Field Notes on Love



“It’s freezing,” he says, delighted, and Mae steps in too. She takes out her camera, turning in a circle to capture the water below and the sky above and then the sun glinting off the buildings behind them. She laughs as a wave splashes her legs, licking at the edges of her dress, and the sound of it makes Hugo feel light. Glancing down, he spots a piece of sea glass half-buried in the wet sand and stoops to pick it up, thinking of the stones on the building, each marking a spot on the globe. He tucks it into his pocket, happy to have captured a sliver of this day, this city, this moment.

After a few minutes, Mae heads back up the beach, and Hugo follows her. They lie on their backs, arms thrown over their eyes, mouths filled with the gritty taste of sand. It’s itchy and hot and wonderful, and Hugo thinks he could stay here forever.

“We can’t both fall asleep, okay?” he says. “Otherwise we might miss our train.”

Mae turns her head to look at him, and he can see the freckles across the bridge of her nose. “We’ve been up for, like, two hours. You already need a nap?”

“It’s sunny,” he says. “And I’m still jet lagged.”

“You can sleep on the train. Now you have to talk to me.”

“Couldn’t it also be argued that we could sleep now, talk later?” he asks, stifling a yawn, but she just crinkles her nose in a way he finds irresistible.



“How did you decide to take a train?” she asks. “And why here?”

“Well, I don’t have a license, and Margaret hates to drive, so that ruled out a road trip.”

“You don’t have a license?”

“There’s one car and eight people in my house. Makes it a bit hard to practice. Plus, I’ve always thought trains were romantic,” he says, then immediately feels his face start to burn. “Not like that. I just mean…they’re sort of nostalgic. You know?”

Mae smiles. “My grandmother says she once left her heart on a train.”

“With a boy?” Hugo asks. “Or with her luggage?”

“A boy.”

“That’s good. Hopefully, mine wasn’t in my wallet.”

She reaches over and puts a hand on his chest, and he can feel his heartbeat quicken beneath it. “Nope,” she says, her face very close to his. “Still there.”

“It was her idea,” he says after Mae takes her hand away. “Margaret booked the whole thing. At the time, I thought it was because she wanted to spend more time together, and for me to be there when she got to Stanford. But now I’m not so sure. I think maybe she felt guilty.”

“For what?”

“Leaving me behind.”

They’re both quiet, watching a bird circle above. Then Mae turns her head in his direction. “Well,” she says, “you’re here now.”

Hugo reaches into his pocket for the piece of sea glass, pale green and startlingly smooth. He turns it over, watching it glint in the sun, then closes his hand around it.

“I’m here now,” he says.





It feels like it’s been years since they were last at Union Station, though it’s only been about twenty-four hours. While they wait on the glossy wooden benches, a video call from Nana pops up on Mae’s phone. She’s already starting to walk away as she answers, intending to find some quieter spot, but when Nana’s face appears, the first thing she says is wait.

Mae stops in the middle of an aisle, confused. “What?” she asks, looking down at the phone. Nana is sitting on the window seat at her apartment, the black cherry tree behind her already starting to turn yellow, and it’s been so long since Mae has seen her there, in her natural habitat, that she can’t help feeling a little emotional.

“Go back to wherever you were,” Nana says sternly, her face a little too close to the phone. “I want to clap eyes on this fellow of yours.”

“No way,” Mae says, glancing back at Hugo, who is sitting on the bench where she left him, reading his book of facts about the United States. “I’m not doing that.”

“I’ll give you twenty bucks.”

“Nana.”

“Fifty.”

“No!”

“I’ll let you pick the movies at Thanksgiving.”



Mae laughs. “Fine.”

When she walks back over, Hugo looks up from his book. “Did you know that Chicago isn’t called the Windy City because it’s windy?”

“Yes,” Mae says, then turns the phone around. “Nana, this is Hugo.”

Hugo blinks at the screen, momentarily startled. Then he gives a little wave. “Hello!”

“Well, aren’t you handsome,” Nana says, getting so close to the screen that her nose disappears, and there’s nothing but a pair of watery blue eyes and a wrinkled forehead. “Mae told me as much, but I had to see for myself.”

“I did not—” Mae starts to say, then turns to Hugo. “I didn’t tell her anything.”

Hugo laughs. “It’s nice to meet you. I’ve heard such lovely things about you from your granddaughter.”

“Listen, I’ve known Mae a long time, so I thought you could use a few tips,” Nana says. “First of all, she’s always got one eye behind that camera of hers, so sometimes you have to take it away so she doesn’t trip.”

“One time,” Mae says. “That happened one time.”

“And she’s afraid of heights, so don’t go joyriding on top of the train or anything.”

“Noted,” Hugo says, nodding very seriously.

“She hates spiders—”

“Covered that one already.”

“And talks a lot.”

“You guys know I’m still here, right?” Mae says, her eyes traveling up to the board, where the track number for their train has just been posted. “Hey, we gotta go.”



“Last thing,” Nana says, shifting her gaze to Hugo. “She’s one of the best people I know. And she’s a real catch. So be good to her, okay?”

Mae closes her eyes for a second, mortified. “Thanks, Nana,” she says as she brings the phone up to her face again. “I love you, and I’ll call you when we get to Denver.”

Nana gives a little wave. “Happy travels!”

After hanging up, Mae turns to Hugo. “Well, that’s Nana. She’s—”

“Brilliant,” he says with a grin. “Let’s make sure I’m there when you call her from Denver, so I can hear the rest of her tips.”

This train is bigger than the last, with two floors and an observation car at one end. An attendant named Duncan—a short white man with bright red hair—leads them to their compartment, which is about the same as the last, two seats and a fold-down bunk at the top.

But this time, when he leaves them, there’s no awkward silence or uncertainty. This time, as soon as he’s gone, Hugo takes a step forward and puts a hand on her elbow, and Mae tips her head up to look at him, and they smile at each other like they’re the holders of some great secret.

“You still have sand in your hair,” she says, reaching up to brush it away, but before she can finish, he’s folded her into his arms, and they’re kissing again.

Mae has wanted to do this all morning. Sitting across from him at the diner, walking beside him along Michigan Avenue, lying next to him on the beach: it was underneath and around every other thought, a persistent drumbeat beneath every gesture, every word, every look.

She knows this can’t last—whatever it is; that a few days from now, they’ll be getting off at different stations, going in different directions. But she doesn’t care. Because for now, they have this: a happiness so big it doesn’t leave room for worries.



When Duncan returns, he has to clear his throat several times before they realize he’s standing in the hallway. They break apart so quickly that Hugo nearly falls back against his seat, and Duncan stares hard at his notepad, trying not to laugh.

“Sorry to interrupt, but will you two be joining us for dinner tonight?”

After they’ve made their reservations, Mae’s phone buzzes, and she grabs it before Hugo can see the long row of exclamation points that Priyanka has sent, followed by a second text that says Call me.

“I’m gonna make a quick call,” she says to Hugo. “So I’ll just—”