CHAPTER 21
It was the beginning of September, and Apple’s vicious reputation was growing daily. She tormented and severely abused her once close friends. Everyone felt that she was out of control, and her mother wasn’t any better, supporting her daughter’s reckless ways because it kept her fresh in clothes, money, and jewelry. Apple had growing confrontations in Harlem, from her sister to the males and females that hated her. She was always too stubborn to back down from a fight and threatened anyone that crossed her. She looked at herself as improved from how she used to be—na?ve and broke—and vowed never to struggle for a dime ever again. She was heartless with her .22 and small razor, leaving her trademark across half a dozen ladies that dared her.
She drove around Harlem in her pricey powder blue Benz and boasted about her wealth, sporting the nicest clothes and jewelry that money could buy. Money had changed her for the worse. It had gotten so bad for her that one night she exited a local diner from taking her mother out to eat and found her car keyed up, both front tires slashed, and her windshield shattered. Apple was highly upset, but she knew it was only part of the program. Collateral damage, she said to herself. Apple was somewhat glad she had haters. It meant she was relevant.
Apple woke up suddenly around three in the morning in a cold sweat, screaming out from a nightmare she’d been having continuously. She lifted herself out of bed, and welcomed the dim light coming from the television. She felt like she couldn’t breathe, and the room was spinning, the walls closing in on her.
*****
Apple found herself alone once more in the luxurious brownstone that she and Supreme shared. Her mother was out gambling till the early morning hours again, and Supreme was never home, which was starting to trouble her. She’d heard rumors about him fucking other girls, and even though she put the word out that there was no more sleeping off a debt, it had gotten back to her that Supreme had fucked Ayesha a few times when she couldn’t pay back the five hundred dollars she borrowed.
Apple fumed at Ayesha getting with her man and made a mental note to check her when she saw her in the streets. Apple wasn’t having it; she wasn’t going to be played like some fool. She felt she had worked too hard to get the finer things, and Ayesha wasn’t going to take the easy way out. She planned to confront her at her home and tell her that she still owed the money, even though she’d fucked Supreme to clear herself from the debt.
And she was ready to cut Supreme. They hadn’t fucked in two weeks because Apple felt he was too busy occupying himself with the whores on the streets. She was afraid that maybe he was getting tired of her. She was doing all of his dirty work, while he was basking in the glory.
*****
Right now though, Apple had bigger problems to deal with—her nightmares and her guilt. She was having the same recurring dreams about Nichols. In her dreams, Apple was alone, frightened, and being dragged into a dark, terrifying pit—maybe hell—where she’d hear blood-curling screams from Nichols as she cried out to her in anguish, “Why? Why? Why you let him do this to me?”
It pained her to hear Nichols’ gut-wrenching voice. She felt this paralyzing chill overcome her that she couldn’t escape. Some demonic force would depart from the depths of hell to seize her sadistically and pull her into a long suffering. She would try to scream, shake, bite, and fight her way out of the dark entity’s control over her, but the more she fought, the weaker she became, until finally she’d give in. That’s when she would feel herself sinking down into hell and hear Nichols’ chilling voice fading in the distance. She would stir wildly from her sleep and have to catch her breath. Her nightmare seemed too real, and she would be paranoid for the first ten minutes after waking up.
It was the sixth nightmare she’d had within two weeks, and it started to bother her. She thought about seeing a doctor, but then she didn’t want to be looked at as crazy.
With no one around to talk to or comfort her, Apple got out of bed and went into the bathroom. She turned on the faucet and splashed cold water on her face to calm her nerves. She lingered on her reflection in the bathroom mirror for a moment and noticed the change in her eyes, which were now cold and daring.
Next, she walked into the kitchen to fix herself a late-night snack. She figured having something in her stomach would ease her nerves a little more. She made herself a turkey and cheese sandwich, poured a large cup of iced tea, and returned to her bedroom to try and relax. She rested against the headboard, stuffed her face with food, and turned the volume up to see what was good to watch on cable at three in the morning. It was mostly paid programs and movies she’d already seen.
