chapter SEVEN
• SAM •
Isabel was on the phone when she came into the living room. She threw her purse on the couch, barely looking at me and Cole. To the phone, she said, “Like I said, my dog is having a seizure. I don’t have a car. What can I do for him here? No, this isn’t for Chloe.”
As she listened to their answer, she looked at me. For a moment, we both stared at each other. It had been two months and Isabel had changed — her hair, too, was longer, but like me, the difference was in her eyes. She was a stranger. I wondered if she thought the same thing about me.
On the phone, they’d asked her a question. She relayed it to me. “How long has it been?”
I looked away, to my watch. My hands felt cold. “Uh — six minutes since I found him. He’s not breathing.”
Isabel licked her bubblegum-colored lips. She looked past me to where Cole still jerked, his chest still, a reanimated corpse. When she saw the syringe beside him, her eyes shuttered. She held the phone away from her mouth. “They say to try an ice pack. In the small of his back.”
I retrieved two bags of frozen french fries from the freezer. By the time I returned, Isabel was off her phone and crouching in front of Cole, a precarious pose in her stacked heels. There was something striking about her posture; something about the tilt to her head. She was like a beautiful and lonely piece of art, lovely but unreachable.
I knelt on the other side of Cole and pressed the bags behind his shoulder blades, feeling vaguely impotent. I was battling death and these were all the weapons I had.
“Now,” Isabel said, “with thirty percent less sodium.”
It took me a moment to realize that she was reading the side of the bag of french fries.
Cole’s voice came out of the speakers near us, sexy and sarcastic: “I am expendable.”
“What was he doing?” she asked. She didn’t look at the syringe.
“I don’t know,” I said. “I wasn’t here.”
Isabel reached out to help steady one of the bags. “Dumb shit.”
I became aware that the shaking had slowed.
“It’s stopping,” I said. Then, because I felt like being too optimistic would somehow tempt fate into punishing me: “Or he’s dead.”
“He’s not dead,” Isabel said. But she didn’t sound certain.
The wolf was still, head lolled back at a grotesque angle. My fingers were bright red from the cold of the frozen fries. We were totally silent. By now, Grace would be far away from where she had called from. It seemed like a silly plan, now, no more logical than saving Cole’s life with a bag of french fries.
The wolf’s chest stayed motionless; I didn’t know how long it had been since he’d taken a breath.
“Well,” I said, quietly. “Damn.”
Isabel fisted her hands in her lap.
Suddenly the wolf’s body bucked again in another violent movement. His legs scissored and flailed.
“The ice,” Isabel snapped. “Sam, wake up!”
But I didn’t move. I was surprised by the ferocity of my relief as Cole’s body buckled and twitched. This new pain I recognized — shifting. The wolf jerked and twitched and fur somehow sloughed and rolled back. Paws peeled into fingers, shoulders rippled and widened, the spine buckled. Everything shaking. The wolf’s body stretched impossibly, muscles bulging against skin, bones audibly scraping one another.
And then it was Cole, gasping, his lips tinged blue, his fingers jerking and reaching for air. I could still see his skin stretching and remaking itself along his ribs with each shuddering breath. His green eyes were half-lidded, each blink almost too long to be a blink.
I heard Isabel suck in her breath and I realized that I should have warned her to look away. I put my hand on her arm. She flinched.
“Are you okay?” I asked.
“I’m fine,” she replied, too fast to mean it. No one was fine after they saw that.
The next song on the CD started, and when the drums pattered an opening, one of NARKOTIKA’s best-known songs, Cole laughed, silently, a laugh that saw no humor in anything, ever.
Isabel stood up, suddenly ferocious, like the laugh had been a slap.
“My work here’s done. I’m going to go.”
Cole’s hand reached out and curled around her ankle. His voice was slurred. “IshbelCulprepr.” He closed his eyes; opened them again. They were slits. “Youknow what-do.” He paused. “Affer the beep. Beep.”
I looked at Isabel. Victor’s hands pounded posthumously on the drums in the background.
She told Cole, “Next time, kill yourself outside. Less cleanup for Sam.”
“Isabel,” I said sharply.
But Cole seemed unaffected.
“Was just,” he said, and stopped. His lips were less blue now that he’d been breathing for a while. “Was just trying to find …” He stopped entirely and closed his eyes. A muscle was still twitching over his shoulder blade.
Isabel stepped over his body and snatched up her purse from the couch. She stared at the banana I’d left there beside it, eyebrows pulled down low over her eyes as if, out of everything that she’d seen today, the banana was the most inexplicable.
The idea of being alone in the house with Cole — with Cole, like this — was unbearable.
“Isabel,” I said. I hesitated. “You don’t have to go.”
She looked back at Cole, and her mouth became a thin, hard thing. There was something wet caught in her long lashes. She said, “Sorry, Sam.”
When she left, she shut the back door hard enough to make every glass Cole had left on the counter rattle.