I dropped my head back, looking up at the bright green leaves fluttering in the early evening breeze. Aside from the gash, the tree looked healthy. It was repairing, thank goodness.
“After a while,” Madoc kept going, “and a lot of persuasion from me, she started to come around. To find her place without you. I think she felt like the fifth wheel all of the time.”
“I couldn’t be there for you and for her, Jared,” Madoc explained. “I don’t want to go into it. It’s Tate’s business, but I had to choose, and I’m not going to apologize for that. She needed me more.”
While I had a damn hard time understanding why he couldn’t be Tate’s and my friend at the same time, I was glad that if he had to choose, he chose her.
Tate had shut me out, she’d kicked me out, and she wouldn’t return texts or calls. But then I realized it wasn’t just me. She must’ve been different for everyone.
“There’s more,” Jax said hesitantly.
I let out an aggravated laugh, shaking my head. What now?
They started walking back from where we came. “Take a look in the front yard,” Madoc called out, gesturing in front of Tate’s house.
I didn’t have to walk far. When I spotted the FOR SALE sign on the other side of the driveway, the ache Madoc’s story had created in my gut turned to full-blown rage in my head.
“What the hell is going on?” I growled, eyeing the tall white wooden pole planted in the grass that hung the FOR SALE sign in full view of anyone who drove by.
Her house is for sale? My eyes shifted from side to side, the flood of thoughts keeping my feet planted to the same spot.
Jax stepped forward. “Tate’s off to Stanford in the fall. Her dad is spending most of his time abroad,” he explained and then approached me. “Last week, he decided to sell, since they’re both home so rarely. He’s buying a house closer to work when he’s in the country.”
“And Tate was okay with that?”
“She had no choice,” Madoc stepped in. “James wouldn’t let her spend her inheritance on buying the house from him. She needs it for medical school.”
I squatted down, running my hand through my hair. I breathed in and out, trying to stay calm, but this shit was flipping my world upside down. Tate’s coldness, the tree, the house . . .
What did I think was going to happen, anyway? That she was going to stay in this house forever? I knew shit was going to change, and I had to accept it. Tate fell away from me, and her life was as it should be. She was moving forward and on track.
But as my lungs filled and emptied, I wished the knots in my gut would hear what my brain was trying to convey.
Tatum Brandt isn’t yours anymore.
But then my fists tightened, and I looked up at her house.
And then at our tree.
And then at my house.
And I couldn’t accept that.
Even after all the good in my life—my business, my career, and how I’d grown—I was satisfied but not really happy.
I still loved her. I’d only ever wanted her.
“Are there any offers on it yet?” I asked, not meeting anyone’s eyes.
“They’ve had two,” I heard Madoc say.
Of course. No one could refuse a Leave It to Beaver house like this. The offers would come fast, and there would be plenty.
“James rejected both, though,” he continued. “He doesn’t seem to be in too big a hurry to sell. That’s why Tate’s staying at my house for a few days. They’re doing some touch-ups inside for new buyers.”
I ran my hand through my hair again, ignoring the fact that Pasha now had her full attention focused on me as she stared wide-eyed, eating her candy. There was only one other time she’d seen me really angry, so she was probably damn well enjoying this show.
I looked up at Tate’s house. Perfect white with some summer green trim. A big, beautiful porch. Her manicured lawn sprawling down an easy little hill. I remember loving the sight of the lights glowing inside on cold winter nights as I pulled into my own driveway.
And my fucking eyes started burning, and I had to look away.
The backyard where we made love the first time. Our bedroom windows facing each other. The tree that connected us.
I bared my teeth, inhaling a sharp breath. I’d thought nothing would change.
“Jared.” Madoc cleared his throat. “We just told you that your girl tried to cut down your tree. The one you tattooed on your back.” His hard voice got louder. “That the house she’s lived in ever since you’ve known her is up for sale.”
“She’s not my girl,” I barked.
“She’s not anyone else’s, either!” Madoc shot back. “Tatum Brandt loves one person. You. She will always love you.” His threatening growl was almost a whisper. “She breathes for you, no matter how much she denies it or tries to hide it.”
I wanted to believe that was true. That buried inside this new, cold Tate was the girl that still held my heart.
Standing up, I slid my hand into my pocket, my fingers fisting around the familiar round of clay that held her fingerprint. After all this time, I still needed the little thumbprint fossil she’d made as a kid. I couldn’t live a day without her.
“You should’ve come back for her a long time ago,” Madoc scolded.
“I did,” I growled, lashing out at Madoc. “Six months after I left I came back, and she was with somebody else!”
I inched back, my limp hand releasing the fossil and falling to my side as I looked at his shocked expression.
I nodded breathlessly when he remained speechless. “Yeah, I came back, and it was too fucking late, okay?”
Jax knew, but Madoc and I hadn’t been speaking, and from the looks of it, Jax hadn’t told him.
I could still feel everything as if it was yesterday.
I stand at my old bedroom window, stunned and angry. Frozen and hard.
I vaguely recognize the guy. Gavin something. He was from one of her study groups at Northwestern; I’d met him a year ago. I ball my fists. How long did she wait after I left?