Nothing of interest caught her eye, until she turned to The History Channel and caught the beginning of an hour-long documentary on Stockholm syndrome, which she wanted to know more about. She didn’t know why the show had caught her eye, but she focused on the program.
At first, the host talked about the syndrome—“the psychological occurrence where hostages show admiration, worship and praise and have unreasonable positive feelings toward their captors, given the endangerment and risk.”
The program stated that the FBI’s Hostage Database System showed that almost 30% of victims show signs of Stockholm syndrome, an extraordinary phenomenon in which a hostage begins to identify with and grow sympathetic to his captor.
Apple’s young eyes stayed glued to the program. The program then went on to talk about Patty Hearst, the heir to a publishing fortune who in 1974 was kidnapped by the Symbionese Liberation Army. Unbelievably, Hearst aggressively participated in a robbery just two months after she was captured. Patty was convicted and sent to prison, but in 1979 her sentence was commuted by President Jimmy Carter, and in 2001 she received a pardon from President Bill Clinton.
After the program ended, Apple started wondering if she was suffering from the same condition. Was it Stockholm syndrome? She was in awe, still staring at the TV in a trance-like state. She realized that she had become a willing participant in covering up her sister’s murder by cohabiting with her murderer.
The tears started to flow from Apple’s eyes like a waterfall. It was like she was meant to watch that documentary. She felt Supreme had used her, taken advantage of her when she was vulnerable, and left her blinded from the reality that he was still a murderer. After killing her younger sister, now he was using her for his own purposes. And he would probably discard her when he had no more use for her.
Apple knew she was fucked in her own way, though, without any real proof linking Supreme to her sister’s murder. Besides that, she figured the police weren’t likely to help because now she was known to be an accomplice in Supreme’s criminal enterprise.
That same night, Apple logged on to the Internet and continued to read more about Stockholm syndrome. She stayed up till morning reading about it and learned that hostages who develop Stockholm syndrome usually see the culprit as the giver of life simply because they spared it. The captor automatically becomes in control of the captive’s need for survival and the victim’s overall life.
Apple thought about Supreme taking her to DC, buying her things to make her happy, and not killing her when he had the chance. He’d provided her with material things and made her look to him for her survival.
She continued to read on. “The perpetrator threatens to murder the victim and paints the picture of having the capability to do so. The hostage figures it safer to align with the captor, bear the adversity of captivity, than to resist and face murder.”
Apple ended her research by reading some more. “When realization from the hostage seeps in that their life was spared, the hostage sees the perpetrator as showing some degree of kindness. Kindness is the basis of the Stockholm syndrome; the condition will not develop unless the captor exhibits it in some form toward the hostage. However, the hostages often misinterpret a lack of abuse as kindness and may develop feelings of gratitude for this supposed compassion.”
Apple thought about how Supreme had once threatened her and her family, and then sucked her into being in a relationship with him with his gifts, sex, and charm. She felt Supreme had manipulated her over the summer. Suddenly feeling disgusted and used, she ran into the bathroom, fell to her knees, positioned her face over the toilet, and began vomiting.
“Fuck me!” she uttered.
She stayed in the bathroom staring into space for about an hour. Then she got up, washed her face, collected herself, and devised a plan to get back at Supreme. He’d brought hell and shame upon her family, and for that he needed to pay with his life.
The following day, Apple got into her Benz and drove to Lincoln projects. Even though she had a sudden disgust in her heart and despised Supreme, she loved her newfound life and wasn’t about to give it up. She still had business to take care of.
The first thing on her agenda for the day was confronting Ayesha. Apple had got word that not only did she f-uck Supreme to cancel her debt, she was also talking shit about her.
Ayesha let it be known in public that she wasn’t scared of Apple, shouting out, “I remember when she used to be a dumb, broke bitch! That bitch ain’t shit to me!”
Apple didn’t take too lightly to the insult and wanted to teach Ayesha a lesson. She parked her Benz and strutted into the building in her tight Seven jeans and stylish top, her .22 and small blade concealed. When the locals saw Apple around the way, they knew to expect trouble. She only came through to either collect money or whip a bitch’s ass.
