What’s the first thing you notice when you wake up? Sounds, right? Sensations? Well, for me, always, the first thing was a You Will, telling me what I’d feel when I first came into complete consciousness, what I’d see when my eyes finally flickered open.
But there was nothing. My mind was silent as a graveyard. The only explanation I could think of for that was because I was in a graveyard, or destined for one. I was dead.
But then I managed to push open my eyes. I was lying on my side, so the first thing I saw was my bedsheet. I ran my hand over it. It was smooth, not threadbare and pilled. I tossed and turned a couple of times, then pulled the pillow over my face. The pillowcase felt different, too. Sleek. New.
I was just lapsing back into sleep when I got the feeling that someone was in the room with me. Something creaked, and soft footfalls made their way toward the edge of the bed. Someone was standing over me. “Nan, go away,” I muttered, trying to swat her out of the room, but then suddenly everything, once a million miles from my consciousness, came flooding back to me. Taryn. Peanut butter. The Touch. The accident. Mom. Freak.
I skyrocketed upright, ready to defend myself. I lunged forward, flailing my arms awkwardly, and toppled out of bed. Right on two feet. Two very tiny feet.
“Ha ha! Did I scare you, Nicky?” an impish voice said. “Huh, Nicky? You surprised? You jumped a mile high!”
It was a kid. Just a kid, maybe like six or seven. He was bouncing up and down, giving me whiplash. What the hell? Was this what death looked like? A little kid with red hair and freckles and a Spider-Man T-shirt? “Who are you?”
He didn’t answer, just did this Muhammad Ali dance in front of me, and I thought about how weird it all was and that’s when I realized something else. I was thinking. Not seeing the future. Not cycling. Not suppressing visions. All that was gone. Taryn was dead, and yet … I could think. Maybe my brain was having trouble waking up. I thwacked the side of my head to get it going again, but nothing. My mind was silent.
The kid jumped on me, tackling me so that I fell backward. I braced myself for the impact on the rickety old night table, but instead I descended against a plush white carpet. What the hell? When did Nan have that installed? Where was my night table with the toy truck lamp? I jumped back onto the bed, trying to escape the hands of the little booger who seemed to think I was his live punching bag. “Nicky! Nicky! Nicky!” he shouted, careering onto the bed. I began to lift my hands to defend myself when I noticed that the dump trucks and planes were gone from my sheets. They were plain white. Nice, clean, plain white. The kid’s fist smashed into my cheek, making my teeth rattle in my mouth. For a tiny thing, he had power.
The kid lunged at me again, but this time I managed to get the scrawny little devil into a headlock. I looked around. “Ow! Nicky!” he shouted, but I didn’t let go because I was momentarily stunned. It was my bedroom, but not. Somebody had to have been playing a cruel trick on me. Everything was modern, dark blue. There was a desk in the corner with a brand-new MacBook on it, and above that, a shelf with at least a dozen trophies. Running trophies, from the looks of them. It looked like a furniture store showroom, made up like someone could live there, but way too clean and perfect for any actual, living teen.
I rubbed my head and the back of my neck with my free hand. No weird lacerations or bumps or anything of the kind that would have me hallucinating. Because that had to be what this was. A hallucination. A really vivid one. After a minute I realized the imp was just kind of lying like a dead fish in my hands. I quickly let him go. He massaged his neck. “Ow, Nicky,” he said, pouting.
“Sorry,” I said, running a cautious eye over the rest of the room. Ninety percent of it was foreign. The only things that I recognized were my Phillies cap, dangling from the mirror, and my backpack. “Who are you?”
He narrowed his eyes at me and then plodded out of the room. A second later I heard him shuffling down the stairs, calling, “Ma! Nicky’s on something.”
