chapter 9
Alex
When I’m finally able to move again, I immediately jump to my feet and run out of the room. I barrel down the stairs, trying to catch Gemma before she disappears to wherever the hell she’s going. As I reach the bottom of the stairway, I almost plow over Evan, standing at the bottom, looking astounded; jaw agape, eyes amplified, and nausea fills his expression.
I slam into him and send us both flying sideways. Losing his balance, he grabs the wooden railing of the staircase for support. “Alex… what the...” He regains his footing while I skid across the marble floor and I only stop when I run into the wall. “What the hell? I thought you were dead?”
Shaking my head, I get my feet stable underneath me. “I’ll explain later. Right now I have to find Gemma.” I sidestep around him and rush towards the front door. “Do you know where she is?”
He shakes his head, trailing after me with his hands stuffed into his pockets. “I thought she was still upstairs. When I left her she was lying by your… body.” He pauses, looking confused as he coils the chain on his jeans around his finger. “I thought she was still up there.”
I jerk open the door and step outside, the bad feeling twisting inside me like an illness. “Gemma!” I shout and a herd of Sprites come scurrying out of the bushes and surround my knees.
“Charge!” One of them yells in a squeaky voice as he raises his arms in the air. The rest of them flap their wings as they start to march toward me.
Shaking my head, I kick it in the face and it goes soaring through the air like a football. The rest of them scatter in terror; diving into the bushes, flying away, and running across the grass. “You search the forest and I’ll search down by the lake,” I tell Evan.
“Just a second,” Evan says, stepping out onto the porch. “I don’t get why you’re so panicky. She probably just wandered off to like… Mourn or something.”
I shake my head and shield my eyes from the sun with my hand. “I have a bad feeling…” My gaze scrolls the lake and the lofty trees next to it. “I can’t explain it, but it feels like she’s going to do something that will get her hurt.”
A lot of people would question my strange response, but not Evan. He nods and then jogs off towards the brink of the forest. I slam the door and do a lap around the castle, before heading down the gravel path that descends to the lake. I search through the trees that surround it and walk out along the shoreline, but she’s nowhere and, deep down, I think I know she’s not here.
“Dammit!” I curse, kicking the trunk of a tree. Where the hell would she go? Think. The million answers to that question scare the living daylights out of me. And it’s my fault. I was supposed to protect her—I promised her I would.
The sky is shifting to black and stars are starting to sparkle. I return to the castle, frustrated, knowing that I need to find her, but knowing there are a thousand places she could be. I think back to what she said while hugging my body. She said she’d make her pay. But who? Helena? No, there’s no way. She would never try to go back to the Afterlife, would she?
I throw open the front door to the castle and step into the foyer. It’s dark inside and I turn around to flip on the light. The bright light from the chandelier above flicks over the entryway and I nearly drop to the floor when it finally steadies and lights up the room. Laylen is sitting on the bottom step, with his head hanging low.
He lifts his head up and his eyes are blue again. “He’s out of me,” he says with a heavy sigh. “I’m me again.”
“I know,” I reply, noting how much he looks like himself again.
“Did you find her?” he asks. “I heard you talking about it while I was waking… while I was coming back to life, I guess, and you said she left… please tell me you found her and that she’s okay.”
“I didn’t... I searched everywhere.” I sit down on the bottom step and rest my arms on my knees. “I don’t have a God damn clue where she went… and I’m worried.”
He presses his lips together, nodding his head. “You know she has her Foreseer power again, right? She probably used it to go somewhere.”
“Yeah, but where…” I tap my fingers on my knee anxiously. “What if she went to… What if she went after Helena? I mean, she wasn’t thinking rationally. What if she’s planning on doing something stupid, like getting revenge?”
He swallows hard. “As much as I hate to say it, would you really blame her? She thought she was alone and that we were all dead because of Helena. Or should I say I was?” He raises his eyebrows accusingly because it’s partly my fault that he died.
“Yeah… I’m sorry about that. I didn’t want to kill you—Evan didn’t want to kill you anyway. We just had to see what you knew about Helena and that stupid loophole and things just kind of spiraled.”
“Hey, no judgment here,” he says, letting out a loud breath as he stares at the front door. “I know why you did it and I’d have done the same thing probably because… because I love her, too. Maybe not in the same way as you, but it’s still love.” He shrugs and shakes his head as he stands up. “We need to figure out where she is, and what she’s doing, though, because you’re right. She’s probably thinking irrationally and, as much as we both love her, we both know how much trouble seems to be drawn to her.”
