Chapter Eleven
One of the tweekers destined for death—one of the fates Grif had sworn they couldn’t change—had survived? Kit shot so straight in her chair she was almost standing. “Which one? Who?”
“The female. Jeannie Holmes.” Dennis held up a hand as Kit opened her mouth to ask more. “But don’t get too excited. The doctors aren’t sure she’ll make it. She already coded once and she’s being kept in a coma because of the extent of her wounds.”
“When can I—” Kit started, then caught herself. “I mean, when can you talk to her?”
“Did you hear the coma part?” Dennis shook his head and his eyes lost all their satisfaction. “This krokodil is no joke. It will take weeks to wean her from it, and that’s only if she survives that long.”
Kit recalled Dr. Ott’s words. A month to recover fully. By then there’d likely be more dead.
Dennis read her mind. “Even then we don’t know how much good it’ll do. She might have fried her brain, too. I don’t know how this drug works.”
“Does she have family?”
He nodded. “A mother. She’s at the hospital now.”
Kit bit her lip and waited.
“Kit.” Dennis sighed, exasperated.
“You wouldn’t even know about this case, or krokodil, if it weren’t for me,” Kit pointed out. “And Jeannie wouldn’t be alive.”
“And?” he said. He was going to make her ask it.
Fine. She lifted her chin. “And maybe her mother will be so thankful that she’ll be willing to talk to the woman who got her daughter help in time.”
Dennis sighed again, then looked away. “I’ll ask,” he said, after another moment. “But stay away from Naked City.”
Kit decided not to tell him about her run-in with Baptista, and would’ve lunged to hug him if his eyes weren’t currently glued to Layla’s blinding, glittering tassels.
“Want a closer look, dear?” she teased, bringing Dennis’s gaze back around.
“Nah,” he scoffed softly, glancing down as he lifted his drink. “I have the best view in the house.”
And he looked back up, directly at Kit.
Kit stared back, stunned as applause rose up all around her. What the hell was going on?
“I mean it,” Dennis said, glancing away, missing her frown. “You look amazing tonight. Our girls are all babes, of course, but you have a way of filling up a room. It’s like a giant bouquet of roses in a banquet hall. Everything else looks artificial next to something so real and alive.”
“Dennis,” she said, then paused, unsure how to continue.
“I know,” he said, holding up a hand to stop her. “You’re in a relationship, and your man would kick my ass just for the way I’m looking at you now.”
“Yes,” Kit said, though Grif had too much confidence and self-possession to get worked up over another man’s aspirations. He wouldn’t pummel Dennis because of that look. He’d pummel him on principle.
“So let me just say this,” Dennis said, and Kit held up a hand.
“You really shouldn’t.”
He knew that, of course, and just smiled. “Ever since the Chambers case, when you popped back onto my mental radar, bringing this world”—he motioned around—“back with you, I feel more alive than I have in years. You reminded me of how much this meant to me. Sometimes I wonder why I ever gave it up.”
Yes, she could see that. He looked fully alive in his cotton and denim, errant glitter winking off one cheek. He lived as she did, too, with nostalgic admiration for the past, but feet firmly planted in the here and now. It was something Kit could appreciate tonight, while all alone but for her girlfriends and cherry-infused Maker’s Mark zipping into her veins. Besides, when it came down to it, a charged moment between longtime friends meant little.
Kit, very simply, was in love with Grif.
Hesitating, she finally placed a hand on Dennis’s arm. “Thank you for telling me, but . . .”
“I know,” he said, rising so that her hand fell away. “I just wanted you to know, too.”
She smiled. “I’m glad you didn’t give it up. All this, I mean.”
“Me, too. Though it does make me wonder.”
“Wonder what?” she asked, head tilted up.
Lifting her hand, he dropped a kiss atop her fingertips, his own giving a light squeeze before he let it drop. “What else I gave up too easily.”
And Kit had nothing at all to say to that.
Without another word, Dennis rejoined the gearheads at his table, leaving her gaping in his wake. Fleur materialized almost instantly.
“So, that’s interesting,” her friend said, and Kit knew that despite Layla’s mesmerizing act, Fleur had seen everything.
“No, it’s not,” Kit replied quickly.
“But it could be.”
“Sure.” Kit, mobile again, lunged for her drink. “If it’d happened, I don’t know, six months ago.”
“Because of the man who’s torturing you with his absence tonight?” Fleur asked, raising an eyebrow.
“Just because he’s not here right now doesn’t mean he’s gone.” The most important people and things in life rarely needed to be present to sustain their hold. “Grif is the first thing I think of in the morning and my last lingering thought at night. He’s burrowed so deeply inside of me that he could take up permanent residence there. I couldn’t get him out even if I wanted to.”
