, SIP
This is going to be such a fight. I can feel it. Sighing, I gather up my papers for the meeting.
The meeting lasts for two hours. All the commissioning editors are there, plus Roach and Elizabeth. We discuss personnel, strategy, marketing, security, and year-end. As the meeting progresses, I grow more and more uncomfortable.
There's a subtle change in how my colleagues are treating me—a distance and deference that wasn't there before I left for my honeymoon. And from Courtney, who heads up the non-fiction division, there's downright hostility. Maybe I'm just being paranoid but it goes some way to explaining Elizabeth's odd greeting this morning.
My mind drifts back to the yacht, then to the playroom, then to the R8 speeding away from the mystery Dodge on I-5. Perhaps Christian's right . . . perhaps I can't do this anymore. The thought is depressing—this is all I've ever wanted to do. If I can't do this, what will I do? As I walk back to my office, I try to dismiss these dark thoughts.
When I sit down at my desk, I quickly check my e-mails. Nothing from Christian. I check my BlackBerry . . . Still nothing. Good. At least there's been no adverse reaction to my e-mail. Perhaps we'll discuss this tonight as per my request. I find that hard to believe, but ignoring my uneasy feeling, I open the marketing plan I was given at the meeting.
As is our ritual on a Monday, Hannah comes into my office with a plate for my packed lunch courtesy of Mrs. Jones, and we sit and eat our lunches together, discussing what we want to achieve during the week. She brings me up to date with the office gossip, too, which—considering I've been away for three weeks—is pretty thin on the ground. As we're chatting, there's a knock on the door.
"Come in."
Roach opens the door, and standing beside him is Christian. I'm momentarily struck dumb. Christian shoots me a blazing look and stalks in, before smiling politely at Hannah.
"Hello, you must be Hannah. I'm Christian Grey," he says. Hannah scrambles to her feet and holds out her hand.
"Mr. Grey. H-how nice to meet you," she stutters as they shake hands. "Can I fetch you a coffee?"
"Please," he says warmly. With a quick puzzled glance at me, she scuttles out of the office past Roach, who stands as dumbstruck as me on the threshold of my office.
"If you'll excuse me, Roach, I'd like a word with Ms. Steele." Christian hisses the S sibilantly . . . sarcastically.
This is why he's here . . . Oh shit.
"Of course, Mr. Grey. Ana," Roach mutters, shutting the door to my office as he departs. I recover my power of speech.
"Mr. Grey, how nice to see you." I smile, far too sweetly.
"Ms. Steele, may I sit down?"
"It's your company." I wave at the chair Hannah vacated.
"Yes, it is." He smiles wolfishly at me, the smile not reaching his eyes. His tone is clipped. He's bristling with tension—I can feel it all around me. F*ck. My heart sinks.
"Your office is very small," he says as he sits down facing my desk.
"It suits me."
He regards me neutrally, but I know he's mad. I take a deep breath. This is not going to be fun.
"So what can I do for you, Christian?"
"I'm just looking over my assets."
"Your assets? All of them?"
"All of them. Some of them need rebranding."
"Rebranding? In what way?"
"I think you know." His voice is menacingly quiet.
"Please—don't tell me you have interrupted your day after three weeks away to come over here and fight with me about my name." I am not a freaking asset!
He shifts and crosses his legs. "Not exactly fight. No."
"Christian, I'm working."
"Looked like you were gossiping with your assistant to me."
My cheeks heat. "We were going through our schedules," I snap. "And you haven't answered my question."
There's a knock on the door. "Come in!" I shout, too loudly.
Hannah opens the door and brings in a small tray. Milk jug, sugar bowl, coffee in a French press—she's gone all out. She places the tray on my desk.
"Thank you, Hannah," I mutter, embarrassed that I have just shouted so loudly.
"Do you need anything else, Mr. Grey?" she asks all breathless. I want to roll my eyes at her.
"No, thank you. That's all." He smiles his dazzling, panty-dropping smile at her. She flushes and exits simpering. Christian turns his attention back to me.
"Now, Ms. Steele, where were we?"
"You were rudely interrupting my work day to fight with me about my name."
Christian blinks once—surprised, I think, by the vehemence in my voice.
Deftly, he picks at an invisible piece of lint on his knee with long skilled fingers.
It's distracting. He's doing it on purpose. I narrow my eyes at him.
"I like to make the odd impromptu visit. It keeps management on their toes, wives in their place. You know." He shrugs, his mouth set in an arrogant line.
Wives in their place! "I had no idea you could spare the time," I snap.
His eyes frost. "Why don't you want to change your name here?" he asks, his voice deathly quiet.
"Christian, do we have to discuss this now?"
"I'm here. I don't see why not."
"I have a ton of work to do, having been away for the last three weeks."
He gazes at me, his eyes cool and assessing—distant even. I marvel that he can appear so cold after last night, after the last three weeks. Shit. He must be so mad—really mad. When will he learn not to overreact?
"Are you ashamed of me?" he asks, his voice deceptively soft.
"No! Christian, of course not." I scowl at him. "This is about me—not you."