My neck muscles constrict and I pop my neck, trying to stay composed, even though he keeps saying he loves her. It’s annoying, although it’s not the same way I feel about her. At least, that’s what he says. I’ve always had my doubts about their “friend” relationship.
I rise to my feet and we go into the living room. The fire has burned out and it’s dark. I flip on the lamp and draw back the curtains, so the damn Sprites will quit peeking in. Laylen takes a seat on the sofa, slumping back, and crossing his arms. I sit in a chair opposite of him, resting my hands on the armrests. Evan hasn’t come back yet, which makes me kind of nervous. He’s an Omnia and everything, but still, there’s a lot of madness always going on and when someone disappears I have to question it.
“Evan should be back,” I remark, rubbing my hand down my face. “It’s getting too dark to keep searching for Gemma, and besides, I’m pretty sure that, if she were here, we’d have found her by now.”
Laylen kicks his feet up on the table and winces from the movement. His hand travels down to his knee and his face twists in pain as he massages his kneecap. “You know, you two are ruthless. It friggin’ hurt to die.”
“Yeah, sorry about that,” I say, lost in my own thoughts because I swear I can feel her—feel her pain and almost see what she’s thinking. She’s hurt. She wants to make someone pay. She’s seeing a lot of red. “If there’d been another way, I’d have done it.”
Laylen’s lips tug upward. “Now, I think that we both know that’s not true and that, deep down, a tiny part of you enjoyed watching me get hurt.”
I don’t deny it. As much as I’ve gotten over the fact that Laylen is a Vampire, he’s still the guy Gemma runs to for help. She still cares for him and apparently he loves her.
An awkward silence builds between us and he starts scratching at his arm. I notice the marks on his skin, but it takes it a second to register.
“Laylen, are those…” I trail off.
“Yeah, they came back when I woke up—or came back to life.” He traces his finger along his forearm, along the Mark of Immortality.
“We’ll get Aislin to remove it again,” I assure him and he fakes a smile, looking like he’s going to cry.
I’m about to ask him what’s up, when Evan walks into the room with his jacket zipped up and the hood pulled over his head. He immediately slams to a stop when he sees me talking to Laylen and the awkwardness, thankfully, vanishes.
He stares at us incredulously. “What the hell is going on? I mean—no offense or anything, but aren’t you both supposed to be dead?”
I shake my head and can’t help smiling. Leave it to Evan to be straightforward. “I take it you didn’t have any luck finding Gemma.”
He shakes his head in response as he draws his hood down. “No, and apparently you didn’t find her either.”
“No,” I say. “And as much as I hate to admit it, she probably used her Foreseer power and left.” I let out a breath as Evan sits down on the sofa beside Laylen and I drag my fingers through my hair. “This is turning into such a mess.”
“It always does,” Laylen mutters. “And not only do we have to find Gemma, but I don’t think anyone has even begun to figure out how to get Aislin out of the Fey Kingdom.”
Evan holds up his hand. “Before you two start making plans, can someone please give me a rundown of what the heck is going on? I mean for all I know you two could be zombies.”
I roll my eyes. “Zombies don’t exist. Everyone knows that.”
Evan elevates his eyebrows and gives an exaggerated eye-widening. “Yeah, everyone knows that, yet a few hours ago, you two were lying on the floor without a pulse and now look at you.”
I shrug. “It’s been known to happen.”
He sighs, shaking his head. “I don’t get what you’re saying.”
“I know,” I say and then give them both a quick rundown of what happened.
“There’s one thing I don’t get,” Evan says, fiddling with the chain on his belt loop. “Why weren’t we able to tell that you were still alive? We couldn’t see you breathing or find a pulse.”
I shrug. “Maybe it was because I was on the brink of death. Or maybe because I was possessed. I really don’t know.”
“Or maybe it’s because you were dead and now you’re a zombie,” he says.
“Oh, would you get off the zombie kick, dude.” Laylen looks at me with disbelief as he hitches his thumb at Evan. “Seriously, what’s up with him?”
Laylen doesn’t know Evan very well, but I do, and I know he’s seen a lot of strange things in his life, which is why he questions a lot of things.