“Okay,” Fleur said, waving away the deep declaration of love. “But you shouldn’t look like you want to call for an exorcism when you say that.”
Kit drew back. Did she?
“Wanna talk about what’s really bothering you?” Fleur said, now that the two of them were alone. Lil had disappeared backstage to congratulate Layla.
Kit held her friend’s knowing gaze. “Not really.”
“Which is why you must,” Fleur said practically. “You gotta exorcise your worries, cast them out like demons.”
The word made Kit think of Scratch, and she shuddered. But Fleur was right, and she also realized that this was really why she’d come here tonight. To commune and connect. If circle skirts and cherry tattoos were her oxygen, her friends were her lungs.
“Grif isn’t just wandering randomly,” she told Fleur, leaning forward on her elbows, wanting to get the story out before the next act began. She had time. The stage kitten was still flirting with the crowd. “He’s researching the murder of another woman. It’s a very old case, half a century, actually, but it’s something very . . . personal to him. I know I should want answers for him, for them both, but he’s . . . I don’t know. Obsessed.”
“How obsessed?” Fleur asked when Kit looked away.
Kit thought about it for a moment, then lifted her gaze. “We can be sitting, having a perfectly nice dinner,” she said, not adding that it was one she’d spent hours planning, shopping for, and prepping, “and he’ll suddenly get this faraway look. The food disappears—the textures, the taste. The candlelight no longer touches his eyes. The hand holding his fork falls still.”
Fleur listened intently, but said nothing.
“Or we’ll be watching a movie and I’ll feel a kind of shift, and even though he hasn’t moved at all I’ll just look over and he’ll be gone, same way. That seeing, but not seeing. And I know he’s with her.”
Fleur wrinkled her nose. “With this old woman? This old case?”
Kit nodded, and caught pity crossing Fleur’s gaze before it was erased.
“Okay,” Fleur said, still trying to understand. “So what do you know about the woman in question?”
Evelyn Shaw had been beautiful. She’d been a perfect siren. She’d been married to the man Kit loved.
And he dreamed of her still.
“I know she’s been dead for years,” Kit said, “but he thinks of her every single day of his life. What more do I need to know?”
Fleur slapped the tabletop with her palm, causing Kit to jolt and the couple next to them to stare. “Every. Damned. Thing.”
“What?” Kit asked, drawing back.
Not breaking her stare, Fleur grabbed Kit’s hands. “Learn all you can about that woman. Research her the same way you do your stories. Pretend you’re going to put a byline beneath anything you find. Look into this . . . what was her name?”
“Evelyn,” Kit answered, though that wasn’t what Grif called her. Evie.
“So research this Evelyn and learn about her—what she did, where she worked, who her family and friends were. Learn her secrets.” Fleur’s eyes narrowed as she jerked her chin. “I bet if you look close enough, you’ll find she wasn’t so damned perfect. Even if she did have the advantage of being alive in Elvis’s golden years.”
Kit’s sigh lifted the bangs from her forehead. “Yeah, but I can’t go to Grif and say, ‘Look what I found out! This woman you were obsessed with gossiped with the neighbors, carried a canteen of gin around in her handbag, and flirted shamelessly with the milkman!’ That’ll only reflect badly on me.”
“So don’t go to him.” Fleur shrugged. “That’s not the point anyway.”
It wasn’t?
Fleur patted her hand, and smiled. “You need to know she wasn’t perfect. I see the way he looks at you, Kit. You two were destined for each other. But if you need more security in your relationship, then you gotta create it yourself. Dig for it. I mean, that’s what you do, right?”
That was what she did, Kit realized, straightening. Why, she investigated stories like this all the time in order to give her subjects the truth and, whenever possible, solace. Why wouldn’t she do the same for herself?
Glancing up at the next performer, a woman with glitter on her eyelids and in her left glove, Kit nodded. She was the one who was warm and alive and real and here on the Surface. She was the one who held Grif when he awoke gasping from nightmares. And she would continue to do so, because she was his soul mate . . . and not by default.
Fleur was right. Why not dig a little deeper on the beloved, doomed Evelyn Shaw? Kit sipped at her drink, and watched tassels begin to swing. Find out a little something that would allow both Grif and her to shake off Evie’s ghost once and for all. Then Grif could remain present during both his waking and sleeping hours. Then he’d dream of Kit and no one else. And maybe then, she thought, Griffin Shaw would be as alive in her arms as she was in his. And the saintly, perfect, haunting Evelyn Shaw could stay tucked in the past.
Right where she belonged.