"I saw you at my grave, every day for the first few weeks after I left. Then when work got busy at the Guild you came on the weekends. Do you have any idea how hard it was to stay away from you until I could contain this eternal fucking hunger?"
"Is this where I say sorry? Because I would have fought, if we had died Adrian, then so be it. Everyone dies sometime and I'd have died to prevent what you've become any day of the fucking week."
He frowned and nodded letting his arm drop from my face. "I can change you Syn, we could be together forever. Never growing old. Never be apart."
"I wouldn’t abandon my coven so easily Adrian and who says I don’t want to grow old? You made a choice. Don’t assume you can make mine as well. I'm what I was born to be, what my parents died for. They died making sure I stayed alive, I won't change that because you went and made some stupid decision and it was Adrian, it was stupid. We needed you, you broke me Adrian. You left us weakened by your loss and who knows what could have happened while you were out fucking everything with a pulse!"
"I wasn’t fucking anything Syn. I was so busy trying to figure out how to get you back that I couldn’t get my dick up! I had to feed though and well it goes hand in hand. So yes, I've taken lovers because I had to. I was just buying time Syn, I was unstable," he threw his hand in the air with frustration, "I couldn’t control it, I gave my life to protect you. Going to you while I couldn’t control the bloodlust would have been stupid."
"It changes nothing, Adrian you left us exposed. You left me in fucking pieces!" I shouted uncaring if whoever was listening heard us.
"I came back dammit, just in time to find you wearing his fucking name on your neck Syn. Are you fucking him too? He isn't what you think he is, he is so much fucking more and he's playing you. Did you fuck him? Call out his fucking name while he was fucking you!? Like you did with me?" He sneered.
I slapped him before I knew what I was doing. All the rage and anger I'd been holding inside since seeing him coming out with a vengeance, the pain and betrayal I felt didn’t help either. I turned to go but he was on me, his fingers biting into my shoulders as he tried to turn me around to face him.
Big mistake, I don’t play well when I am angry. I pulled every ounce of power from the air around us and pushed it at him, watching the shock on his beautiful face, his electric eyes as he was thrown from me violently into the air. I could hear blood rushing through my ears, through my veins as I allowed the power full reign inside me. I wasn’t a fucking victim and I wouldn’t become one at his hands.
I watched him stand up slowly, carefully. He was linked into my power. I could feel him tapping into it, pulling from it. His death had not severed his connection to the coven, he'd known this entire time where and what we were doing. I could see his eyes registering the mistake he'd just made. I held perfectly still, waiting to see his next move.
"I didn’t mean to hurt you Syn, I am still learning how to control it," he whispered looking down at is hands as if they were a foreign object.
"What I do, is none of your fucking business Adrian, you chose a different path that doesn’t lead to me," I allowed the power to drain slowly, watching as he did the same, "If I sleep with another, it's not up to you to decide if it's wrong or right. It would be my choice. My choice."
He shook his dark head, his hair falling into his turbulent eyes. "He isn't what you think he is. I'm trying to protect you."
"I'm a big girl Adrian, I don’t need protecting. Not anymore."
"You do against him! Fuck Syn, we all need to be protected against him. Are you that fucking blind? Wake the fuck up. You're smarter than that." He growled as his hand fisted at his sides as mine had.
"Then what the fuck is he?" I asked narrowing my eyes, I could tell when Adrian lied, I could feel it. He was also holding back, trying to shield the connection we had through the coven.
"I can't tell you, not because I don’t want to Syn, but it’s because if I do, I forfeit my life and maybe even yours."
That wasn’t a lie. I watched him as my mind ran wild with what he was saying. If Ryder was something else, wouldn’t I have noticed by now? "Adrian…" I said shaking my head as nothing he was saying made sense, but the connection between us was telling me he spoke the truth.
"I can't," he said dejectedly as he dropped his shoulder and shook his head. He stepped close as I instinctively stepped back from him as I watched him closely. "Just don’t take anything around here at face value and don’t fall for him baby. Promise me, that somehow we will be as we were before we separated. Promise me we will be together when this is over."