Evan narrows his eyes at Laylen and I catch his skin flickering. It’s time for a subject change before one of them steps too far on the other one’s toes.
“Any ideas of where she would have gone?” I ask Laylen.
“Gemma?” he questions. “Why are you asking me?”
I stare him down. “Because she seems to tell you everything? Do you remember her saying anything when she found your body?”
He shrugs. “I couldn’t really hear anything.”
“You know the possibilities of where she could have gone are endless, right?” Evan chimes in. “With her gift she can basically go anywhere.”
“I know that,” I tell him, thinking about the last thing she whispered to me. She said she’d make her pay. Helena. It has to be Helena. I tap my fingers on the armrest, wondering if she’d really do it. Throw herself into danger without any protection. Sure she’s Immortal—one of the protected one’s—but she could get trapped down there, amongst many other things. Maybe that’s what she wants. Maybe she wants to die. I shut my eyes. It’s like I can almost feel her pain, feel what she’s doing, see how she’s thinking. It’s strange, but for some reason, I can almost retrace her steps.
Without saying a word, I get up from the chair and leave the room. With my eyes still shut and ignoring Evan and Laylen’s shouts about where I’m going, I walk down the hallway; not of my own accord, but with something else, as if I’m getting lead by a ghost.
When I open my eyes again, I’m standing in front of the curio table. It hits me, like a brick over my head. Her locket and the Cornu Lepore are gone. I crouch down on my hands and knees and feel underneath it, searching the floor to see if they were knocked down. However, deep down, I know I’m not going to find them because I know she picked them up on her way out to where ever she went, just like, deep down, I know she’s hurting and angry about something. I can almost see it happening, the way she walked down the stairs, sad, yet determined, and when she passed them, she scooped up her locket because deep down, a tiny part of her wants to live.
Evan and Laylen walk in. “Are you okay, man?” Laylen asks, leaning against the doorway, eyeing me as I crawl around on the floor.
“Evan, did you move the necklaces we took from Gemma?” I ask, pushing to my feet.
“No, they were on the table earlier today.” He points a finger at the curio.
“Gemma must have taken them,” I speculate, brushing the dirt off the knees of my jeans. “I think I might know where she is…” I glance at the front door, picturing her opening it. “To Nalina’s with the Cornu Lepore.”
“How do you know that?” Laylen wonders. “Just because she took the necklaces?”
“It’s a feeling,” I reply, knowing I’m sounding like a freaking weirdo.
“Okay…” Laylen considers this and then, standing up straight, he heads for the door. “Let’s go get her.”
“Why would she do that, though?” Evan questions, perplexed, as he zips his jacket up. “The Cornu Lepore isn’t supposed to be anything special. At least, that’s what I’ve always been told.”
“It was special to Helena,” Laylen interrupts, turning the doorknob, then holds up his hand when I start to open my mouth. “Don’t ask me why because I’m not sure. All I know is that it was important to her. That’s why she took it from Nalina in the first place.”
“Maybe Gemma’s going to try and go after Helena on her own.” Evan shuffles toward the door.
“Yeah, I already thought of that,” I mutter.
The three of us grow quiet and I feel like I’m going to explode. I’ve always been taught to keep my cool and deal with whatever’s thrown at me, but it’s becoming too much. I just wish that, for like a month—Hell, I’d take a day—that we could live our lives in a normal way, without any crazy Faeries, Keepers, Witches, or anything else trying to take over the world.
“I think she’s gone to Nalina’s to find out why Helena wanted the pendant.” I pat my pockets for my knife. “And I think she is going after Helena if we don’t make it to her first.”
Evan withdraws a small, ruby-filled Crystal Ball from his pocket and holds it in the air. I’d almost forgotten that he has the power of a Foreseer as well. “I can’t use this in here with the Praesidium.” He glances at the lavender marble lining the floor. “So, we’ll have to go outside.”
We nod and Evan leads the way. It’s pitch black and I can barely see as we make our way down the grassy hill and away from the castle. I can hear the pitter-patter of footsteps and the fluttering of Sprite wings. I take out my knife because it makes me feel content and Evan lights up his hand so we can see where we’re going. Where are we going exactly? To Gemma? I really don’t know. All I’m basing it on is a feeling I have that I can read the things she does. That’s it. Other than that, I’ve got nothing.
All I can do is hope that I’m right. And I’ve never really been a fan of hope.