Normal, she thought, like a hunger in her belly. He could make me normal.
Edward brushed aside another fleck of dust, picked up a roll of bandages, and started securing the woman’s face. “So you see,” he said, “why Dorie must not give in to that side of her nature. I fight against their gifts, and fail. Just like I once fought against the Fey Queen’s hold and failed. There is great evil in that failure.”
His eyes were shadowed again, even in the bright workroom light. She felt his pain, clutching deep in his chest. More—she really did feel it. She was sure of that now. She could feel his shame as if it were her own, and it was only just now, since she had removed the iron from her fey-cursed cheek. She put a hand to her bare red cheek and found it was blazing hot.
The shame of … letting others suffer for his mistakes? His daughter, but first … his wife. Fey-bombed and taken over while pregnant. A wonder Dorie had survived. “And then,” she said in a low voice, “the Fey Queen returned.”
A short nod confirmed that horror. “Dorie must not give in to her curse,” he said. “Almost six and can’t dress herself? No. She must be strong.”
Jane was going to say that strength wasn’t the issue—that bottling up wasn’t strength, a whole host of things she was discovering this last week, this day, now. She put that aside to convince him, she must convince him that her way was right. She swallowed. “The Fey Queen told Dorie she was her mother.” Something niggled at the back of her mind about that but she ignored it in favor of listening to the emotions that were suddenly rampaging through Edward, trying to sort out the cacophony she was hearing. “If I help Dorie learn how to use her fey gifts, then she’ll be able to defend herself if the Fey Queen tries to take her away.”
“To defend herself,” he said, and hope lit his whispered words. “To be strong where I was weak.…” He laid the bandages on Nina’s breast, and suddenly his eyes and insides were all aflame. “Tell me more about what you and Dorie have done together.”
“Well, we’ve practiced diverting things out of the air. In case a fey bomb were thrown at her. I don’t know why a fey claiming to be her mother would do that, but…” She trailed off, confused by his nearness, by the heat that billowed up inside him as he came toward her, nearer, nearer, one foot nudging hers now, now he stood right there, and it was not something that had ever been going to happen in this timeline, it was so not this Jane that she could hardly breathe.
He gently touched her chin, and when she did not jerk away, he drew his fingers down her ruined cheek. “Doesn’t it hurt you when she uses that cursed side of hers?”
Her cheek flamed where his finger touched it. “Not so much as I expected.” Speaking and breathing seemed impossible; she was overwhelmed by her discoveries, by him. “That’s what I think is so important. That if we let the poison run out … it doesn’t stay inside and fester and make us die a slow, lingering death.” He ran his thumb along her bottom lip. “So … I think our work … is important.…”
Edward bent his head and kissed her. The new sense of him seemed to draw extra fire into her, fire that had been born in his body. Like drinking in the heat that he carried. She closed her eyes so she wouldn’t have to see whether he closed his. With her eyes closed, she was just Jane, on any branch of time.
Then there was air around her mouth and she breathed.
“Your work is very important,” said Edward. “I want you to be able to do it to the best of your ability.”
“Yes.”
He leaned in, kissed her again, again. “I will get you anything you need.” A flicker of something dark—and frightened?—shuddered through him, and when she opened her eyes she realized his were now open. Watching her ruined face. Warmth and ice ran through him so intermingled that she could not tell what he felt, what he wanted. She stepped back, dropping his hands from her own.
The woman on the table was still and silent. Her unearthly beauty filled the room. The woman, the room, Jane, were cold, cold, but Edward’s heat could drive all that away. She knew what she wanted. For that one moment she set aside all knowledge that there was something about her he feared and put a daring hand to his belt loop. “Close your eyes and kiss me again.”
He obeyed. His lips touched hers and heat poured into them. She drowned, was engulfed, immolated.
But something rocked his body—tension, fear—and she realized there was noise from below, from the darkened house. Pounding on the outside studio door, short heavy footsteps bursting through—Poule. Jane stepped back from Edward, but not quickly enough for the quick-witted dwarf to miss the truth, she knew.