Not only was there a weird kid living in my house, but he thought his mom lived there, too. Great. I sat up and ran my toes through the cushy white carpeting that was not there when I went to bed. Then I got up, went to the drawers and rifled through them. All the T-shirts were folded into neat little squares. But they must have belonged to someone else because none of them looked familiar. I couldn’t find my favorite DON’T BOTHER ME T-shirt anywhere. It was definitely not on the floor, because there was nothing on the floor. For once, I could see every inch of it, that showroom carpeting in all its glory. It had vacuum tracks running through it. What the hell had Nan been up to? Didn’t she have a broken arm? Did she hire a maid? A maid with a little kid?
I looked up. And where the hell did those trophies come from? I inspected the little gold plaque on the base of each of them. First place. Mile. Nicholas Cross. When had I done that? They had the years engraved in them. Last year. The year before. Freshman year.
It was like a broken record, constantly playing the same three words over and over again in my head, but each time, the words got louder. Now they were practically screaming in my ears. What. The. Hell.
I grabbed the first tee I could find, some lame Steamboat Willie shirt that I swear I never owned before, and a pair of jeans. When I pulled the shirt over my head, I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror. I ran a hand through my hair. I hadn’t gotten a haircut since the beginning of summer, so it had been getting shaggy. Nan had given me crap about cutting it before school started, but I didn’t. Now, it was cut short, almost a buzz cut, except the top was long. I stared at it. Wow, I looked lame. It was so bad I thought it very plausible I could have given it to myself last night, while I was sleeping.
In the hallway I stopped outside my mom’s room. Her door was closed and I listened there for a minute but heard nothing. I didn’t stay long because I had other things on my mind. I thought of Nan, going off to get the Touch the night before. She told me it was done. She’d gotten Flight of Song and told Bryce to leave us alone. And that had worked, right? I was alive. In fact, I was better than alive, I realized as I descended into the living room.
I was cured.
And not only that, the living room was better, too. There was a new, leather sofa and a big-screen television. Nan’s old recliner was still there, but everything else was posh and expensive-looking. I could hear that kid giggling and smell eggs frying in the kitchen, so I went in, expecting to see Nan at the stove.
Instead, there was a party going on. I don’t think I’d ever seen that many people in my house at once. My mouth gaped. Some lady—the new maid?—stood in front of the stove, scraping a pan and holding a gurgling infant on her hip. The Spider-Man imp and another kid chased each other around a nice kitchen table. Some older guy sat in the midst of it all, reading the newspaper and sipping coffee.
Okay. So the maid came to clean and brought her entire family? Where was Nan? She definitely wouldn’t be putting up with this if she were here. I cleared my throat, and the lady turned around. Before I could say something to put her in her place, she said, “Oh, Nicky! Sit down. You’re late. You’ve got to get off to school soon.”
But I wasn’t listening. I was staring at her. Her hair was short. Her eyes weren’t dark-circled. And then there was the necklace, on a fraying cord. The green elephant, with its trunk up. It was her.
It was my mom.
I swallowed. Again and again.
She tried to hand me a plate of eggs, but I couldn’t think clearly enough to take it, so she jabbed me in the chest with it. “Why are you just standing there? Eat. What’s wrong with your hands?”
Hands? I looked down. They were shaking. I almost couldn’t stand. I almost couldn’t breathe anymore. Finally I took the eggs and said, “Mom?”
She wiped a little drool from the baby’s mouth. “Yeah? What?” She studied me. I studied her back. Trying to see what was there from before. What was new. What about her I still remembered. “Why are you staring?”
“Because you’re … beautiful,” I finally said.
“Aw, honey,” she said, giving me a kiss on the cheek. Then her face hardened. She inspected me closely, as I did the same to her. “I think your brother’s right. Are you on something?”
“My … brother?” I spat out.
She pointed at the food. “Sit. Eat.”
I sat down, but eating was the furthest thing from my mind. Instead, I watched the kids run around the table. There were new, sparkling white appliances everywhere. Nan’s tomatoes were gone. In fact, if Nan’s Heaven’s a little closer in a house by the sea mural wasn’t hanging under the cabinets, I would have definitely thought I was in the wrong house. I tried to shovel a forkful of eggs into my mouth to make New Mom happy, but then I stopped halfway when my eyes caught on the guy across the table, reading the paper. If these kids were my brothers, then was he …? He munched an English muffin like this was any ordinary day, like he’d eaten with me a million times before, and said, “Hey, Nicky. Fun night last night?”
