“There is no actual law that says I can’t visit my family while I’m an apprentice.”
Citra brought it up in the middle of dinner one night, with neither warning nor context of conversation. It was her intent to blindside Scythe Curie with it. She could tell it worked because of the length of time it took Scythe Curie to respond. She took two whole spoonfuls of soup before saying a thing.
“It’s our standard practice—and a wise one, if you ask me.”
“It’s cruel.”
“Didn’t you already attend a family wedding?”
Citra wondered how Scythe Curie knew that, but wasn’t about to let herself be derailed. “In a few months I might die. I think I should have a right to see my family a few times before then.”
Scythe Curie took two more spoonfuls of soup before saying, “I’ll consider it.”
In the end, she agreed, as Citra knew she would; after all, Scythe Curie was a fair woman. And Citra had not lied—she did want to see her family—so the scythe could not read deceit in Citra’s face because there was none. But, of course, seeing her family wasn’t Citra’s only reason for going home.
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Everything on Citra’s street looked the same as she and Scythe Curie strode down it, yet everything was different. A faint sense of longing tugged at her, but she couldn’t be sure what she longed for. All she knew was that walking down her street suddenly felt like she was walking in some foreign land where the people spoke a language she didn’t know. They rode the elevator up to Citra’s apartment with a pudgy woman with a pudgier pug, who was positively terrified. The woman, not the dog. The dog couldn’t care less. Mrs. Yeltner—that was her name. Before Citra left home, Mrs. Yeltner had reset her lipid point to svelte. But apparently the procedure was struggling against a gluttonous appetite, because she was bulging in all the wrong places.
“Hello, Mrs. Yeltner,” Citra said, guilty to be enjoying the woman’s thinly veiled terror.
“G . . . good to see you,” she said, clearly not remembering Citra’s name. “Wasn’t there just a gleaning on your floor earlier this year? I didn’t think it was allowed to hit the same building so soon.”
“It’s allowed,” Citra said. “But we’re not here to glean today.”
“Although,” added Scythe Curie, “anything’s possible.”
When the elevator reached her floor, Mrs. Yeltner actually tripped over her dog in her hurry to get out.
It was a Sunday—both of Citra’s parents and her brother were home, waiting. The visit wasn’t a surprise, but there was surprise on her father’s face when he opened the door.
“Hi, Dad,” Citra said. He took her into his arms in a hug that felt warm, but yet obligatory as well.
“We’ve missed you, honey,” said her mother, hugging her as well. Ben kept his distance and just stared at the scythe.
“We were expecting Scythe Faraday,” her father said to the lavender-clad woman.
“Long story,” said Citra. “I have a new mentor now.”
And Ben blurted out, “You’re Scythe Curie!”
“Ben,” chided their mother, “don’t be rude.”
“But you are, aren’t you? I’ve seen pictures. You’re famous.”
The scythe offered a modest grin. “‘Infamous’ is more accurate.”
Mr. Terranova gestured to the living room. “Please, come in.”
But Scythe Curie never crossed the threshold. “I have business elsewhere,” she said, “but I’ll return for Citra at dusk.” She nodded to Citra’s parents, winked at Ben, then turned to leave. The moment the door was closed both her parents seemed to fold just a bit, as if they had been holding their breath.
“I can’t believe you’re being taught by the Scythe Curie. ?The Grandma of Death!”
“Grande Dame, not grandma.”
“I didn’t even know she still existed,” said Citra’s mom. “Don’t all scythes have to glean themselves eventually?”
“We don’t have to do anything,” Citra said, a little surprised at how little her parents really knew about how the Scythedom worked. “Scythes only self-glean if they want to.” Or if they’re murdered, thought Citra.
Her room was the way she had left it, just cleaner.
“And if you’re not ordained, you can come home and it will be like you never left,” her mother said. Citra didn’t tell her that either way, she would not be coming home. If she achieved scythehood, she would probably live with other junior scythes, and if she did not become an ordained scythe, she would not live at all. Her parents didn’t need to know that.
“It’s your day,” her father said. “What would you like to do?”
Citra rummaged through her desk drawer until she found her camera. “Let’s go for a walk.”
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The small talk was of the microscopic variety, and although it was good to be with her family, never had the barrier between them felt denser. There were so many things she wished she could talk about, but they’d never understand. Never be able to relate. She couldn’t talk to her mother about the intricacies of killcraft. She couldn’t commiserate with her father about that moment when life left a person’s eyes. Her brother was the only one she felt remotely comfortable talking to.
“I had a dream that you came to my school and gleaned all the jerks,” he told her.
“Really?” Citra said. “What color were my robes?”
He hesitated. “Turquoise, I think.”
“Then that will be the color I’ll choose.”
Ben beamed.
“What will we call you once you’re ordained?” her father said, treating it as if it were a certainty.
Citra hadn’t even considered the question. She never heard a scythe referred to by anything but their Patron Historic or “Your Honor.” ?Were family members bound to that as well? She hadn’t even chosen her Patron yet. She dodged the question by saying, “You’re my family, you can call me whatever you like,” hoping that was true.
They strolled around town. Although she didn’t tell them, they passed the small home where she had lived with Rowan and Scythe Faraday. They passed the train station nearest the home. And everywhere they went, Citra made a point to take a family picture . . . each from an angle very close to that of the nearest public camera.
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The day was emotionally exhausting. Citra wanted to stay longer, and yet a big part of her couldn’t wait for Scythe Curie to arrive. She resolved not to feel guilty about that. She’d had more than her share of guilt. “Guilt is the idiot cousin of remorse,” Scythe Faraday had been fond of saying.
Scythe Curie didn’t ask Citra any questions about her visit on the way home, and Citra was content not to share. She did ask the scythe something, though.
“Does anyone ever call you by your name?”
“Other scythes—ones I’m friendly with, will call me Marie.”
“As in Marie Curie?”
“My Patron Historic was a great woman. She coined the term ‘radioactivity,’ and was the first woman to win the Nobel Prize, back when such things were awarded.”
“But what about your real name? The one you were born with?”
Scythe Curie took her time in answering. Finally she said, “There’s no one in my life who knows me by that name.”
“What about your family? They must be still around—after all, they have immunity from gleaning as long as you’re alive.”
She sighed. “I haven’t been in touch with my family for more than a hundred years.”
Citra wondered if that would happen to her. Do all scythes lose the ties to everyone they had known—everything they had been before they were chosen?
“Susan,” Scythe Curie finally said. “When I was a little girl, they called me Susan. Suzy. Sue.”
“It’s a pleasure to meet you, Susan.”
Citra found it next to impossible to imagine Scythe Curie as a little girl.
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