When she woke, strong daylight illuminated the windows of the church. Alma sat with Erick. Mia watched as Erick tore a linen shirt in his lap into strips, braiding them, then tying them off, making a little rag-doll figure. Alma held her hand out, looking down. Erick lifted her face up, gently, with his fingers, and tapped her on the nose. He stared at the doors, still bolted, as if looking beyond them. He rose, surveying the women. Seeing Mia awake, he nudged Alma and pointed to her. Mia nodded, still too weak to move first.
Erick turned to the doors. He pushed back the bolt and swung the doors open to the day. Brilliant sunlight flooded the church. The women looked away, squinting, murmuring, some just awakening. Mia saw the empty town square, the abandoned church steps, and the stakes. She looked away from the spot where Father Stefan’s remains rested.
Erick walked out, returning after a few minutes with a shovel. Mia and the women watched him choose a spot at the front of the church steps and begin to dig. He was digging a grave, she realized. No one would be able to enter this church again without thinking of Father Stefan. He would be its constant gate, its conscience.
Erick finished digging the grave, then laid the body inside. He moved to remove the largest stake first, and Mia shuddered.
Erick wrapped his arms around the larger stake, grunting and heaving, doing the work of three men. Mia saw it move, rising from the cold ground, teetering, before Erick let it fall. He went to the smaller stake next, lifting it, letting it fall, then dragging it to the first. Laying the smaller stake across the taller one, he fetched rope from the sheep pen and returned, fastening the stake together. He dug again, another grave perhaps, Mia thought. But it was deeper, and round.
Villagers had begun to come out of their houses, watching from the lanes, some getting the courage to walk out into the square. None seemed angry. Mia knew the expression they wore. It was shame and confusion. Her heart opened to them, forgiveness surprising her in its sudden birth, and, like a newborn, its lack of logic or principle.
Erick lifted the stakes, dragging them to the smaller hole, and dropped them in. Mia heard her own gasp at what Erick had built, echoing among the others who watched.
Erick had built a cross. When his work was finished, he looked up into the church and caught Mia’s eye. A feeling passed between them, clean and pure, like a sacrament.
Alma left Mia, walking to the painting of Jesus above the altar, straining on the tip of her toes to point to His face. The women watched as she ran her little hands over the altar below, then held her hands up to the light. Her fingertips were dirty with soot. She looked at Mia, a question on her face.
“Yes, we will clean this church, Alma.”
Alma turned back to stare at the painting, a single tear rolling down her face.
Chapter Twenty-eight
A year later
Mia felt satisfied as she walked. Dame Alice cooked such heavy meals, even in this warm weather. Spring had come early this year, but Dame Alice still insisted on feeding Mia thick roasts and dark breads. She still thought Mia was too thin, though Mia had put on weight. Everything about Mia was different this spring. Her face had softened, she slept without worries, and she was not afraid to talk of the Bible. She was not afraid to read it either, although the new priest the bishop had sent needed convincing that this was a proper thing for a woman to do. Erick had helped convince him, she recalled with a grin. She hoped he had been kind.
Alma ran ahead of Mia as they made their way toward home with surprising energy after hours of playing with little Marie from the village. Alma skipped and hopped as she tried to flush out the spring rabbits for a good chase.
When they arrived at home, Erick stood in the doorway. “What did you bring me?” Alma squealed, running at him with full speed.
Erick wiped his hands on the side of his trousers, grinning at them both. “Brought you some fresh milk. From Mary.”
Alma ran to him, and he caught her under the arms, swinging her in an arc around himself, spinning in a circle. Mia watched as Alma threw back her head in laughter.
“Not from her cow, surely?” Mia said with a smile.
“She finally traded it for three goats. The goats are at least giving her milk.” Erick set Alma down, and she immediately opened the bag at his side, plunging her hand in.
“Alma! Stop that!” Mia laughed and smoothed out her skirt to busy herself. Her exhortation was futile. Alma pretended not to hear. And Erick himself had created this ritual.
Alma held her prize up to the light. A plain, round stone, but when she turned it, Mia saw it held inside jagged purple fingers, sparkling like gems. She smiled at Alma, whose sweet face glowed with wonder.
Erick took a step forward to leave, and Mia stepped to the side to make room, to avoid coming too close or touching him by accident.
He emptied the bag into his palm as he approached, nodding at Mia to hold out her hand. She did. Erick poured dark, firm black seeds into the folds of her palm. She did not recognize them.
“For flowers. I want you to have something beautiful to look at out your window while you tend to Alma.”