I stared at him, completely disregarding the question. Maybe it was the way he fidgeted his long legs under the table the way I did, or that he had very familiar dark hair that kind of went every which way, or that he had the same eyebrows that arched in a point in the center. He was a stranger; I was positive I’d never seen him before, but something about him was like déjà vu. I opened my mouth and the only word that I could find came out, strangled and weak: “Dad?”
He took a sip of his coffee. “Uh-huh?” Then he studied me like Mom had—like there was something wrong with me. Like everything about them was completely normal. “Is everything okay, kid?”
The eggs tumbled off my fork. I dropped it on the plate, and the clatter was so loud that the kids stopped giggling, the baby stopped gurgling, and everyone stared at me.
I couldn’t bring myself to answer. I looked around. At the kids. My siblings. At my dad again. At my mom, bouncing that baby on her hip. My family. Why couldn’t I remember them?
Just then the baby giggled and my mom smiled. She smiled. It was an expression I’d never seen on her. An expression I never thought I would see. And wow, her face just lit up. She had a smile that could take over the world. It was amazing.
And so I nodded. “Everything’s okay,” I said, scooping the eggs back onto my fork. “Yeah.”
Mom was instructing the man who was my dad about her having to take Izzy and the twins for their flu shots. “So you’ll have to open the shop, okay?”
“Yes, dear,” he answered. “Poopsie. Love of my life.”
“And don’t you forget it,” she teased, swatting him with her dish towel, the way Nan used to do to me. New Mom checked the clock and pointed at me. “You’re going to be late! Get moving!”
I didn’t know how to explain it to New Mom. It was easier to break it to the other version of my mom, the broken one, the one who was used to bad news. “I can’t. I was suspended.”
Her eyes widened. “What? What did you do?”
I shook my head. “Maybe I wasn’t,” I said, knowing how stupid I looked. I realized that version of the past seemed like a dream. That everything before last night seemed like something I made up. Even Taryn seemed so far away, like one of those perfect dreams that made you wish you never had to wake up.
New Mom came over to me and felt my forehead. “That is the last time I let you stay out past eleven on a school night. You look wiped out. And you have the meet this weekend.”
A horn beeped outside. I just stood there, wondering how I could be expected at a meet when I clearly remembered falling and bleeding everywhere. I looked down. There was nothing on my knees, not even the slightest hint of a scab.
My mother—this alien that had invaded my mother’s body—pushed me toward the door. “Your ride?”
I moved to the door, wondering what else to expect. Part of me didn’t want to make a fool of myself, and yet at the same time I desperately wanted to figure this out. Nan. Nan would have the answers. “Wait. I have to talk to Nan.”
“Nan?” She looked as if she’d never heard the name.
“Yeah. My grandmother?” I prompted.
She stared at me, this horrified expression on her face. “Tommy’s right. Are you doing drugs?”
Tommy and the nameless brother—Timmy, I guessed—laughed and chortled, “Nicky’s on drugs! Nicky’s on drugs!”
“No, I—” A feeling of dread washed over me. Something had happened to Nan. “What’s wrong with her?”
My father spoke up. “Well, my mother lives in Texas. She’s an eccentric lady. You’ve never spoken to her before. Why this sudden interest?”
“No … your mother,” I said to my mom.
“Nicky, you’re scaring me.” I just stared at her, willing the information out of her. Finally, she sighed. “You never knew her. She’s been dead since before you were born.”
The sun beat down on me the second I stepped outside; just one of many things that seemed to be beating down on me. I squinted at the battered Ford in the driveway. Then a head poked out from the other side. It was a guy with shaggier hair than mine, wearing sunglasses. He didn’t look at all familiar. “You coming or what? I’ve been waiting out here forever.”
