He pressed his face to the curve of my neck. Inhaling deeply, as if he wanted to memorize my scent. Right now I probably smelled like— Blood.
I stiffened, even as he licked my skin, grazed the damp flesh with his teeth, took a fold into his mouth and suckled.
Images flickered—other women in his arms, other men. The taste of the blood, the sexual pull of it. The desire to feed, to devour, to possess, the struggle not to kill.
I felt everything as if those feelings were mine. I tasted the blood; I wanted it, too. I wanted him to feed on me while he took me, hard against the wall, the orgasm made stronger by the draining of my life into his mouth.
I shuddered and pushed at his shoulders. Without any hesitation, he let me go.
"You saw?" he murmured.
My eyes narrowed. He'd done that on purpose.
"Did you think I'd be disgusted?" I asked. "That I wouldn't understand? That isn't you, Jimmy."
His lips curved into a humorless smile. "The Strega's dead. Who else could it be?"
"I felt your struggle. You didn't—" I paused. "Did you?"
"Didn't what?" He looked at me, one quick glance and then away. "Force them? I never have to force anyone. Once I drink from them a few times, they'll do anything I want."
"Excuse me?"
He hauled himself out of the pool; his clothes dripped enough water onto the dirt floor of the cave to create a puddle of mud. "Remember the Strega's harem?"
How could I forget? The women had behaved like something out of a sci-fi movie—robots on parade.
"The more a vampire feeds on someone, the more they're tied to him."
I sloshed to the side of the pool as my mind mulled over Jimmy's words. Was that why I couldn't seem to let him go? How many times had he fed on me in Manhat-tan? I couldn't remember.
Except I'd staked him in that glass tower, had planned to stake him again, until, at the death of the strega, Jimmy had snapped out of his evil twin persona. I wouldn't have been able to hurt him if he were capable of controlling me.
And the undeniable attraction I had for him dated from way back. Even when he'd broken my heart, walked out of my life, I'd never been able to forget him. That I couldn't now was just more of the same, not some new mind control brought about by his sinking his fangs into me one too many times.
I hoisted myself out of the water as a sudden thought drove out the others. "If vampires can control humans by feeding on them, that means they could take over the earth."
"I think that's what Daddy had planned."
"Why hasn't it happened already?" I asked. "I'm sure there are plenty of bloodsuckers out there; they're feeding at will, so how is it that the whole world isn't one big vampire harem?"
"Because most vampires kill. Once they start feeding, they can't stop. They don't want to."
"So what was wrong with the strega?"
"He was powerful enough to control himself."
I tilted my head. "So can you."
He threw up his hands; droplets of water smacked me in the face. "If that were true, Lizzy, I wouldn't be here."
"You aren't killing people, that's control. If you've managed to do that much in a month, eventually you'll be able to stop the vampire urges altogether."
"Maybe," he murmured. "But I can't take that chance. For all I know, the more I feed, the less human I'll get."
He could be right.
"These things take time," I said.
"We don't have time. You need me now."
"It appears we've been granted a reprieve."
He frowned. "What?"
"Did you ever hear the rumor that by killing the leader of the darkness we could end Doomsday?"
"You can't end it. Doomsday is inevitable."
"Fine." I said. "Then postpone it."
Jimmy shook his head, but he was thinking. "Reverse the prophecy, reverse the results. It makes sense." He smacked his hands together in frustration. "I should have thought of that."
"Wouldn't have mattered, I'd have killed the strega anyway."
He remained silent for several seconds, then, "What's it like out there?" He jerked his head toward the mouth of the cave.
"Calmer than it should be if chaos were reigning."
"All this means is that they'll have to kill you to start Doomsday all over again."
I shrugged. "They were trying to kill me anyway. They're trying to kill all of us."
Jimmy pressed his palms to his eyes. "I've got to get rid of this thing inside of me. You need help."
"What I need is you healthy, sane, at the top of your game."
"What if I never get there?"
I didn't answer. I couldn't leave him in this cave in-definitely; I probably shouldn't leave him here at all. But what was I going to do with him?
"Jimmy, I have to have the seers' contact information that you got from Ruthie."
"You mean the ones I stole out of her mind while she was sleeping?"
Besides being a dhampir, Jimmy was also a dream walker. He could slip into a person's dreams, steal their memories, their knowledge, their secrets, and leave no trace that he'd ever been there. That he'd been compelled to dream walk, along with everything else, didn't seem much comfort to him at all.