Amyu lifted up on tip-toe, catching a glimpse of Joden through the high window.
He was circling Keir, laughing, his grin wide. His bronze face glistened with sweat, and his laugh… his laugh boomed out as Keir lunged and missed.
Amyu dropped down and stared at her wet hands.
“Good for them both,” Marcus said gruffly. “Work the body to ease the worries.”
Amyu turned her head to look at the scarred man next to her, calmer now that he’d had his say. “He almost went to the snows.” she shared.
Marcus’s scarred lips thinned, but he said nothing.
“He is broken,” she admitted in the quiet room. “Like us.” She picked up a wet bowl and picked at a bit of dried food with her nail. “I fear for him.”
“Dishes don’t wash themselves,” Marcus said pointedly.
Amyu stared down at the bowl. “How did you bear it, Marcus?” she asked, then froze, shocked that those words had come from her mouth.
Silence.
Maybe she hadn’t actually said the words out loud, and praise all the elements that—
“How did you?” Marcus asked. Quietly, without anger or shame.
Amyu didn’t look at him. “The Warprize gave me hope. I thought to find… more. To prove my worth is more than an ability to bear children.”
She risked a glance to find Marcus nodding his agreement. She dared to breathe.
“I had a reason,” Marcus said quietly. “People who I needed to protect. I lived for them, not for my own self. I lived for the Tribe, but it was not without pain or cost.”
Amyu stared down at the bowl again, watching a soap bubble pop.
“Dishes won’t wash themselves,” Marcus said again.
She nodded, and started back to work.
“He will need to find his own reason,” Marcus continued. “But the loss of a voice for a Singer,” he shook his head. “That is not easy to overcome.”
Amyu’s eyes teared up. She nodded, and for a while they worked in silence.
A movement at the door had them both looking up. Rafe stood there, his irrepressible grin in place. “Marcus, may I speak with Amyu? Under the bells,” he added, trying to look apologetic.
Marcus sniffed but nodded.
Amyu dried her hands and stepped over, but Rafe pulled her further away to stand in the doorway. Fylin, Soar, Ksand and Lasa stood there, just out of sight, all with an air of excitement. They were holding bundles and saddle bags stuffed to bursting.
“Amyu, we have permission from the Warlord to go back to your mountain path and explore,” Rafe kept his voice down, his joy obvious. “Come with us.”
Amyu blinked in surprise. “You don’t believe in airions,” she blurted out.
“Truth,” Soar’s eyes sparkled as the rest chuckled. “At best, we find some sign of them. At worst, we escape these stone tents for a few days.”
“Days?” Amyu asked.
Rafe nodded. “There are no orders yet, but every warrior will march with the Warlord when he returns to the Plains. Sooner rather than later. The Warlord will want every able-bodied warrior with him.” He shrugged. “I think he will call senel soon. But we will take these few days and explore, and find your airions. Come with us.”
“No, I—” the words were out of her mouth without a thought, but then she hesitated. This might be her last chance to find the creatures. And yet…
She looked down the hallway, toward the open door and beyond. Joden still sparred with Keir in the sunlight. He was still laughing.
“Something more important than flying, eh?” Rafe asked.
Something in her heart twisted.
Fylin frowned. “He is to be a Singer—” she started.
“And I am a child,” Amyu said the hateful words first defiantly, hoping to ease her pain. It didn’t, but it caught Fylin by surprise.
“My thanks, Rafe.” Amyu turned away from the open door. “But I think I need to make amends.” She tilted her head slightly toward Marcus, dishes finished, waiting with his one eyebrow raised.
“As you say,” Rafe said with a knowing grin, and they were off.
Amyu took a breath. It was the right thing, after all. To make amends for her disobedience. But oddly, she didn’t have even a twinge of regret about not going with them.
She returned to Marcus’s side. “What next?” she asked.
“Nappies,” Marcus smirked as he produced a wooden washing paddle. “And you will aid in the night feedings.”
Amyu sighed.
Lara lifted her head from her pillow, watching Keir slip into their room, fully armed and armored, the hilts of his swords poking up over his shoulders. He caught her eyes and padded in, casting a wary eye on the babies. He raised an eyebrow and tilted his head toward the cradle.
Lara nodded.
Keir made a show of slowly retreating to the garderobe. Lara smiled, and let her head drop back, enjoying these quiet moments of peace. All too soon the babes would need tending. She stretched under the blanket, reveling in the moment.
Keir returned, wearing only trous, his bare feet quiet on the stone floor. He climbed under the covers, and pulled her into his arms. He pulled the covers over their heads like a tent, and kissed her.
“I heard you sparring with Joden,” she whispered in his ear. “Only a warrior of the Plains would think ‘rest’ means the same as ‘fight’.”
Keir gave her an unrepentant smile. “Joden needed it as much as I. He was far more relaxed by that than by talking.”
“Did he fight well?” she asked, knowing that would be a concern.
“Yes,” Keir said. “Whatever happened has not affect his skill with a blade.”
“Give him time,” Lara leaned closer to nuzzle Keir’s neck. She loved the scent of his skin. “His problem speaking may be a passing thing.”
“Time may not be on our side,” Keir said slowly.
Lara pulled back, watching his face. “Do you still doubt Simus?”
Keir was silent, his eyes hooded.
“Well, I don’t,” Lara said firmly. “Simus would never betray you. I know what Yers said, but I—”
Keir laid a finger on her lips, and Lara realized that her voice had risen. She hushed. They both waited, but no sound came from the cradle.
“Simus is loyal,” Keir said. “That is a truth. But it is also true that we do not know the extent of the warrior-priests’ power. Now a warrior-priestess challenges to become his token-bearer, and he allows it? What if he is influenced, or even controlled?” Keir moved his hand to stroke her cheek, his skin warm against hers. “What if he leads an army to the border, and suddenly attacks Liam?”
“Liam of the Deer has warriors, both of the Plains and Xy,” Lara said.
“Liam of the Deer has some warriors,” Keir said. “But mostly the skilled workers we sent to repair that old tower. And if Antas follows on Simus’s heels?”
His hand stopped stroking her cheek, and Lara reached for it to grasp it in her own.
“Now Joden brings word that Wild Winds is dead, because of a vision he saw,” Keir said. “What weight do I give to that truth? And if so, who leads the warrior-priests now?”
“Joden said they were dead, except for those that followed Wild Winds,” Lara reminded
him.
“Forgive me if I do not mourn for those dead,” Keir’s voice was flat, his anger clear. “But who in this do they support?” he continued. “All I have is questions. And…” His voice faded away. He rolled over onto his back, and pulled the blanket down from their heads. The cooler air made Lara shiver. She shifted closer under the blanket and put her head on his shoulder.
“And all the answers are to be found on the Plains,” she finished for him.
“I do not want to leave you,” Keir’s voice was a cracked rumble under her ear. His arms tightened around her. “I do not want to leave them.” His pain was clear.
She brought her hand up to lay on his heart.
“It is not the same as the thea camps,” he said. “In the thea camps all cared for all. There was no meaning, no connection with—” he struggled with his words.
“There was love, but not like this.” She lifted her head, and her curls escaped to fall around his face.