*
In the end, the Presidium ordered all Soviet missile ships still on their way to Cuba to turn around and come home.
Khrushchev reckoned he lost little by this, and Dimka agreed. Cuba had nukes now; it hardly mattered how many. The Soviet Union would avoid a confrontation on the high seas, claim to be a peacemaker in this crisis – and still have a nuclear base ninety miles from the US.
Everyone knew that would not be the end of the matter. The two superpowers had not yet addressed the real question: what to do about the nuclear weapons already in Cuba. All Kennedy’s options were still open and, as far as Dimka could see, most of them led to war.
Khrushchev decided not to go home tonight. It was too dangerous to be even a few minutes’ car journey away: if war broke out he had to be here, ready to make instant decisions.
Next to his grand office was a small room with a comfortable couch. The First Secretary lay down there in his clothes. Most of the Presidium made the same decision, and the leaders of the world’s second most powerful country settled down to an uneasy sleep in their offices.
Dimka had a small cubby-hole down the corridor. There was no couch in his office: just a hard chair, a utilitarian desk and a file cabinet. He was trying to figure out where would be the least uncomfortable place to lay his head when there was a tap at the door and Natalya came in. She brought with her a light fragrance unlike any Soviet perfume.
She had been wise to dress casually, Dimka realized: they were all going to sleep in their clothes. ‘I like your sweater,’ he said.
‘It’s called a Sloppy Joe.’ She used the English words.
‘What does that mean?’
‘I don’t know, but I like how it sounds.’
He laughed. ‘I was just trying to figure out where to sleep.’
‘Me, too.’
‘On the other hand, I’m not sure I’ll be able to sleep.’
‘You mean, knowing you might never wake up?’
‘Exactly.’
‘I feel the same.’
Dimka thought for a moment. Even if he spent the night awake, worrying, he might as well find somewhere to be comfortable. ‘This is a palace, and it’s empty,’ he said. He hesitated, then added: ‘Shall we explore?’ He was not sure why he said that. It was the kind of thing his ladykiller friend Valentin might come out with.
‘Okay,’ said Natalya.
Dimka picked up his overcoat, to use as a blanket.
The spacious bedrooms and boudoirs of the palace had been inelegantly subdivided into offices for bureaucrats and typists, and filled with cheap furniture made of pine and plastic. There were upholstered chairs in a few of the larger rooms for the most important men, but nothing you could sleep on. Dimka began to think of ways to make a bed on the floor. Then, at the far end of the wing, they passed along a corridor cluttered with buckets and mops and came to a grand room full of stored furniture.
The room was unheated, and their breath turned to white vapour. The large windows were frosted over. The gilded wall lights and chandeliers had sockets for candles, all empty. A dim light came from two naked bulbs hanging from the painted ceiling.
The stacked furniture looked as if it had been here since the revolution. There were chipped tables with spindly legs, chairs with rotting brocade upholstery, and carved bookcases with empty shelves. Here were the treasures of the tsars, turned to junk.
The furniture was rotting away because it was too ancien régime to be used in the offices of commissars, although Dimka guessed it was the kind of stuff that might sell for a fortune in the antique auctions of the West.
And there was a four-poster bed.
Its hangings were full of dust but the faded blue coverlet appeared intact and it even had a mattress and pillows.
‘Well,’ said Dimka, ‘here’s one bed.’
‘We may have to share,’ said Natalya.
That thought had crossed Dimka’s mind, but he had dismissed it. Pretty girls sometimes casually offered to share a bed with him in his fantasies, but never in real life.
Until now.
But did he want to? He was not married to Nina, but she undoubtedly wanted him to be faithful to her, and he certainly expected the same of her. On the other hand, Nina was not here, and Natalya was.
Foolishly, he said: ‘Are you suggesting we sleep together?’
‘Just for warmth,’ she said. ‘I can trust you, can’t I?’
‘Of course,’ he said. That made it all right, he supposed.
Natalya drew back the ancient coverlet. Dust rose, making her sneeze. The sheets beneath had yellowed with age, but seemed intact. ‘Moths don’t like cotton,’ she remarked.
‘I didn’t know that.’
She stepped out of her shoes. In her jeans and sweater she slipped between the sheets. She shivered. ‘Come on,’ she said. ‘Don’t be shy.’
