“Can’t someone else do it?”
He frowned at me. “Yes, but it is the duty of the king.”
“But you aren’t the king,” I argued. Yet. “Why doesn’t your father do it?”
“Because he entrusted me with it.” I could feel Tristan’s pride radiating through our bond. “When I was fifteen – the youngest ever to take on the task. It is a very great honor.”
I nodded gravely, although in my opinion, King Thibault’s delegating the task likely had more to do with him not wanting to drag his fat arse all around Trollus each day than trust in his son. “Is it hard?”
“It is tiring,” he said, motioning for me to follow him down an empty side street. “It requires an immense amount of my power to maintain at the best of times. When it needs adjusting, I sometimes require assistance from the Builders’ Guild – which is my guild, by the way. But not often.”
“That wasn’t what I meant.”
He stopped in his tracks and looked back at me. “What, then?”
“I wondered,” I started tentatively, “if it was hard knowing that everyone’s lives depend on your magic; if you worry about an earthshake coming like the one that wrecked the city.”
He started walking again. “I cannot stop the world from moving. All I can do is be prepared for when it does.”
Looking around, I saw we were alone and closed the distance between us. “You didn’t answer my question.”
The only sound in the street was the roar of the waterfall. Finally, he spoke. “I used to have nightmares about it falling down. I’d wake up certain I’d heard rocks raining on the city streets. But not anymore.”
“What do you dream of now?” I pressed, the desire to understand what went on in his mind like an itch I could not help but scratch.
“I dream of other things.” Tristan’s face was unreadable, but my mind filled with the same intense heat that had seared through me when I’d watched him change his shirt.
Desire. The word rippled through my thoughts, bringing a flush of heat to my cheeks.
“I was to leave to go live with my mother in Trianon the day that Luc brought me here,” I blurted out, desperate to change the subject. “I was going to sing on stage, you see. It was my dream…” I broke off, expecting one of the many nasty comments he usually made to me in public.
Instead I saw curiosity on his face. “It was your dream…” he prompted.
“To sing on all the greatest stages,” I said. “Not just in Trianon, but in the continental kingdoms as well. My mother… She’s very famous, but she never leaves Trianon. Ever. She rarely even comes to visit us.”
“They live apart, your mother and father.” It wasn’t a question – I knew that he knew all about me.
I flushed. “Yes. When my father was young, he left the farm to go live in the city. He met my mother, and they… well, she had my brother, my sister, and me. When my grandfather passed, my father went back to take over the farm and he brought us with him. She wouldn’t leave Trianon.”
“But she’s his wife,” Tristan said indignantly. “She is duty-bound to go wherever he wants her to go.”
“Not according to her,” I said. “And besides, duty has got nothing to do with it. What matters is that she didn’t love him or us enough to give up her career.”
“You consider love more important than duty, then?”
I hesitated. “I suppose it depends on the circumstances.”
Tristan slowly shook his head. “I think not. Otherwise individuals such as your mother, who clearly love themselves above all things, will use love as a defense of their actions. And who would be able to argue against them? Duty,” he said, pointing a finger at me, “is what keeps selfishness from inheriting the earth.”
“How bitterly pragmatic.”
He glanced down at me. “I find a certain comfort in pragmatism.”
“Cold comfort,” I retorted.
“Is better than no comfort.”
I rolled my eyes, irritated with his circular logic. But he had a point. Staring down at the paving stones, I remembered the silent sorrow on my father’s face whenever my mother’s name was mentioned. “He always gave her whatever she wanted,” I said quietly.
“And at what cost to you and your siblings?” Tristan asked. “He sounds weak.”