I gave up and moved on. I passed a Ren who was cowering on the ground, forlorn and self-deprecating. He was sobbing and bemoan-ing his losses. He spoke of all the mistakes he’d made and how wrong he’d been about everything. He begged for forgiveness, but he could find no absolution. The things he mentioned having done were awful, inef-fable, horrible things. Things that I knew Ren had never done and couldn’t even imagine doing. His body was angular and broken, and it was indescribably heartbreaking.
I was indignant. This was too much! It was so awful to see some-one I cared about broken down into nothing that I became furious. Someone or something was playing games with us, and I hated it. What was worse was knowing that the same things were happening to Ren somewhere in these tunnels. Who knew how they were representing me!
I moved on to another tunnel and saw an upright and proud Ren with his back turned to me. I called out cautiously, ‘Ren? Is that really you?’
He turned around and smiled his beautiful smile, and then he held out his arms to me and beckoned me closer.
‘Kelsey! Finally! What took you so long? Where have you been?’
With great relief, I wrapped my arms around him as he pulled me close. He held me and rubbed my back.
Puzzled, I inquired, ‘Ren? Where’s the backpack and the gada?’ I pulled back and looked up into his handsome face.
‘We don’t need them anymore. Shh, now. Just stay here with me for a minute.’
I moved back quickly and took a few steps away.
‘You’re not Ren.’
He laughed. ‘Sure I am, Kelsey. What do I have to do to prove it to you?’
‘No. Something’s wrong. You’re not him!’
I ran out of the tunnel and kept running until my lungs were about to explode but I got nowhere. I just passed tunnel after tunnel. Slowing to a stop, I breathed hard, trying to think about what I should do. Ren had the gada and the backpack. He would never discard them. So he still had them somewhere, and I had nothing. No, that wasn’t true. I did have something! I pulled the paper out of my jeans pocket and read through the warnings again.
If you get separated, do not trust your eyes.
Your hearts will tell you the difference between
fantasy and reality.
Do not trust my eyes? Well, that was obvious at this point. So my heart will help me tell the difference. Okay, follow my heart. How do I do that?
I decided to just continue walking and keep an open mind. At each tunnel, I stopped to watch for a minute and then closed my eyes and tried to feel if it was right. Usually, whatever or whoever was in there doubled their efforts. They talked and cajoled, trying to tempt me to go in after them. I continued in this way, passing several tunnels, and none of the places where I stopped felt right.
I came to another passageway and paused to examine the scene. I saw myself dead and lying on the ground with Ren kneeling beside me. He leaned over my inert body investigating. I heard his soft whis-per, ‘Kelsey? Is it you? Kelsey, please. Talk to me. I need to know if it’s really you.’
He picked my body up and cradled it lovingly in his arms. I checked to make sure he had the gada and the backpack, which he did, but I’d been fooled before. Then he said, ‘Don’t leave me, Kells.’
I closed my eyes and listened to his voice begging me to live. My heart started thumping wildly, a different reaction than I’d had in the past visions. I took a step closer and hit a barrier again.
I spoke to him softly, ‘Ren? I’m here. Don’t give up.’
He raised his head as if he heard me.
‘Kelsey? I can hear you, but I can’t see you. Where are you?’ He lowered me, or the body that looked like me, to the ground, and it disappeared.
I told him, ‘Close your eyes and feel your way to me.’ He stood slowly and closed his eyes.
I closed my eyes too, and tried to focus not on his voice but on his heart. I imagined my hand on his chest, feeling the strong thump of his heart beneath my fingers. My body seemed to move of its own volition, and I took several steps forward. I concentrated on Ren, his laugh, his smile, how I felt being near him, then, suddenly, my hand touched his chest, and I could feel his heart beating. He was there. I opened my eyes slowly and looked at him.
He reached out a hand to touch my hair, but then he pulled it back. ‘Is it really you this time, Kells?’
‘Well, I’m no maggoty corpse, if that’s what you mean.’
He grinned. ‘That’s a relief. No maggoty corpse would be that sarcastic.’
I countered, ‘Well, how do I know it’s really you?’
He considered my question for a moment and then ducked his head to kiss me. He tugged me flush up against his chest, pulling me closer than I even thought possible, and then his lips touched mine. His kiss started out warm and soft, but quickly turned hungry and demanding. His hands ran up my arms, to my shoulders, and then cupped my neck. I wrapped my arms around his waist and luxuriated in the kiss. When he finally pulled back, my heart was pounding in response. When the power of speech returned, I quipped, ‘Well, even if it isn’t really you, I’ll take this version.’
He laughed and relief flooded both of us. ‘Kells, I think you’d better hold my hand the rest of the way.’
I smiled gaily back at him. ‘No problem.’ Thrilled to have my Ren back, I was able to ignore the calls and beseeching inquiries coming from the side passages.
A light appeared at the far end of the tunnel, and we made our way there. Ren held my hand tightly until we emerged from the opening and stood well away from it. He stopped next to a meandering creek that curved off behind some trees.
It felt like noon here, wherever here was, so we decided to take a break and eat.
Munching on an energy bar, Ren said, ‘I’d prefer to avoid the trees and stay closer to the creek bed. I’m hoping that if we follow it a little farther, it’ll lead us to kishkindha.’
I nodded in agreement and wondered what else was waiting for us around the next bend.
Feeling refreshed after our brief rest, we pushed on and followed the creek. The water was running ahead of us, which, according to Ren, meant we were walking downstream. The bank was pebbly and full of smooth river rocks.
Picking up a gray stone, I tossed it up and down as I walked and lost myself in thought. The weight and feel of the rock changed. I opened my hand and peered at it. It had transformed into a smooth, sparkling emerald. I stopped and looked down at the rocks underfoot. They were still gray and dull, but as they disappeared under the water, I saw shimmering jewels instead.
‘Ren! Look there. Under the water.’ I pointed out the jewels glittering below. The farther out in the river I looked, the bigger the jewels were. ‘Do you see that? There’s a ruby the size of an ostrich egg!’
I had just leaned over to pluck a large diamond from the water when I felt Ren wrap his arms around me from behind and pull me back several feet.
He whispered against my cheek while pointing to the river, ‘Look over there. There, out of the corner of your eye. What do you see?’
‘I don’t see anything.’
‘Use your peripheral vision.’
Right next to the diamond, an image glimmered slightly beneath the water. It looked like a white monkey, but hairless. Its long arms were stretched up, reaching out toward me.
‘It was trying to grab you.’
I quickly tossed the emerald into the creek. The water swirled and hissed where it hit, then it quieted and calmed again to become as smooth as silk. When I looked directly at the jewels, that’s all I could see, but when I looked out of the corner of my eye, I could see water monkeys everywhere, floating just under the surface. It looked like they used their tails to anchor their bodies to tree roots and underwater plants, just like sea horses.
Ren mumbled, ‘I wonder if they could be Kappa?’
‘What are Kappa?’
‘A demon from Asia my mother used to tell me about. They lurked in water, waiting to catch children and suck their blood.’
‘Vampire sea horse monkeys? Are you serious?’
He shrugged. ‘Apparently, they are real. Mother told me about them when I was young. She said that children in China were taught to show respect for their elders by bowing. They were told that if they didn’t bow, the Kappa would get them. The Kappa have depres-sions on the tops of their heads that are full of water. They need water on their heads in order to survive. The only way to save yourself if one comes after you is to bow.’