Whatever sparked in his eyes seemed beyond fury to her.
“You don’t know the depths of it. I nearly let you drown.”
“Let me— You didn’t—”
“Didn’t I hold you in the dream, wake you from it? Then I set it aside as no more than just that. Then you were gone. Gone. And I couldn’t find you.”
She started to say his name, but he took her mouth again, plundered it. Anger, yes, there was anger in him, and guilt, and over it all a hot and reckless desire that left her reeling.
“Do you think it’s all duty then? All convenience?” He swept her toward the bed. “Know what I feel, what I want, and what, by the gods, I can make you want.”
Could she have stopped him? Was there enough of the man who’d touched her so tenderly in him still to stop the one who tore away her shirt, and ravaged?
She didn’t know. She didn’t care. She didn’t want to stop him.
His hands bruised her, and thrilled her, as he ripped her into the dark where desire was edged with panicky stabs of desperation.
Here was a storm unleashed, and she had no choice but to ride it.
He took, too unhinged to care how roughly. She cried out for him, and hearing the shocked pleasure in the sound only fed the rising hunger. He’d have all of her, and be damned the cost.
The room went to shadows, darkened by his needs. In them, under him, she trembled, she arched, she writhed.
When he plunged into her, he muffled her scream with his mouth. Drove and drove and drove, blind with greed, as helpless against the violence of it as she.
He felt the climax rip through her, felt it tear another cry from her throat, and felt like a savage at the feast.
He pushed for more, and more, until her breath was sobs, until her hands slid limp off his back, until at last that fire gathered like a fist and struck hard and full.
He collapsed on her, stripped raw, his heart pounding, his mind still whirling in the dark.
Then her arms came around him.
His mind began to clear as did the shadows that haunted the room.
He cursed himself, viciously, but struggled to keep his voice easy as he lifted his head. “I hurt you. I— Ah, God.”
Her eyes swam with tears as they stared into his.
“I had no right.” He started to push away, but her arms tightened around him.
“You didn’t hurt me. I’m not crying—or not like that. I didn’t know . . . I never knew anyone could want me like that. That it was possible to want like that. I didn’t think it was duty, Bran, but maybe I did think, at least a little, that part of it—of this—was convenience. I don’t think that now.”
He laid his forehead on hers. “You weren’t breathing. Things had to be done—that’s duty—but all the while, from that moment when I put my hand on your heart and you had no breath to this moment all I could think was I’d lost you. For duty. For a promise made before either of us existed.
“And everything stopped until you breathed again. And the time between your breaths, fáidh, was an eon.” He touched his lips to her brow, shifted away. “Since this . . . duty came to be mine, I’ve known little fear. It’s been a challenge, a mission, a purpose. And now there’s fear, that you could be hurt beyond my power to heal.”
“It’s my purpose, too.” She sat up with him. “And I’m afraid something will happen to you. Doyle said I was the glue. Maybe that’s true, though I don’t think the glue’s as strong as it needs to be. But you’re the power—the source of it. We can’t do this without you. And I . . .”
“You said you were in love with me.”
“What?”
“Downstairs, when you were giving the others a good piece of your mind, you said you were in love with me.”
“I was raving.” To stall for time, for composure, she looked around for her clothes, found the ripped ruin of her shirt.
He took it from her, tossed it aside, then caught her hands in his. “Are you? You know feelings, Sasha. Is what you feel a spark, an attraction, a bit of heat and excitement? Or is it love, that holds and waits and opens?”
“I want it to be the first. So much easier for both of us.”
“But is it?”
She shut her eyes. “I’m so in love with you. I fell in love with you before I met you. In dreams, in drawings. Then there you were, and part of me just wanted to fall at your feet and beg.”
“You beg from no one.” He caught her face in his hands. “You beg for nothing.”
“I dreamed of you, and I’m here with you. And that’s so much more than I ever expected to have.”
“Woman, you can infuriate me. Would you settle for so little?”
“To take more than you’d ever expected isn’t settling.”