Best Kept Secrets

"I want proof positive that Celina Gaither's body is not

 

interred in that grave at the cemetery."

 

"Why didn't you do something sensible, like get a shovel

 

and start digging?"

 

That silenced her. It took her a moment to recover. At last

 

she said, "You're in a surly mood this morning. Rough

 

night?"

 

"Yeah. I got laid, but it wasn't very good."

 

Her eyes dropped to the littered table. "Oh. I'm sorry to

 

hear that."

 

"What, that I got laid?"

 

She gazed back up at him. "No, that it wasn't very good."

 

They shared a lengthy stare. His face looked as rugged and

 

craggy as a mountain range, but it was one of the most

 

appealing she'd ever encountered.

 

Whenever they were together, she was involuntarily aware

 

of him, of his body, of the way she was drawn to him. She

 

knew her attraction was unethical and reckless, from a professional

 

standpoint, and compromising, from a personal one.

 

He'd belonged to her mother first.

 

Yet, too often she wanted to touch him or to be touched

 

by him. Last night she'd wanted him to hold her longer while

 

she cried. Thankfully, he'd had better sense and had left.

 

Who had he gone to? Alex wondered. Where and when

 

had the unsatisfactory lovemaking taken place? Had it been

 

before or after he'd come to her motel room? Why hadn't it

 

been any good?

 

Several moments elapsed before she lowered her head and

 

resumed sorting through the files.

 

Not one to be ignored, he reached across the table and

 

placed his hand beneath her chin, jerking it toward him. "I

 

told you that Celina was cremated.''

 

She jumped to her feet. "After you and Judge Wallace put

 

your heads together and discussed it. That seems a little

 

convenient to me."

 

"You enjoy imagining things."

 

' 'Why didn't Junior mention that Celina had been cremated

 

 

 

when he saw me in the cemetery? I'm thinking that maybe

 

she is buried there. That's why I'm going through all these

 

files."

 

"Why would I lie about it?"

 

"To keep me from having the body exhumed."

 

"Again, why? What difference would that make to me?"

 

"Life imprisonment," she said tightly, "if the forensic

 

report implicated you as her murderer."

 

"Ah . . ." At a loss for a word foul enough, he slammed

 

his fist into his opposite palm and ground it against the tough

 

flesh. "Is this what they teach you in law school--to start

 

grasping at straws when all else fails?"

 

"Exactly."

 

He planted his hands firmly on the desk and leaned far

 

across it. "You're not a lawyer, you're a witch hunter."

 

That stung because Alex did feel like one. This search had

 

a vigilante desperation to it that left a bad taste in her mouth.

 

She sat back down and laid her hands on top of the open

 

files.

 

Turning her head away, she stared out at the winter landscape.

 

The naked branches of the sycamore trees on the lawn

 

were encased in tubes of ice. Sleet pellets made tiny pinging

 

sounds against the windowpanes. The sky and everything

 

below it were a dead, dismal gray. Lines of distinction were

 

imprecise. The world was monochromatic--without light and

 

shadows.

 

Some things, however, were black and white. Chief among

 

them was the law.

 

"That might be true if there hadn't been a crime, Reede,"

 

she said, bringing her head back around. "But there was.

 

Somebody went into that stable and stabbed my mother."

 

"With a scalpel. Right," he said scoffingly. "Can you

 

envision Angus, Junior or me wielding a surgical instrument?

 

Why not kill her with our bare hands? Strangle her?"

 

"Because you're all too clever. One of you made it to look

 

like a mentally unbalanced man had done it." She splayed

 

her hand upon her chest and asked earnestly, "In my place,

 

 

 

wouldn't you want to know who that someone was and why

 

he did it? You loved Celina. If you didn't kill her--"

 

"I didn't."

 

' "Then, don't you want to know who did? Or are you afraid

 

that her killer will turn out to be somebody else you love?"

 

"No, I don't want to know," he said emphatically. "And

 

until you obtain a search warrant--"

 

"Miss Gaither?" Mr. Davis interrupted, entering the room.

 

"Is this what you're looking for? I found it in a file cabinet

 

in my storeroom." He handed her a folder, then scuttled out

 

under Reede's baleful stare.

 

Alex read the name typed across the top of the file. She

 

glanced at Reede, then eagerly opened the cover. After scanning

 

the first of several forms, she sank into her chair and reported

 

huskily, "It says here that her body was cremated."

 

Her heart feeling like lead, she closed the folder and rhetorically

 

asked,' 'Why didn't my grandmother ever mention that?''

 

"She probably didn't think it was significant."

 

"She saved everything, Celina's clothes, her things. Why

 

wouldn't she have taken the ashes?"

 

Suddenly, she leaned forward, rested her elbows on the

 

table, and supported her head with both hands. Her stomach

 

churned mutinously. Fresh tears were building behind her

 

lids, making them sting. "God, this is morbid, but I've got

 

to know. I've got to."

 

After taking a few deep breaths, she reopened the file and

 

began to flip through the various forms. Reading one, she

 

sucked in her breath sharply.