Apple walked up to two passing young ladies and asked, “Any of y’all seen Ayesha around?”
“No,” they replied.
Apple kept it moving and continued to ask around for her, but no one knew where she was at. She was beginning to think they were covering for her, knowing she was there to hurt Ayesha for the gossip she was spreading.
An hour later, Apple still didn’t have any luck finding Ayesha, so she decided to call it quits and come back the next day to continue her search. She stood beside her Benz, the sun slowly dropping below the horizon. The streets were teeming with people, from the young to the old, and with the first day of school right around the corner, the young ones were trying to have fun for the last few days of summer vacation.
Apple lit up a cigarette, leaned against her Benz, and looked around at her old hood. She didn’t live too far from it and didn’t miss it at all. She hated the sight of her old building—too many memories for her. She wanted out of Harlem, period, but the only place she’d been to was DC.
She exhaled the smoke, took a few more pulls, and was ready to extinguish her cigarette and get into her car. Just then, she noticed Cross’ gleaming black Range Rover coming to a stop across the street from her. Her heart fluttered, and she couldn’t keep her eyes off his truck. The windows were tinted, and his chrome wheels shined like a brand new dime. Apple knew it was Cross’ truck because she knew that man’s ride from blocks away. She missed staring at her eye-candy. Apple so badly wanted to jump his bones, and in a heartbeat, she was ready to become his woman. The way he made her feel, it should be considered a crime. She would have done anything for him.
Apple watched from the short distance of three lanes of traffic, as Cross stepped out of his truck clad in a bright red velour sweat suit, matching Jordan’s, and his long chain gleaming with diamonds. She smiled, feeling like she had the courage to finally holla at him the way she wanted to, but her smile was short-lived when she saw Kola step out from the passenger’s side of the Range Rover. Apple looked on with bewilderment, which soon turned to bitterness and hate when she witnessed Cross pull Kola into his arms like she was his woman, hugging and kissing on her in public.
“Oh no, this bitch didn’t,” she whispered under her breath in total disbelief.
Apple was fuming and couldn’t keep her eyes off Kola hugged up on Cross. It was apparent that they had become a couple. She wanted to know how the f-uck it happened. She just stood there watching the two enter the Chinese takeout spot. For a moment, Apple was lost. It seemed like her nightmare was never-ending. She couldn’t believe how Kola betrayed her. Kola knew of her feelings for Cross.
She tossed her cigarette and hurriedly moved across the street, not caring about traffic, and stormed into the Chinese establishment.
“Bitch, how fuckin’ dare you cross me like that!” she shouted, attracting the attention of other customers.
Kola was hugged up on Cross as they waited for their food. When she saw Apple barging into the place, she smirked. Then she suddenly slid from her man’s arm and rushed toward Apple with that same fury. The twin sisters were up in each other’s faces, while the customers stood around watching the two identical twins size each other up.
Kola shouted, “I just stepped up on somethin’ that you were too scared to push up on!”
“Nah, f-uck that! You knew how I felt about him! How you do me like that, Kola? You a foul bitch!”
“Bitch, f-uck you! Don’t come up in my face talkin’ about betrayal, after what happened to Nichols! You ain’t got no fuckin’ right!”
“Why you gotta keep throwing that in my face?”
“’Cause you and Mommy are some dumb bitches. But it’s all good, ’cause you gonna get yours, bitch!”
“Kola, don’t f-uck wit’ me!” Apple was so close up on her sister, she could see the pores of her skin.
Cross got between the two. “Y’all need to chill.” He grabbed his woman away from Apple, who was crushed when she saw how Cross took hold of Kola in that caring manner.
“Yeah, I got him, bitch. He’s wit’ me. You hear me, tramp? I got him. So go and continue fuckin’ wit’ that rapist killer, ’cause I’m doin’ better!”
Apple exited the food spot with tears in her eyes and rushed across the street to her ride. She hastily got in behind the steering wheel, started up the car, and peeled off without caring about oncoming traffic, causing an approaching car to slam on its brakes to prevent crashing into her Benz.