“Sorry,” I said, still trying to make out his face. Then I realized I was dragging along, so I quickly opened the passenger-side door and slid inside, gagging at the stench of cigarette smoke.
I stared at the guy again. He was wearing an old T-shirt and jeans and flip-flops. He took a drag on his cigarette and pulled the car into reverse. “Man, I hate getting up at crack of ass every morning. I can’t do it anymore. I’ll be happy when this year is over and we can do what we want.”
I nodded a little. I had nothing to add to the conversation because (a) I was still stunned over Nan, and (b) I had no freaking idea who this was.
“And we have to get up at five for the meet on Saturday. Five! On a Saturday. What. The. Hell, man,” he went on, taking another drag on his cigarette.
So he was a runner, too. Even if he was puffing on that cigarette like it was the source of his power. After a minute he looked over at me. I was vaguely aware I was staring at him in a way guys are not supposed to stare at their friends, so I looked away and coughed.
“What the hell is wrong with you?” he asked. “You look like you have to take a crap.”
That was the ultimate question. I wished someone would answer for me. “I … had a bad night’s sleep, I guess,” I answered. “Everything’s all messed up.”
“Yeah, after last night …,” he began. I guess he was thinking I’d complete the sentence. How come everyone remembered last night except me?
And Nan … what happened to her? She was supposed to go and get Flight of Song. She’d come home and told me it was done. She should not have been dead. Not only dead, but dead for seventeen years.
We got to school as the first warning bell was ringing and hightailed it into the music wing, which was closest to the senior parking lot and the bus drop-off. Except it wasn’t called the music wing. It was called the Edith Laubach Memorial Wing. “Who is Edith Laubach?” I mumbled as we went in the double doors. There were colorful murals painted on all the cinder-block walls, murals I swear were not there the day before. Murals of rainbows and people holding hands and hearts and flowers and crap like that.
Friend Guy shrugged. “What is up with you, man? You come through these doors every day for three years and now you ask who Edith Laubach is? Some crazy chick who did herself in a dozen years ago is all I know.”
Two other guys gave Friend Guy a one-finger salute and he told them to screw off. They said the same to me. I knew them, but I was never friends with them. They started talking to me like we were. “Yo, what did you and Spitz do last night?” a guy, who’d once painted the word “freak” on my locker in his girlfriend’s red nail polish, said to me.
Spitz. I look back at the guy who drove me to school. Hell, of course. It was Evan Spitzer. My once–best friend. Who for some reason, like the past nine years never happened, is acting like my always best friend.
That’s it.
It was like it never happened. Like my mom and I never even got the Touch.
And if we never got the Touch, maybe everything in my past never happened. Maybe it was all a dream. Maybe Taryn was still …
Still what? Taryn’s grandmother said she’d given up performing Touches after she realized she’d given one to my mom, a pregnant lady, and passed it on to an innocent child. If we hadn’t gotten the Touch, her grandmother wouldn’t have given up performing Touches for all those years, and maybe she would have completed all the Touches in the book by now. And then Taryn would have been free. If she didn’t have to come down to New Jersey to take over performing Touches for her ailing grandmother, then maybe she was still living happily up in Maine. Maybe she was still alive. Alive … and completely unaware that Nick Cross existed.
Great.
Still, that was better than she was last night. Loads better.
I started wondering whether I could go up to Maine and find her. As a complete stranger, I probably wouldn’t be able to insert myself into her life, but I could at least check to make sure she was okay. I’d have to drive, something that after that night with Taryn I’d never wanted to do again. But that rainy night in her Jeep felt like nothing more than part of a dream, or a scene from a bad movie. I could barely feel the shower of glass on my face now. Had it even happened? Fingers snapped in my face. “Whoa. We’ve got a zoner,” one of the dudes said.
Sphincter, or Spitzer, or whatever he was these days, said, “Yeah, I think he got bitten by a zombie.” They walked down the hall and I followed, feeling like a stranger in a strange land. Was physics my first class? Hell, I didn’t even know my locker combination.
