A Necessary Sin: The Sin Trilogy: Book I

My father states The Fellowship decree. It’s something I’ve heard a million times in my life but it’s been adjusted to fit these new circumstances.

I only listen to Bleu’s voice repeating after my father. “I will be loyal and never betray any of the secrets of The Fellowship. I will never violate the family of another member. I will allow my sisters to guide me in my role. My blood is Sinclair’s blood, as his is now mine. From this day forward, we are one family known as The Fellowship. This I solemnly swear.”

It’s done. Bleu is mine and one of us. I can finally display my affection for her without concern. The next step will be telling everyone I’ve claimed her. But what I really want right now is to possess her.

Everyone will want to use this time to get acquainted with Bleu, but they’ll have to wait. Her declaration is a huge turn-on so I need to get inside her—five minutes ago.

I take her hand and tug. “Come.”

“Where are you taking me?”

“Mum had the guest house redecorated after she went home goods shopping with you. It’s quite lovely. You need a tour since you inspired it.”

“My, my. You’re very passionate about home decor tonight.” She giggles.

“I’m passionate about something but it doesn’t have a thing to do with new linens.”

“Is the initiate ceremony always that … hot?”

I completely agree; it was sexy as hell. “Never. It’s always two men with a few witnesses in the conference room. The older member accepts responsibility for guiding the new one.”

Mum comes out of nowhere and blocks our way. “Where do ye think yer taking her?”

“Umm …”

“Aye, that’s what I thought ye would say, but ye can turn yerself back around. Dinner is being served and the guest of honor cannae go missing for a shag in the guest house.” Cock-blocked by my own mum.

We regretfully return to our table and take our place next to my parents for our catered dinner. We’re two courses in when I put my hand on Bleu’s thigh beneath the table. I slowly glide it in an upward motion. “I’m not craving leg of lamb. I want these legs with a side of something very special.”

“You are so bad.” She giggles and pushes my hand away. “You’ll get everything you want—later.”

I notice her pushing food around her plate but not eating. “Have you found more Scottish food you don’t care for?”

“No. It’s not that.” She scrunches her nose. “It’s the medication to treat the ovarian stuff. I’m still having side effects—GI symptoms.”

“Maybe you should see a physician here.”

“My doctor told me this might happen so it comes as no surprise.” She shrugs if off. “I’ll consider making an appointment if things don’t improve.”

When dinner is finished, a band launches into its first set and everyone moves to the makeshift dance floor in the center of Mum’s well-kept garden. Of course, I get first dance with the guest of honor. “Is this how every new member is welcomed?”

“Only you.”

She’s smiling. “I feel very special.”

“You should—because you are.” I kiss her forehead. I want to tell her I love her but, again, this isn’t the right time. It shouldn’t happen in front of the entire brotherhood.

“There are a lot of people here. Are they all Fellowship?” she asks.

“Mostly. If they aren’t in the brotherhood, they’re comrades. They were invited because it’s necessary they know you.”

“I’ll never remember all these people.”

“You will in time.” I say it as though she’ll be around forever but we both know that isn’t the case. That’ll be a whole new problem to deal with when the time comes. I don’t wish to think about it right now. I’m too happy.

The song ends and I’m forced to give up my lass so she may dance and mingle among her new family, leaving my dance card open. Westlyn gets up from her chair and walks in my direction so I grab the closest lass I can find.

“Is this your way of asking me to dance?” Lorna says.

“This is my way of telling you we are.”

“Then I guess we’re dancing.” We sway to the music as my eyes search the crowd for Bleu. I’m not sure I’ll ever stop being uneasy when she’s out of my sight. “You’ve surprised me—and every other member of the brotherhood.”

“How so?”

“You took a huge leap for Bleu,” Lorna says.

“Aye.”

“It’s nice to know you aren’t all heartless.”

Is she referring to Leith? “Bleu told me about your feelings for Leith.”

“I don’t know what you mean.”

“I’m talking about you being in love with him.”

This time she doesn’t deny it. “He doesn’t know I exist except to put me on the work schedule.”

He used to know she existed because he got into her knickers often. We all did. But I had no idea I wasn’t the only one no longer banging her. “You don’t shag anymore?”