Apple raced back home and hurried through her front door. She cried out for Denise, but she wasn’t home. She peeled off her clothing, leaving a small trail from the living room to the bathroom. She suddenly needed to cleanse herself in the steaming hot water. She got into the shower and let the hot water cascade off her rich light-brown skin, wishing she could just wash the pain and heartbreak away. She was fucked up. Just thinking about Kola fucking Cross made her want to go insane. It wasn’t supposed to happen like that. Cross was supposed to be her man. She was the one he was supposed to wife up.
Apple remained in the shower for a long time, wanting to make the pain go away, scrubbing herself and letting the water soothe her. So much had happened in the past three months. In fact her life had gone a quick 180 degrees in such a short time.
After spending an hour in the shower, she stepped out the bathroom, wrapped in a towel, to find that Supreme and Guy Tony had arrived and were lingering downstairs.
Supreme looked at her and asked, “Where you been at?”
“Out.”
“What you got for me then?”
“What?” Apple responded, confused.
“I heard you was out today trying to collect. So where it at?”
“I didn’t collect shit today, Supreme, and right now, I’m not in the mood for your shit.”
Supreme glanced at Guy Tony and then glared back at Apple with a look that let her know he didn’t like her response. His hulking figure moved closer to her. “Bitch, who the f-uck you talking to like that?”
“Supreme, just step the f-uck off! Fo’ real!”
Apple wasn’t in the mood for his nonsense and had enough to deal with. She spun on her heels with an attitude and was about to go back into the bedroom, but Supreme grabbed her from behind with brute force and tossed her into the couch like he was a tornado.
“You dumb bitch, watch your fuckin’ mouth wit’ me!” he yelled. “Remember who the f-uck you talking to! You work for me! I fuckin’ made you! You fuckin’ understand me? Everything you got is ’cause of me.”
Apple lifted herself off the couch, but Supreme knocked her back down with a quick backhand slap. Then he snatched the towel from around her, leaving her stark naked in front of company.
Guy Tony didn’t turn his head. Instead, he stared at Apple’s lovely figure.
Apple clutched the side of her face and wiped the little blood from her mouth. She flaunted a defiant stare and mockingly replied, “Yeah, that’s the fuckin’ Supreme I know. I guess the honeymoon is over now. Huh, baby?”
“Apple, don’t fuckin’ test me. I’ll f-uck ya whole world up!”
Apple didn’t know where his sudden rage came from, but she knew for sure that Supreme had to die, either by her hands or someone else’s. He had gotten away with too much, and he needed to expire promptly.
Supreme stood over Apple with the towel gripped tightly in his hand. His eyes were cold and his demeanor so chilling toward her, one more wrong word and she wouldn’t leave the house alive. “Get dressed,” he told her. “We goin’ out.”
Apple didn’t say another word. She slowly picked herself up off the couch, with every inch of her petite, curvy body exposed to Guy Tony, and slowly made her way into the bedroom, knowing Guy Tony’s eyes were glued to her backside.
*****
That same evening, the trio walked into a chic soul food eatery on the West Side of town. Supreme had gotten word through the streets that the business was failing, and the owner, Bobby, was reluctantly ready to take a buyout from a few willing investors. Supreme knew that Bobby had put his heart and soul into the business for eight years, but he was hit hard during the recession, and business was never the same. The neighborhood’s soul food restaurants had long been losing business as a result of changing tastes, intensifying health concerns, and rising costs, and with the current economic downturn, many Harlem businesses were declaring bankruptcy.
It was the opportunity Supreme had been waiting for. He wanted to offer the owner his proposal when the business was at its worst, make Bobby believe that a loan from him could boost things up to where they used to be. Then when he was locked in, he would go in for the “juice” system, and Bobby wouldn’t see it coming.
Apple sat down with Supreme and Guy Tony at the eatery, where everything from Southern-style biscuits and smoked pork chops to homegrown collard greens were served the way mama made it. Supreme admired the place with its Southern feel and the black baby grand piano situated in the back for the nights when the band entertained the customers with jazz and blues. Supreme wanted in.