Spitzer said something about how he was going to quit track, and all the guys nodded except me. All I could think of was The Sergeant, stalking back and forth at tryouts and pumping his fist in the air when his son made the new school record. I said, “Your dad’s really going to love that.”
He stopped midstride and stared me up and down, frowning. “Then I guess I should be glad he’s been in the ground for nine years.”
What? His dad wasn’t dead. If his dad had been in the ground for nine years, who was that at tryouts last week, giving Sphincter the thumbs-up and the New School Record shoulder rub? I felt the back of my neck burning as they all stared at me. His dad was The Sergeant, the guy who kept his son in line. He went to all the track meets and brought his own stopwatch and gave Sphincter and everyone crap for just about everything from the condition of the track to the shade of blue the sky was. I mean, I wasn’t part of Spitzer’s life for very long after the Disney Trip Debacle, but I had heard enough to know that …
The trip. The trip I’d tried to prevent. The one I’d successfully delayed by taking the air out of the Spitzers’ tires the night before. Or had I? “There was an … accident on 95?” I muttered. “In Richmond?”
Spitzer glanced at the group and waved them on, then turned to me and pushed me up against the locker. Not hard, but he got in my face. “What the hell is up with you, man?” he hissed. “Do you want me to relive it? You know damn well what happened. Or did you forget coming to the hospital to visit me every day for three months when I was in la-la land?”
I swallowed, realizing I was about three minutes away from making him Sphincter the Non-Friend again. “No. Sorry, man.”
After that I walked aimlessly and silently down the hall alone, feeling like a zombie. Of course, if Sphincter’s Army sergeant of a dad had died long before, he wouldn’t feel pressured to be on the track team. He wouldn’t have to clip his hair and stop smoking and whatever it was his father valued. And he probably wouldn’t have felt the need to get the Touch of physical perfection that would grow tumors in his body that would kill him by the end of the year.
I was so deep in thought that when I felt someone brush up behind me and tickle the back of my neck, I turned, thinking, What now? At this point, anything seemed possible.
I was right. I almost broke down right there. My knees felt loose and wobbly, like twigs.
Because standing in front of me, smiling with angelic innocence, different yet wonderfully, miraculously, marvelously the same, was Taryn.
“Hey, you,” she said, giving me a kiss on the cheek.
I just stared at her, stiff. I couldn’t move. She was alive. Alive, and not only that, she knew me? Could it be that even though so much had changed, our relationship hadn’t?
“Why are you staring at me like I have two heads?” she asked. She wiped her mouth. “Is my lip gloss on my chin?”
“No, you’re … you’re fine. You’re here,” I said. And I reached out to touch her, slowly, like testing a fence to see if it’s electrified. Yes, real. The skin of her wrist was warm and smooth.
She studied me. “You don’t look so good.”
I might not have looked so good, but I felt great. “I love you,” I said, taking her by the shoulders. My eyes got all wet and bleary, and I rubbed the tears away to look at her again. I never wanted to stop looking at her.
Her eyes widened. She touched my cheek. “I love you, too. Hey, are you okay? You’re worrying me.”
I just grabbed her and pulled her to me, so close that I could feel her heartbeat and she giggled in my ear. “Yeah. I’m perfect.” We stayed that way for a long time, until the final bell rang overhead.
“We’re late!” she said, pulling away from me. “Baumgartner is going to maim us.”
Baumgartner. The physics teacher. I followed behind her. “You’re … you’re in my class?”
She raised an eyebrow at me. “Duh. What, did you already forget whose notes you copied yesterday? Your ass would fail if it wasn’t for me!”
When we got to class, Baumgartner did the furthest thing from maiming us. The stodgy old guy beamed at Taryn like she was his own child. So she’s the teacher’s pet, I observed as she waved at him. I wondered if she still wanted to be a veterinarian. I took the seat next to her at the lab station and as she opened her notebook, a huge red A+ Great Work! caught my eye. She was the star student. And it made sense. All that stuff about her falling in with the wrong crowd in Maine never happened. She was no longer a year behind. She was a year ahead.
