That’s one more thing I don’t have no idea about. It’s not going to be a lot of fun, I know that. It wouldn’t be for me.
Clayton studied Dad’s face, but there didn’t appear to be anything forgiving or tractable there. All right then, goddamn you, he said. He took up a pen from the desk and signed the paper quickly and shoved it away from him back across the desk.
Dad reached forward and took up the paper and looked at it, examined the signature and the date, and folded the paper twice and put it in his shirt pocket.
Now I think you better go.
This isn’t treating me fair, this way.
No? I thought to myself I was being more than fair.
I deserve better. I’ve been working for you for going on five years.
That’s why I’m saying you better go now. Otherwise I might forget that.
The next day, Sunday, Clayton phoned Dad at home early in the afternoon. I need to talk to you, he said.
We did all our talking last night.
I know. But I need to have one last talk with you.
About what?
Can you meet me at the store?
What are you going to do, shoot me or something? Dad said.
No. Christ. It’s nothing like that. I just need to try to make this right.
You can’t make it right.
I’m asking you. I’m saying please will you. Just talk to me.
Dad thought about it for a moment. All right then, he said. I’ll go in by the back door and let you in the office. In one hour. Two o’clock sharp. Don’t make me wait. This is not going to make no difference though.
Thank you.
Just before two, without telling Mary what he was doing, Dad went out to his car and drove across town to the hardware store and went in by the alley and left the door unlocked and turned the lights on. He entered the little office and switched the light on there and checked to see that the gun was in the drawer of the desk and then put it back, then he heard the car and Clayton was coming in at the alley door. He sat and waited, only it wasn’t Clayton who appeared. It was his wife, Tanya, the young blond woman.
Where’s your husband? Dad said.
He isn’t coming. I’m here.
What are you doing here?
She stepped into the little close windowless office. She was wearing a long coat, a man’s raincoat, a kind of slicker. She came around the end of the desk and stood three feet away from Dad. Then she opened the coat. She was naked under it. A young woman who had had two children in rapid succession and she showed it. Her belly was round and slack and had white stretch marks. She had wide hips. Her large breasts sagged a little. But she wasn’t bad-looking.
You can have all this, she said. You can have all this as often and regular as you want it for an entire year. I know some special things too that might interest you.
If what, Dad said.
If you tear up that paper he signed last night and we all forget anything ever happened.
He looked at her face. Her face was quite pretty. She was watching him closely, her eyes fierce and hard and scared, daring him. Waiting.
No, he said. No, I’m not interested. You’re going to take this wrong but I’m not going to do anything like that. Your husband’s wrong as hell to get you into this.
I don’t care about that, she said.
You will.
She opened the front of the raincoat wider, as if she hadn’t offered herself sufficiently. She changed her stance, pushing herself forward, displaying her body. She put a hand on one hip, moving the skirt of the coat out of the way. She turned slightly to show herself in profile. Do you see? she said. Are you looking?
Yes, he said. And I’m married and my wife is all I want and all I’ll ever want.
You’re not looking good enough, she said.
Yeah I am. I think you better go on now.
You’re going to regret this. You’re going to wish you could change your mind.