The trio ordered their meals, and when they were halfway through eating, Supreme asked the waitress for Bobby by name. She nodded and walked off.
Apple remained quiet and barely touched her catfish and beans.
A moment later, Bobby came walking out of the kitchen following behind the waitress. The two men instantly recognized each other, and Supreme stood to greet the owner.
“Supreme, it’s been a long time,” Bobby said with a halfhearted smile.
“I know. Too long, my friend.”
“And what brings you to my place?”
“How’s business?”
Bobby looked at Supreme with cautious eyes. “It can always be better.”
“I know. But is there someplace private where we can talk?”
“In my office.”
“Then you lead the way.” Supreme gestured with his hand.
Bobby looked reluctant at first, but he knew Supreme didn’t take no for an answer. The two men disappeared into a back room, leaving Apple seated with Guy Tony.
When Supreme was gone, Apple looked at Guy Tony and asked, “So did you enjoy the show earlier?”
“What you mean?”
“You like what you saw?” Apple asked, referring to when Supreme stripped her of the towel and left her naked.
Guy Tony just smiled bashfully and took a sip of his drink.
“I know you did. You can never keep your eyes off me. Why’s that, Guy? Huh? You wanna f-uck me?”
“You’re Supreme’s lady, and he’s like a father to me.”
“And? He don’t own me.”
“I see different.”
“You do, huh? And what you see different?” Apple asked with a smile.
“I see you a fuckin’ tease,” he spat. “So just let it be.”
“A tease, huh? Well, wit’ you, I don’t have to be.”
“What you gettin’ at, Apple? Huh? You tryin’ to have me killed? You know how Supreme feels about you. Why you doin’ this?” he demanded with a serious tone.
“’Cause I’m tired of him and his shit. And I know you are too.”
“What?”
“I see how he treats you, looks at you. You been under his wing for how long, and he still got you pushing him around like you in Driving Miss Daisy. And what you got to show for yourself? Nothing much. Don’t you want more outta life, Guy? I mean, I been wit’ him for nearly three months, and he done showed me more love than his right-hand man. I know you see it, Guy. Don’t try to ignore it.”
Guy Tony didn’t respond, but Apple knew she had him thinking about her words. She leaned back in her chair, crossed her legs underneath the table, and looked at him with such an intense seductive stare, he had to turn his head in order to control his hormones.
“Stop playin’ wit’ me, Apple. I’m not that nigga to f-uck wit’,” he warned lightly.
Apple chuckled. “I never said you were.” The two locked eyes across the table, and Apple made it clear by her look that she was available to him whenever he wanted it.
Guy Tony felt uncomfortable. He squirmed in his chair, finding it nearly impossible to fight the urges he’d felt for Apple ever since they’d first met.
Apple continued teasing. “It’s your move, Guy. How do you want it?”
“You’re playin’ a dangerous game, Apple.”
“If you think so.”
The conversation quickly ended when Supreme returned to the table gloating.
“Shit is good,” he uttered to Guy. “It’s fuckin’ good.”
“Everything good, boss?”
“Yeah, it is. I can see us running this place in three months or so. That burnt-out Bobby ain’t gonna be able to keep up wit’ this shit. But I’ll let him believe so. It’s all good, my nigga.”
Apple kept quiet and took a few sips from her drink.
Supreme looked down at her. “You finish eating?”
“I’ve been done,” Apple returned in a sneering, but subtle tone that Supreme didn’t catch.
She pushed herself away from the table and walked ahead of Supreme and Guy Tony to smoke a cigarette. While standing outside the restaurant, she thought about her future. She wanted out of the relationship, but not out of the lifestyle. She had grown addicted to it.
When Supreme and Guy Tony exited the eatery, Apple was ready to go home. As she and Supreme waited for Guy Tony to pull the car around, she kept her mouth shut. She’d had enough of Supreme and didn’t feel like arguing with him.
During the ride home, Apple sat in the backseat, while Supreme rode shotgun. She noticed Guy Tony glancing back at her every so often. She smiled at herself and knew it was only a matter of time before things went her way.