She patted my hand and whispered, “Don’t worry. It was just the first quiz. You have plenty of time to erase that F.”
I looked at her, at those beautiful eyes, that beautiful everything that I never thought I’d see again. Like I cared that I got an F and in this life I was an intellectual amoeba. There were so many other things out there.
I spent most—well, pretty much all—of the rest of the period, sitting back on the stool, staring at my girlfriend. She was wearing this cute blue schoolgirl miniskirt that showed off her smooth, pale runner’s legs. Every so often she looked back at me and gave me a smile, especially when Baumgartner asked me a question. I slowly became aware everyone was staring at me. He’d asked me a question, after all.
Crap. He’d asked me a question.
“Um,” I said. I would have done the signature thing and flipped through the pages of my physics book to pretend I was trying to find the answer. That is, if I had remembered my physics book. If I had remembered anything at all. I didn’t really even know what the question was.
Baumgartner tapped on the side of his desk. Taryn pretended to cough and cover her lips from him, then secretly mouthed the word to me.
“Velocity,” I mumbled.
“Ah. It takes a village,” Baumgartner said, as if he thought he was the funniest dude on the planet, giving Taryn a wink. “By the way, Cross, what happened to your textbooks?”
I shrugged. “I forgot them.” At least, I thought I had. In the world I remembered, I got suspended before I could pick up any books on the first day of school. After the accident, things were a blur. Did I have books in that neat, plush room I woke up in this morning? The place was so spotless, you’d think I would have noticed a stack of books there. But the last book I could recall getting my hands on, much less opening, was …
Of course.
I didn’t want to incur Baumgartner’s wrath, so I waited for the bell to ring, making it pretty much the longest class period of my life. I think I successfully bored a hole into the linoleum with all the fidgeting I was doing with my foot. Before Taryn could pack up her stack of books, I said, “Where’s the book?”
She slid the physics book across to me. “You want to borrow it? Okay.”
“No. The book. The Book of Touch. I need to see it.”
“What is the Book of Touch?” she asked.
Right. The world was upside down. Of course this wasn’t going to be easy. “You know. Your grandmother’s book. The book she used up at her tent, on the boardwalk.”
She’d been packing her stuff up, but suddenly she just stopped, grabbed the rest of her books in her arms, slung her backpack over her shoulder, and walked away from me. “I don’t know what you’re talking about,” she muttered.
“You have to. Your grandmother. She has the book, right?”
She stopped and stared at me. “Nick, what’s going on? You’re acting really … intense. Are you okay?”
“I’m fine. I just need to … understand things. I need to see that book.”
She hitched her shoulders, exasperated. “What book? I have no clue what you’re talking about!”
I sighed. “Your grandmother. She tells fortunes at the Heights, right?”
“No,” she said as I followed her out into the hall, “she’s dead. She died earlier this year. That’s why we moved here. We inherited her house. You know all this. Why are you acting so weird?”
“Oh. I’m sorry,” I said.
She rolled her eyes. “You know I barely knew her. She was a grouchy old lady. But yes, she did tell fortunes at the Heights or something. Before she died.”
I nodded. “And did she use a book?”
She exhaled slowly and flitted her eyes away. “I told you, I have no clue about the book. You’re freaking me out and I have to get to pre-calc.” She started to walk down the hall, and I just followed her. Then she turned, planted her hand on my chest, and gave me another kiss on the cheek. “You have to go to gym. Remember?”
I shrugged. I didn’t.
She had to pry her hand out of mine. She looked kind of weirded out when she said, “Don’t worry. I’ll see you for third. English. Room 116.” It was actually kind of a comfortable feeling. I’d spent all my life weirding people out, even if now I was doing it for another reason entirely.
“Okay,” I said, but it didn’t make things easier. I stood there in the hallway, watching her walk away until the crowds swallowed her up and she was gone. I didn’t want to let her go again, not even for a forty-five-minute period.