 

"What is it?"

 

She lifted the sheet out of the folder and handed it to Reede.

 

"This is a receipt for all of mother's funeral expenses, including

 

the cremation."

 

"So?"

 

"Look at the signature."

 

"Angus Minton," he read softly, thoughtfully.

 

"You didn't know?" He shook his head. "It appears that

 

Angus paid for everything, and wanted to keep it a secret

 

 

 

from everybody." Alex drew a shuddering breath and gazed

 

at Reede inquisitively. "I wonder why."

 

 

 

Across town, Stacey Wallace entered the room that served

 

as her father's office away from the courthouse. He was bent

 

over the desk, poring through a legal tome. "Judge," she

 

chided him affectionately, "as long as you're taking the day

 

off, you should really take it off."

 

"It's not an official day off," he grumbled, giving the

 

wintry view through the window a disgusted glance. "I've

 

needed to catch up on some reading. Today's the perfect day

 

for it, since I can't get to the courthouse."

 

"You've been working too hard and worrying too much."

 

"You're not telling me anything that my ulcer hasn't already."

 

Stacey sensed that he was extremely upset. "What's

 

wrong?"

 

"It's that Gaither girl."

 

"Celina's daughter? She's still pestering you?"

 

"She came to my office yesterday wanting a court order

 

to have the body exhumed."

 

"My God!" Stacey exclaimed in a disbelieving whisper.

 

She raised a pale hand to the base of her throat. "The woman

 

sounds like a fiend."

 

"Fiendish or not, I had to deny the request."

 

"Good for you."

 

He shook his head. "I had no choice. The body had been

 

cremated."

 

Stacey pondered that. "Seems like I remember that now.

 

How'd she take that news?"

 

"I don't know. Reede delivered it."

 

"Reede?"

 

"I called him last night. He volunteered. I would guess

 

she didn't take it well."

 

"Do Angus and Junior know about this?"

 

"I'm sure they do by now. Reede would have told them."

 

"Probably," Stacey murmured. For a moment she was

 

 

 

#quiet. Then she roused herself and asked, "Can I bring you

 

anything?"

 

"Not so soon after breakfast, thanks."

 

"Some hot tea?"

 

"Not now."

 

"Cocoa? Why don't you let me--"

 

"Stacey, I said, no thanks." He spoke with more impatience

 

than he intended.

 

"I'm sorry I bothered you," she said dejectedly. "If you

 

need me, I'll be upstairs."

 

The judge gave her an absentminded nod and dipped back

 

into the leather-bound legal volume. Stacey quietly closed

 

the study door. Her hand listlessly trailed the banister rail as

 

she went upstairs to her bedroom. She didn't feel well. Her

 

abdomen was swollen and achy. She'd started her period that

 

morning.

 

The mid-forties seemed a ludicrous time to be suffering

 

cramps like a teenager, although Stacey supposed she should

 

welcome these monthly fluxes. They were her only reminders

 

that she was a woman. No children came to her asking for

 

lunch money or help with homework. No husband demanded

 

to know what she had cooked for dinner, or if she'd picked

 

up his cleaning, or if he could expect sex that night.

 

Daily she lamented not having all that glorious chaos in

 

her life. As regularly as some people said prayers, Stacey

 

enumerated to God the amenities of life that he had denied

 

her. She longed for the racket of children running through

 

the house. She yearned to have a husband reach for her in

 

the night, to nuzzle her breasts and satisfy her hungering,

 

restless body.

 

Like a priest who takes up self-flagellation, she went to

 

her bureau, opened the third drawer, and took out the photograph

 

album with the embossed white leather cover.

 

She opened it with reverence. One by one, she fondled the

 

precious mementos--a yellowed newspaper clipping with her

 

picture, a small square paper napkin with silver letters spelling

 

out two names in one corner, a crumbling rose.

 

 

 

She leafed through the plastic binders, gazing at the photographs

 

pressed between them. The people posing for the

 

pictures in front of the altar had changed very little over the

 

years.

 

After nearly an hour of masochistic reverie, Stacey closed

 

the album and replaced it in its sacred drawer. Stepping out

 

of her shoes so as not to spoil the comforter on her bed, she

 

lay down and drew her pillow against her chest, snuggling it

 

against her curved body like a lover.

 

Hot, salty tears leaked from her eyes. She whispered a

 

name, urgently and repeatedly. She ground the heel of her

 

hand over her lower body to relieve the pain of emptiness

 

inside her womb, which had been a receptacle for his body,

 

but never his love.

 

 

 

Fourteen

 

 

 

"Hey, what the hell, you two?" Junior exclaimed, dividing

 

his puzzled glance between Alex and Reede. Then, buffeted

 

by a gust of wind, he moved out of the doorway and urged

 

them inside. "Come in. I couldn't imagine who'd come calling

 

on a day like this. Reede, you ought to have your head

 

examined for dragging Alex all the way out here."

