“She’s not like that,” said Rowan, choosing a striped ball and sinking it. Apparently it was the right choice, because Volta let him play on.
“People change,” Volta said. “Especially an apprentice. Being a scythe’s apprentice is all about change. Why do you think we give up our names and never use them again? It’s because by the time we’re ordained, we’re completely different people. Professional gleaners instead of candy-ass kids. She’s working you like chewing gum.”
“And I broke her neck,” reminded Rowan. “So I guess we’re even.”
“You don’t want to be even. You want to go into Winter Conclave with a clear advantage—or at least feeling like you have one.”
Esme popped in just long enough to say, “I play the winner,” then left.
“Best argument for losing ever,” grumbled Volta.
“I should take her on my morning runs,” Rowan suggested. “She could use the exercise. It might get her into better shape.”
“True,” said Volta, “but she comes by her weight naturally. It’s genetic.”
“How would you know—”
And then Rowan got it. It was staring him in the face, but he was too close to see. “No! You’re kidding me!”
Volta shook his head nonchalantly. “I have no idea what you’re talking about.”
“Xenocrates?”
“It’s your shot,” said Volta.
“If it came out that the High Blade had an illegitimate daughter, it would destroy him. He’d be in serious violation.”
“You know what would be even worse?” said Volta. “If the daughter that no one knew about got herself gleaned.”
Rowan ran a dozen things through this new lens. It all made sense now. The way Esme was spared at the food court, the way she was treated—what was it Goddard had said? That she was the most important person he’d meet that day? The key to the future? “But she won’t get gleaned,” Rowan said. “Not as long as Xenocrates does whatever Goddard says. Like jump in the deep end of a pool.”
Volta nodded slowly. “Among other things.”
Rowan took his shot and accidentally sunk the eight ball, ending the game.
“I win,” said Volta. “Damn. Now I’ll have to play Esme.”
* * *
I am apprenticed to a monster. Scythe Faraday was right: Someone who enjoys killing should never be a scythe. It goes against everything the founders wanted. If this is what the Scythedom is turning into, someone has to stop it. But it can’t be me. Because I think I’m becoming a monster, too.
* * *
Rowan looked at what he wrote and carefully, quietly tore the page out, crumpled it, and tossed it into the flames of his bedroom fireplace. Goddard always read his journal. As Rowan’s mentor, it was his prerogative to do so. It had taken forever for Rowan to learn how to write his true thoughts, his true feelings. Now he had to learn to hide them again. It was a matter of survival. So he picked up his pen and wrote a new official entry.
* * *
Today I killed twelve moving targets using only twelve bullets, and saved the life of my friend. Scythe Goddard sure knows how to motivate someone to do their best. There’s no denying that I’m getting better. I’m learning more and more each day, perfecting my mind, my body, and my aim. Scythe Goddard is proud of my progress. Someday I hope I can repay him, and give him what he deserves in return for all he’s done for me.
* * *
29
They Called It Prison
Scythe Curie hadn’t gleaned since conclave. All her concern was on Citra. “I’m entitled to some down time,” the scythe told her. “I have plenty of time to pick up the slack.”
It was at dinner on their first day back at Falling Water that Citra finally broached the subject she had been dreading.
“I have a confession to make,” Citra said five minutes into the meal.
Scythe Curie chewed and swallowed before she responded. “What kind of confession?”
“You’re not going to like it.”
“I’m listening.”
Citra did her best to hold the woman’s cool gray gaze. “It’s something that I’ve been doing for some time. Something you don’t know about.”
The scythe’s lips screwed into a wry grin. “Do you honestly think there’s anything you do that I don’t know about?”
“I’ve been looking into the murder of Scythe Faraday.”
Scythe Curie actually dropped her fork with a clatter. “You’ve been what?”
Citra told Scythe Curie everything. How she dug through the backbrain, how she painstakingly reconstructed Faraday’s moves on his last day. And how she found two of the five witnesses that were given immunity, suggesting, if not proving, that the act was committed by a scythe.
Scythe Curie was attentive to everything, and when Citra was done, she bowed her head and braced herself for the worst.
“I submit myself for disciplinary action,” Citra said.
“Disciplinary action,” said Scythe Curie with disgust in her voice, but that disgust was not aimed at Citra. “I should discipline myself for being so inexcusably blind to what you were doing.”
Citra released a breath that she had been holding for the last twenty seconds.
“Have you told anyone else?” Scythe Curie asked.
Citra hesitated, then realized there was no sense in concealing it now. “I told Rowan.”
“I was afraid you’d say that. Tell me Citra, what did he do to you after you told him? I’ll tell you what he did—he broke your neck! I think that’s a very good indication of where he stands on this. You can bet that Scythe Goddard knows all about your little theory by now.”
Citra didn’t even want to consider whether or not that might be true. “What we need to do is track down those witnesses and see if we can get any of them to talk.”
“Leave that to me,” Scythe Curie said. “You’ve done more than enough already. ?You need to clear it out of your head now, and focus on your studies and your training.”
“But if this really is a scandal in the Scythedom—”
“—then your best possible position would be to achieve scythehood yourself, and fight it from the inside.”
Citra sighed. That’s what Rowan had said. Scythe Curie was even more stubborn than Citra, and when her mind was made up, there was no changing it. “Yes, Your Honor.” Citra went to her room but still felt a definite sense that there was something Scythe Curie was holding back from her.
? ? ?
They came for Citra the following day. Scythe Curie had gone to the market, and Citra was doing what was expected of her. She was practicing killcraft with knives of different sizes and weights, trying to remain balanced and graceful.
There came a pounding on the door that made her drop the larger knife, almost stabbing her foot. There was a moment of déjà vu, because it was the exact same sort of pounding that came in the middle of the night when Scythe Faraday had died. Urgent, loud, and relentless.
She left the larger blade on the ground, but concealed the small one in a pocket sheath sewn into her pants. Whatever this was, she would not be unarmed when she answered the door.
She pulled open the door to reveal two officers of the BladeGuard, just as there had been that terrible night, and her heart sank.
“Citra Terranova?” one of the guardsmen asked.
“Yes?”
“I’m afraid you’ll need to come with us.”
“Why? What’s happened?”
But they didn’t tell her, and this time there was no one with them to explain. Then it occurred to her that this might not be what it seemed. How did she know that these were really BladeGuardsmen at all? Uniforms could be faked.
“Show me your badges!” she insisted. “I want to see your badges.”
Either they didn’t have any, or they didn’t want to be bothered with it, because one of them grabbed her.
“Maybe you didn’t hear me. I said come with us.”