Goodnight, Gaige.
It sounded a hell of a lot more like goodbye.
The knock on the door in the morning startles me. When I answer, my hair plastered to the side of my face, no one's there. I barely slept last night, gutted over what happened. I wonder if Chelsea is on her way back to Texas already, the bearer of such fantastic fucking news that my father will probably have a coronary.
I need to call my father. I don't know how to explain any of it. I really can't face him.
And I can't face Gaige, either.
How can things go from being so high to crashing down so low in a matter of minutes? Last night with Gaige, I was happy. I was deliriously, irrepressibly, recklessly happy. A part of me knew it wouldn't last, just like part of me this morning longs to go to Gaige, to tell him that it doesn't matter, that we shouldn't give a shit what anyone else thinks.
Except it's Gaige, the guy who doesn't spend time with women outside the bedroom. The guy who doesn't date. Perpetual manwhore, always risk-taking, never-going-to-grow-up Gaige. And the most important part – my step-brother. What the hell would I say to him?
I think I might love you.
The realization nearly takes my breath away.
Then I know what I have to do.
I listen to the clerk at the front desk relay the message, and I can hear the words, but I don't want to believe them. Delaney couldn't have just left Tokyo without saying anything. She wouldn't.
I'm angry at her for running away. I'm angry at her for being so fucking juvenile that she's taken an earlier flight just hours before our scheduled one so she doesn't have to be on the same flight as me.
I hope that she's on her way back to Dallas to talk to Beau, and not going straight to her mother's house in New York. Not that I expect she'll stick around in Dallas, after how embarrassed she was at being discovered.
Goddamn it, how am I the one who's behaving rationally? How am I the one acting like an adult here? Yes, the deal with Akira is off, but that's not the worst thing in the world. And the step-sibling relationship…I want to grab Delaney by the arms and shake her, to tell her that it's really not that big of a deal. We're not actually related. Our parents met when we were basically adults.
During the long flight, I think about what I want to say to Delaney. I also think about what I already said to her father in the email. I meant every word.
I'm just hoping that she'll be there so I can say the same thing in person.
I'm also hoping her father doesn't point a shotgun at me when I show up.
"You dirty skanky ho." Daniel's voice on the other end of the phone is the first thing I hear as I debark the plane.
"Oh God," I say. "How did you find out?"
"Gossip site," he says. "I'm so proud of you."
"What?" I can't process what he's saying. I'm just thinking about the fact that this has gone public, before I can even talk to my father. Before I can do damage control. I'm very close to bursting into tears. "I don't know what to do –"
"Oh, shit," Daniel says, his voice concerned. "Oh, sweetie, are you crying? I didn't mean you were a skanky ho for real. You're totally not. I'm jealous that you hooked up with Gaige. Why the fuck didn't you tell me? When did it happen?"
I'm choking back tears as I walk through the airport, following the signs for baggage claim. "I don't know what I'm going to do."
"Where are you? Are you in Dallas yet? Have you seen your father?" He peppers me with questions. "Please don't cry. It's not terrible. There's nothing wrong with it, doll. Nothing. You're adults. And you're not related. And Gaige is gorgeous. Was the sex good? I know it was good, you don't even have to tell me."
I don't know which of his thousand questions to answer first. The sex was great. The sex was amazing. "We were out, and my feet were hurting, and Gaige carried me for like two blocks through the city and back to the hotel room. And we ran into Chelsea and I left Japan, and I haven't talked to Gaige and he probably thinks that I hate him and –" I stop, partly because I'm a runaway train and partly because I don't know what else to say.
Daniel is quiet on the other end of the phone. "Did you hang up?" I ask.
"Oh my God," he says. "You love him."
"What?" I shake my head. "No. It's not possible. I'm not even sure I like him." That's a lie and I know it is. The words ring false even as I speak them out loud.
"Do you want me to meet you at your dad's house?" Daniel asks. "You know if you need a place to stay, the door is open."
"I'll let you know after the conversation with my father," I say. "If I'm still alive."
Tool (A Step-Brother Romance #2)
Sabrina Paige's books
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- A Very Dirty Wedding
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