The rest of school was just as weird. People didn’t swerve to avoid me. Girls smiled at me. I ate lunch with the guys I’d hung out with earlier, and it was clear that I fit in. Or at least, I had, once before. They kept talking about things I’d done, or at least, they all seemed to think I’d done them. “Hey, Cross, remember in seventh grade when you went into the girls’ locker room and Spanner caught you and you said you were just looking for deodorant?” and “Hey, Cross, what store was it on South Street that you got those fake hamster pellets last year?” I just nodded or grinned or said “I don’t know” more times than I could count.
When the guy I spent too many brain cells trying to remember not to call by a certain part of the posterior anatomy and not to bring up his dad’s death, since he was my best friend and all, dropped me off at home, I walked into the backyard and got a little sad to see that Nan’s garden had been replaced by one of those sad, lopsided metal swing sets. As I stared at the spot by the garage, I walked face-first into the pole to a basketball net. After the resulting thrunk I cupped my hands over my face and checked for bleeding, wondering who in the family played basketball. I certainly never did. Organized sports were far from my thing.
“Hey, kid. Want to shoot a few?” a voice called. It was my father. He was lying back on a lounge chair that also wasn’t there the day before, wearing sunglasses and clicking on his phone. “I’ve got about ten before I have to pick the twins up at preschool.”
The answer was obvious. I wouldn’t know how to dribble if you held a gun to my head. But surprisingly, I had this urge to wrap my hands around the ball, to shoot. And I was even more surprised when I opened my mouth and “Sure” popped out instead of “No way in hell.”
We started to play. To my astonishment, when I dribbled the ball, it didn’t fly out of my hands. I didn’t fall to the driveway in a heap. And when I raised the ball to shoot it, it felt strangely comfortable. I made the first basket. And the second. In fact, I made them all. I was even able to do some pretty quick moves to get around my dad and yeah, so what, he’s an old dude, but I almost felt like I knew what I was doing. When I sunk another basket, I asked, “Am I on the basketball team?”
My father just laughed like I was an idiot. Understandable.
Okay. So if I’d played basketball before and I was this awesome athlete, shouldn’t I have remembered that?
After a few minutes, my dad started to double over, breathing heavy. I kept dribbling as he sat down and slurped a bottle of water. It was weird the things that I knew now. Before I never knew really what I’d be like in twenty years. But my dad was pretty okay-looking. He had all his hair. He wasn’t a hunchback. All of these things boded well for me. “Dad,” I said, still feeling really weird even speaking that word, “how did Nan die?”
He rubbed the back of his neck. “Nan. You mean, your mother’s mother? Why all this interest in a lady you never met?”
I shrugged, nonchalant. “We’re doing a genealogy project in school and it made me wonder. You met her, right?”
He nodded. “I did. She was very nice. But I didn’t know her well. I only met her twice before …” His voice trailed off. I could tell it was something he didn’t feel right discussing with me.
“Before what?” I prompted.
He said, “She’d been acting strangely that night. I was supposed to meet your mother for a late meal, but I got a call that something was wrong. By the time I got there, she was gone. Heart trouble, we were told.” He shrugged. “Simple as that.”
“B-but …,” I stuttered, “there’s got to be more than that. Were they talking about something? Is there a reason she had the heart attack?”
He thought for a minute. “Well, now that I think about it, there was something about missing money. Your mom’s entire summer’s savings disappeared that night. We were going to use that money for a wedding, but we ended up getting married at town hall.” He sighed. “As far as your grandmother, it could have been that she overexerted herself, helping your mom look for the money. They tore the house apart trying to find it. The place was a mess when I got there.”
I rubbed my eyes. It didn’t make any sense. The money disappeared because it went to Taryn’s grandmother so that Mom could get the Touch. Or did it? In this alternate version of reality, Mom didn’t have the Touch. Then what happened to the money? It made my head ache to think about it.
“Come on,” he said, wrapping his arm around my neck in a choke hold. “Let’s go get the little monsters.”
I smiled. Alternate reality or whatever, it did have its benefits.