Jeez, he's exasperating sometimes. Silly overbearing megalomaniac.
"How is this not about me?" He cocks his head to one side, genuinely perplexed, some of his detachment slipping as he stares at me with wide eyes, and I realize that he's hurt. Holy f*ck. I've hurt his feelings. Oh no . . . he's the last person I want to hurt. I have to make him see my logic. I have to explain my reason-ing for my decision.
"Christian, when I took this job, I'd only just met you," I say patiently, struggling to find the right words. "I didn't know you were going to buy the company—"
What can I say about that event in our brief history? His deranged reasons for doing so—his control freakery, his stalker tendencies gone mad, given completely free rein because he is so wealthy. I know he wants to keep me safe, but it's his ownership of SIP that is the fundamental problem here. If he'd never interfered, I could continue as normal and not have to face the disgruntled and whispered re-criminations of my colleagues. I put my head in my hands just to break eye contact with him.
"Why is it so important to you?" I ask, desperately trying to hold on to my fraying temper. I look up at his impassive stare, his eyes luminous, giving nothing away, his earlier hurt now hidden. But even as I ask the question, deep down I know the answer before he says it.
"I want everyone to know that you're mine."
"I am yours—look." I hold up my left hand, showing my wedding and engagement rings.
"It's not enough."
"Not enough that I married you?" My voice is barely a whisper.
He blinks, registering the horror on my face. Where can I go from here?
What else can I do?
"That's not what I mean," he snaps and runs a hand through his overlong hair so that it flops onto his forehead.
"What do you mean?"
He swallows. "I want your world to begin and end with me," he says, his expression raw. His comment completely derails me. It's like he's punched me hard in the stomach, winding and wounding me. And the vision comes to mind of a small, frightened, copper-haired gray-eyed boy in dirty, mismatched, ill-fitting clothes.
"It does," I say without guile, because it's the truth. "I'm just trying to establish a career, and I don't want to trade on your name. I have to do something, Christian. I can't stay imprisoned at Escala or the new house with nothing to do.
I'll go crazy. I'll suffocate. I've always worked, and I enjoy this. This is my dream job; it's all I've ever wanted. But doing this doesn't mean I love you less.
You are the world to me." My throat swells and tears prick the back of my eyes. I must not cry, not here. I repeat it over and over in my head. I must not cry. I must not cry.
He stares at me, saying nothing. Then a frown crosses his face as if he's considering what I've said.
"I suffocate you?" His voice is bleak, and it's an echo of a question he's asked me before.
"No . . . yes . . . no." This is such an exasperating conversation—not one that I want to have now, here. I close my eyes and rub my forehead, trying to fathom how we got to this.
"Look, we were talking about my name. I want to keep my name here because I want to put some distance between you and me . . . but only here, that's all. You know everyone thinks I got the job because of you, when the reality is—"
I stop, when his eyes widen. Oh no . . . it is because of him?
"Do you want to know why you got the job, Anastasia?"
Anastasia? Shit. "What? What do you mean?"
He shifts in his chair as if steeling himself. Do I want to know?
"The management here gave you Hyde's job to babysit. They didn't want the expense of hiring a senior executive when the company was mid-sale. They had no idea what the new owner would do with it once it passed into his ownership, and wisely, they didn't want an expensive redundancy. So they gave you Hyde's job to caretake until the new owner" —he pauses, and his lips twitch in an ironic smile—"namely me, took over."
Holy crap! "What are you saying?" So it was because of him. F*ck! I'm horrified.
He smiles and shakes his head at my alarm. "Relax. You've more than risen to the challenge. You've done very well." There's the tiniest hint of pride in his voice, and it's almost my undoing.
"Oh," I murmur incoherently, reeling from this news. I sit right back in my chair, open-mouthed, staring at him. He shifts again.
"I don't want to suffocate you, Ana. I don't want to put you in a gilded cage.
Well . . ." He pauses, his face darkening. "Well, the rational part of me doesn't."
He strokes his chin thoughtfully as his mind concocts some plan.
Oh, where is he going with this? Christian looks up suddenly, as if he's had a eureka moment. "So one of the reasons I'm here—apart from dealing with my errant wife," he says, narrowing his eyes, "is to discuss what I am going to do with this company."
Errant wife! I am not errant, and I'm not an asset! I scowl at Christian again and the threat of tears subsides.
"So what are your plans?" I incline my head to one side, mirroring him, and I can't help my sarcastic tone. His lips twitch with the hint of a smile.
Jeez—change of mood, again! How can I ever keep up with Mr. Mercurial?
"I'm renaming the company—to Grey Publishing."
Holy shit.
"And in a year's time, it will be yours."
My mouth drops open once more—wider this time.
"This is my wedding present to you."
I shut my mouth then open it, trying to articulate something—but there's nothing there. My mind is blank.
"So, do I need to change the name to Steele Publishing?"
He's serious. Holy f*ck.
"Christian," I whisper when my brain finally reconnects with my mouth.
"You gave me a watch . . . I can't run a business."
He tilts his head to one side again and gives me a censorious frown. "I ran my own business from the age of twenty-one."