 

He was wearing an ancient pair of jeans with the knees

 

worn through, a cotton sweater, and thick white socks. It

 

looked like he hadn't been up very long. In one hand he was

 

holding a steaming mug of coffee; in the other, a trashy

 

paperback novel. His hair was appealingly mussed. Stubble

 

shadowed the lower half of his face.

 

Having recovered from the surprise of finding them on his

 

 

 

doorstep, he smiled down at Alex. She thought he looked

 

terrific and figured that most of the women in the world would

 

agree with her. He looked lazy and rich, sexy and rumpled,

 

comfortable and cushy. He invited snuggling, and his slow

 

smile suggested that's what he'd been doing when they had

 

interrupted.

 

"I didn't drag her out here," Reede said touchily. "It was

 

the other way around."

 

"I was willing to come alone," Alex snapped.

 

"Well, I wasn't willing to let you become a highway statistic

 

in my county," he shouted. Turning to Junior, who was

 

bemusedly taking in their heated exchange, Reede said, "To

 

make a long story short, I drove her out here because she

 

was determined to come and I was afraid she'd kill herself

 

--or worse, somebody else--on these roads. So, here we

 

are."

 

"Well, I'm damned glad you're here," Junior said. "I

 

had resigned myself to spending a boring day here alone.

 

I've got a great fire going in the living room, and all

 

the makings for hot toddies. Follow me." He set off, but

 

turned and added, "Oops, Reede, you know how Mother

 

is about having the floors tracked up. Better take your boots

 

off."

 

"Fuck that. Is Lupe in the kitchen? I'm gonna try and

 

sweet-talk her out of some breakfast." Giving no regard to

 

Sarah Jo's floors, he tramped toward the back of the house

 

as though he still lived there.

 

Alex watched him disappear through a doorway. "Did he

 

say sweet talk!" she asked caustically.

 

"Oh, he's in a sunny mood today," Junior remarked negligently.

 

"You ought to see him when he's really pissed.

 

Leave Reede to Lupe. She knows how he likes his eggs. He'll

 

feel better once he eats."

 

Alex let him help her off with her coat. "I hope this isn't

 

too much of an intrusion."

 

"Hell, no. I wasn't kidding when I said I'm glad you're

 

here." He threw his arm across her shoulders. "Let's--"

 

 

 

"Actually," Alex said, shrugging off his arm, "this isn't

 

a social call."

 

"Business, huh?"

 

"Yes, and extremely important. Is Angus here?"

 

"He's in his den." His smile was still in place, but it had

 

stiffened.

 

"Is he busy?"

 

"I don't think so. Come on, I'll take you back."

 

"I hate to tear you away from your novel."

 

He glanced dubiously at the torrid cover. "Doesn't matter.

 

It was getting monotonous."

 

"What's it about?"

 

' 'A legendary cock's sojourn through most of the bedrooms

 

in Hollywood, both male and female."

 

"Oh, really?" Alex inquired, feigning interest. "Can I

 

borrow it when you're finished?"

 

"Shame on you," he exclaimed. "I'd be corrupting the

 

morals of a minor, wouldn't I?"

 

"You're not that much older than I am."

 

"Compared to Reede and me, you're a baby," he told her

 

as he opened the door to the den. "Dad, we've got company."

 

Angus glanced up from his newspaper. In the span of

 

several seconds his face registered surprise, irritation, then a

 

smile.

 

"Hello, Angus. I hate to disturb you on a sleep-in morning

 

like today."

 

"No problem. There's not much going on. We can't exercise

 

racehorses outdoors when the ground's frozen." He

 

left his red leather recliner and crossed the room to welcome

 

her. "You're a bright spot on a gloomy day, that's for damn

 

sure, hey, Junior?"

 

"I've already told her as much."

 

"But as I've told Junior," she hastened to say, "this isn't

 

a social visit."

 

"Oh? Sit down, sit down." Angus waved her toward a

 

tufted leather love seat.

 

"I'll just--"

 

 

 

"No, Junior, I'd like for you to stay," Alex said before

 

he could withdraw. "This concerns all of us."

 

"Okay, shoot." Junior straddled the overstuffed arm of

 

the love seat as though it were a saddle.

 

"I spoke to Judge Wallace again yesterday." Alex thought

 

she saw both men tense, but it was so fleeting, she could

 

have imagined it.

 

"Any particular reason why?" Angus asked.

 

"I wanted to have my mother's body exhumed."

 

There was no mistaking their reaction this time. "Jesus,

 

girl, why in hell would you want to do something like that?"

 

Angus shuddered.

 

"Alex." Junior reached for her hand, laid it on his thigh,

 

and massaged the back of it. "Isn't this getting a little out

 

of hand? That's . . . that's gruesome."

 

"The case is gruesome," she reminded him as she eased

 

her hand off his thigh. "Anyway, as I'm sure you know,

 

what I asked for is impossible. My mother's body was cremated."

 

"That's right," Angus said.

 

"Why?" Her eyes were bright and intensely blue in the