Dimka put his coat over her. Then he unlaced his shoes and pulled them off. This was strange but exciting. Natalya wanted to sleep with him, but without sex.
Nina would never believe it.
But he had to sleep somewhere.
He took off his tie and got into bed. The sheets were icy. He put his arms around Natalya. She lay her head against his shoulder and pressed her body to his. Her bulky sweater and his suit coat made it impossible for him to feel the contours of her body, but all the same he got an erection. If she felt it, she did not react.
In a few minutes they stopped shivering and felt warmer. Dimka’s face was pressed into her hair, which was wavy and abundant and smelled of lemon soap. His hands were on her back, but he got no sense of her skin through the chunky sweater. He could feel her breath on his neck. The rhythm of her breathing changed, becoming regular and shallow. He kissed the top of her head, but she made no response.
He could not figure Natalya out. She was just an aide, like Dimka, and not more than three or four years his senior, but she drove a Mercedes, twelve years old and beautifully preserved. She usually dressed in conventionally dowdy Kremlin clothes yet she wore costly imported perfume. She was charming to the point of flirtatiousness, but she went home and cooked dinner for her husband.
She had inveigled Dimka into bed with her, then she had fallen asleep.
He was sure he would not sleep, lying in bed with a warm girl in his arms.
But he did.
It was still dark outside when he woke up.
Natalya mumbled: ‘What’s the time?’
She was still in his arms. He craned his neck to look at his wrist, which was behind her left shoulder. ‘Six-thirty.’
‘And we’re still alive.’
‘The Americans didn’t bomb us.’
‘Not yet.’
‘We’d better get up,’ Dimka said; and he immediately regretted it. Khrushchev would not be awake yet. And even if he was, Dimka did not have to bring this delicious moment to a premature end. He was bewildered, but happy. Why the hell had he suggested getting up?
But she was not ready. ‘In a minute,’ she said.
He was pleased by the thought that she liked lying in his arms.
Then she kissed his neck.
It was the lightest possible touch of her lips on his skin, as if a moth had flown out of the ancient hangings and brushed him with its wings; but he had not imagined it.
She had kissed him.
He stroked her hair.
She tilted her head back and looked at him. Her mouth was slightly open, the full lips a little parted, and she was smiling faintly, as if at a pleasant surprise. Dimka was no expert on women but even he could not mistake the invitation. Still he hesitated to kiss her.
Then she said: ‘Today we’re probably going to be bombed to oblivion.’
So Dimka kissed her.
The kiss heated up in a flash. She bit his lip and pushed her tongue into his mouth. He rolled her on to her back and put his hands up inside her baggy sweater. She unfastened her brassiere with a swift movement. Her breasts were delightfully small and firm, with big pointed nipples that were already hard to his fingertips. When he sucked them she gasped with pleasure.
He tried to take off her jeans, but she had another idea. She pushed him on to his back and feverishly undid his trousers. He was afraid he would come right away – something that happened to a lot of men, according to Nina – but he did not. Natalya pulled his cock out of his underwear. She stroked it with both hands, pressed it to her cheek, and kissed it, then put it in her mouth.
When he felt himself about to explode he tried to withdraw, pushing her head away: this was how Nina preferred it. But Natalya made a protesting noise, then rubbed and sucked harder, so that he lost control and came in her mouth.
After a minute she kissed him. He tasted his semen on her lips. Was that peculiar? It felt simply affectionate.
She pulled off her jeans and underwear, and he realized it was his turn to please her. Fortunately, Nina had tutored him in this.
Natalya’s hair was as curly and plentiful here as on her head. He buried his face, longing to return the delight she had given him. She guided him with her hands on his head, indicating by slight pressure when his kisses should be lighter or heavier, moving her hips up or down to tell him where to concentrate his attention. She was only the second woman he had done this to, and he luxuriated in the taste and the smell of her.
With Nina this was only a preliminary, but in a surprisingly short time Natalya cried out, first pressing his head hard against her then, as if the pleasure were too much, pushing him away.
They lay side by side, catching their breath. This had been a totally new experience for Dimka, and he said reflectively: ‘This whole question of sex is more complicated than I thought.’
To his surprise, this made her laugh heartily.
‘What did I say?’ he said.
She laughed all the more, and all she would say was: ‘Oh, Dimka, I adore you.’