Clara had managed to scrape the oil paint off her face, though her hands were tattooed with a near-permanent palette of colorful dots. Clara seemed to be morphing into a pointillist painting.
“You’re welcome to take a look,” she said. “But I want you all to repeat after me, ‘It’s brilliant, Clara.’”
They laughed, but when she continued to look at them they all, in unison, said, “It’s brilliant, Clara.”
Except Ruth, who muttered, “Fucked up, insecure, neurotic and egotistical.”
“Good enough,” laughed Clara. “If not brilliant, I’ll settle for FINE. But I have to admit, my focus is being undermined by that damned blanket box. I actually dream about it at night.”
“But have you found anything valuable?” asked Gabri. “Daddy needs a new car and I’m hoping to turn that old pine box into a Porsche.”
“A Porsche?” asked Myrna. “You might get into it, but you’d never get out. You’d look like Fred Flintstone.”
“Fred Flintstone,” said Armand. “That’s who you—”
But on seeing the look of warning on Olivier’s face, he stopped.
“Baguette?” Armand offered the basket to Gabri.
“That map?” asked Gabri. “You all seemed interested in it. It’s got to be worth something. Let me get it.”
He hopped up and returned, smoothing it on the pine table.
“This’s the first time I’ve looked at it,” he said. “It’s quite something.”
But what, was the question.
“It’s both a map and a work of art,” said Clara. “Wouldn’t that increase its value?”
“The problem is, it’s both and it’s neither,” said Olivier. “But the main problem is that map collectors tend to like maps of a specific area, often their own, or ones of some historic significance. This is of a small corner of Québec. And not even a historic corner. Just villages and homes, and that silly snowman. It might seem charming to us because we live here. But to anyone else, it’s just a curiosity.”
“I’ll give you fifty for it,” said Ruth.
They turned to her in shock. Ruth had never, in their experience, offered to pay for anything.
“Fifty what?” asked Myrna and Olivier together.
“Dollars, you dickheads.”
“Last time she bought something, it was with licorice pipes,” said Myrna.
“Stolen from the bistro,” said Olivier.
“Why do you want it?” asked Reine-Marie.
“Does no one get it?” demanded Ruth. “Don’t any of you see? Not even you, Clouseau?”
“It’s Miss Marple to you,” said Armand. “And see what? I see a beautiful map, but I also understand what Olivier’s saying. We’re probably the only ones who value it.”
“And do you know why?” Ruth demanded.
“Why?” asked Myrna.
“You figure it out,” she said. Then she looked at Myrna closely. “Who are you? Have we met?”
Ruth turned to Clara and whispered loudly, “Shouldn’t she be doing the dishes?”
“Because a black woman is always the maid?” asked Clara.
“Shhh,” said Ruth. “You don’t want to insult her.”
“Me insult her?” said Clara. “And by the way, being a black woman isn’t an insult.”
“And how would you know?” asked Ruth, before turning back to Myrna. “It’s all right, I’ll hire you if Mrs. Morrow lets you go. Do you like licorice?”
“Oh, for God’s sake, you demented old wreck,” said Myrna. “I’m your neighbor. We’ve known each other for years. You come into my bookstore every day. You take books and never pay.”
“Now who’s demented?” said Ruth. “It’s not a bookstore, it’s a library. Says it right on the sign.” Ruth turned back to Clara and whispered again, “I don’t think she can read. Should you teach her or would that just be inviting trouble?”
“It says librairie,” said Myrna, giving it the French pronunciation. “‘Bookstore’ in French. As you very well know. Your French is perfect.”
“No need to insult me.”
“How is calling your French perfect an insult?”
“I think we’re going in circles here,” said Armand, getting up and starting to clear the table. Years ago, when he’d first heard exchanges like this, he’d been appalled. But as he got to know them all, he’d seen it for what it was. A sort of verbal pas de deux.
This was how they showed affection.
It still made him uncomfortable, but he suspected it was meant to. It was a form of guerrilla theater. Or maybe they just liked insulting each other.
Reaching for more dishes to take to the sink, he looked down at the map. In the candlelight it seemed to have changed.
This wasn’t just a doodle, made by some bored pioneer to while away the winter months. There was purpose to it.
But there was another slight change he was noticing now. One he might even be imagining.
The snowman, who appeared so jolly in daylight, seemed less joyous by candlelight. And more, what? Anxious? Was that it? Could a bonhomme be worried? And what would he be worried about?
A lot, thought Gamache, as he ran hot water into the sink and squirted detergent. A man made of snow would worry about the very thing the rest of the world looked forward to. The inevitable spring.
Yes, a snowman, however jolly, must have worry in his heart. As did the work of art. Or map. Or whatever it was they’d found in the wall.
Love and worry. They went hand in hand. Fellow travelers.
Going back to the table to get more dishes, he saw Ruth watching him.
“Do you see it?” she asked quietly as he bent for her bowl.
“I see an anxious snowman,” he said, and even as the words came out, he realized how ridiculous they were. And yet the old poet didn’t mock. She just nodded.
“Then you’re close.”
“I wonder why the map was made,” said Armand, looking at it again.
He didn’t expect an answer, nor did he get one.
“Whatever the reason, it’s not for sale,” said Olivier, looking at it wistfully. “I like it.”
While Armand and Myrna did the dishes, Olivier got dessert out of the fridge.
“Are you looking forward to the first day of school?” Olivier asked as he served up the chocolate mousse, made with a dash of Grand Marnier and topped with fresh whipped cream.
“I’m a little nervous,” Gamache admitted.
“Don’t worry, the other kids’ll like you,” said Myrna.
Gamache smiled and handed her a dish to dry.
“What’re you worried about, Armand?” Olivier asked.
What was he worried about? Gamache asked himself. Though he knew the answer. He was worried that in trying to clean up the mess at the academy, he’d only succeed in making it worse.
“I’m worried I’ll fail,” he said.
There was silence, broken only by the clinking of dishes in the sink, and the murmur of voices as Clara took Reine-Marie into her studio.
“I’m worried that I’ve undervalued what’s in the blanket box,” said Olivier, putting a dollop of whipped cream on a serving of mousse. “But what I’m really worried about is that I don’t know what I’m doing. That I’m a fraud.”
“I’m worried that the advice I gave to clients years ago, when I was a therapist, was wrong,” said Myrna. “I wake up in the middle of the night, afraid I’ve led someone astray. In the daylight I’m fine. Most of my fears come in the darkness.”
“Or by candlelight,” said Armand.
Myrna and Olivier looked at him, not sure what that meant.
“Do you really think you’ll fail?” Olivier asked, putting the coffee on to perk.
“I think I’ve made some extremely risky decisions,” said Armand. “Ones that could go either way.”
“When I’m afraid, I always ask myself, what’s the worst that can happen?” said Myrna.
Did he dare ask that? Armand wondered.
He’d have to resign and someone else would take over the academy. But that would be the very best outcome, if he failed.
The worst?
He was bringing Serge Leduc and Michel Brébeuf together. For a reason. But suppose it backfired? There would be a conflagration, he knew. And one that would consume not just him.
It was a very dangerous sequence of events he’d set in motion.
*
“I wouldn’t recommend it,” said Clara.