“At least your father and I don’t kick,” his grandmother was saying. “You were a kicker.”
He sensed that she had started to cry and he turned away, staring out the window at the weedy cliffs rushing by. Then he turned back and wrapped her in his arms and let her weep against his chest. He wondered if this was what it meant to be an adult, to be on the other side of the tantrum.
54
Joy decided she was not speaking to either Danny or Molly.
“I have never played favorites,” she told Natalie proudly when she got back to New York. “I’m not going to start now.”
Natalie was the only one of the girls in town. She never left New York City, nor could she understand those who did. But since neither Joy nor Natalie wanted to venture out in the heat, they might as well have been in different countries. They were speaking on the phone, each in her air-conditioned bedroom.
“I’m surprised they didn’t follow you into town. As chaperones.”
“First they want me to stop grieving. Then they think I’m not grieving enough.”
Joy was angry, but the silent treatment was difficult for her to maintain. She wondered how Freddie’s father was. And she wanted to tell Molly about the deliveryman (the turkey burger she ordered was too dry, but she put sliced tomatoes on it and microwaved it and it was delicious), the same deliveryman she’d given the scarf to. She’d asked if he was cold and wanted another scarf, and they had laughed and laughed. Then, too, she wanted to call Danny to tell him about the letter Ruby had written her and stuffed in her suitcase begging her to send candy to camp immediately, it was an emergency, this way it would be there when Ruby arrived, and it should be flat and hidden inside a magazine or book. Danny had done the same thing when he went to camp. Some things never changed.
Joy gave the telephone a poisonous glance. Never mind. Let them stew.
“She needs space?” Molly said when Ben answered the phone. “What does that mean? She’s not my boyfriend. We’re not twenty.”
“Mom,” Ben said, “she needs some time on her own.”
“You’re there.”
“Just give her some time. It’s hard to be an old Jew, remember?”
Daniel called a few minutes later.
“She’s so sensitive. Honestly,” he said when Ben said she could not speak to him because she was too upset, and he hung up, his feelings hurt.
Joy was relieved that Karl was still in Rhode Island with his son. She could not imagine speaking to him, either. She was happy when Ben went out. She spent the day quietly, adjusting the air conditioners, looking for her glasses, reading the newspaper, petting the dog. The coffee shop delivered her meals. In the late evening, when it was less hot, she took a short, careful walk, Gatto under her arm. She could not remember the last time she had spent a summer day in the city. She could see the sunset between the buildings.
Coco called to try to make peace. Joy told Ben to tell her she would let her know if and when she was ready to negotiate.
When Freddie called, though, Joy got on the phone.
“I’m so sorry, dear. I hope your father recovers very quickly. It must be a nightmare for you. All that family. Family is a nightmare, isn’t it?”
She pictured Freddie surrounded by all her brothers and sisters. And nieces and nephews. And Molly. Was Molly standing right beside her?
“Is Molly there?”
“Yes. Do you want to talk to her? She’s very ashamed of herself. Aren’t you, Molly?”
Joy heard a mumbled assent.
“Very,” Freddie added.
“Well, then.”
“And she misses you. She can’t stand it that she hasn’t spoken to you.”
“She just got off the plane.”
“True. We’re going straight from the airport to the hospital to see my father.”
Joy sat down in the kitchen. There were so few cars on the street. No sirens. She thought of Freddie’s father in the hospital, in a coma, unable to speak to his daughters or his sons. And Freddie and Molly going to see him, to stand silently at his silent bedside.
“That’s good,” Joy said. “Good girls.”
And the feud was finished.
55
In the weeks that followed, Duncan’s grandchildren and sons and daughters-in-law all returned home, but Pamela and Laurel stayed on. Their father lay unconscious in a hospital bed, and they sat every day, one on either side of him, discussing the disposition of his property. Freddie explained to them that he had no property to speak of, but they spoke of it anyway. There was the jewelry, their mother’s jewelry, which had never been distributed. It was costume jewelry, but you never knew. And there were Duncan’s watches, vintage watches that had become valuable. Not to mention his life insurance, which was all paid up years ago, and his car.
“He sold the car after his last accident,” Freddie said.
“Well, then, the proceeds…”