*
Molly and Freddie tried, they did try. They took Joy to the beach to watch the sunset. They took her to dinner. They made her dinner. They walked her up and down the street like a much-loved dog. In the evening they sat outside and had their glass of wine and Joy sat with them, but she was alone in those moments, she was alone in every moment. How could she have explained that to the two girls? That’s how she had come to think of them, as the two girls. Not The Girls. The Girls were her friends back in New York. The Two Girls were here, attentive, dutiful, insufficient.
I have no life, Joy thought. I belong nowhere. I am residing in someone else’s life, in the Two Girls’ life.
The days passed, many days, Joy was sure, though she began to lose track of them.
“Give it a little time, Mom. It’s only been a week,” Molly said.
“It seems like a year. Fish and guests, you know what they say.”
Molly looked crestfallen, a word Joy was sure she had not thought of in years. She could not stand to have her daughter look crestfallen. It broke her heart.
“It’s lovely,” she said quickly. “You two girls are wonderful to me. But what am I doing here, honey? I don’t belong here. I’m in your way and I do have my own home. At home.”
“It’s a change,” Molly said. “A change of scenery.”
Joy tried to smile appreciatively. She must stop complaining or she’d end up with yet another change of scenery, she thought, the parking lot out of a nursing home window.
*
That night in bed, Molly whispered to Freddie, “I think she misses him.”
“Of course she does, honey. So do you,” Freddie whispered back. “So do I. It’s been just a few months.”
“No, I mean Karl.”
Freddie started to say that was unlikely, but then wondered. “You think she’s like my father?”
Molly, obviously offended, said, “She’s lonely and vulnerable. That’s all.”
“It’s probably pretty boring for her here.”
Molly had tried to interest her mother in gardening. She offered to get raised beds if Joy wanted to grow vegetables. Molly did not like gardening, but she saw no reason that her mother shouldn’t, and if that meant fresh Tuscan kale and artichokes on Molly’s table, so much the better. “It’s very spiritual, Mom,” she’d said. “Working with the soil.” She wished her mother had shown even a little initiative, if not with vegetables, then with flowers. They had a rosebush out front that was not doing at all well.
“She’s always on the phone,” she whispered to Freddie. “And she’s secretive.”
She thought it was usually Daniel, sometimes Natalie or one of the other girls. But it could be Karl, for all she really knew.
“She probably misses her cronies, her routine. Old people like routine. That’s what they keep telling me at Dad’s place. That’s one of the things they can’t understand about him. He hates routine.”
Molly kissed Freddie. “That’s it! You are a genius. We’ll take her to visit your father. She’ll see her peers and feel less lonely. We’ll take her to Green Goddess!”
*
Joy sat glumly in the backseat. The thin end of the wedge. The way they talked this place up, as if it were a resort in the Caribbean—it had happened to her friends, but she had not really expected this from Molly, her own daughter.
“I plan to go back to work in the fall,” she said.
“One day at a time,” Molly answered.
The parking lot seemed to be home to a number of cats.
“Pets are allowed,” Freddie said, “but the cats are feral.”
The building was pink stucco. The rooms had small balconies. In the center of an inner courtyard a fountain bubbled, and there was a front desk like a hotel. The whole place felt like a hotel, actually, a small hotel just a bit down at the heels.
“Not bad, right?” Freddie said.
Joy gave a weak smile.
They had lunch in the dining room. Joy was alarmed by the bibs the residents wore, but the food was quite good. She had never met Freddie’s father before this, which struck all of them as odd.
“Where have they been hiding you?” Duncan asked.
“I live in New York City.” It felt good just to say that: I live in New York.
“What are you doing here with these two harridans?”
“We thought it would be nice for you two to meet, that’s all,” Freddie said.
Joy felt something on her knee. A hand.
“Well, it’s about time, says I,” the owner of the hand said. He gave Joy his handsome smile.
Joy shifted, freeing her knee. “Oh yes.”
A woman at a nearby table was glaring at her. Joy took a bite of her tuna-fish sandwich. The hand returned to her knee. She felt her throat closing and thought, What if I choke and die with my daughter’s father-in-law’s hand on my knee?
“So when did you move into Green Acres?” Duncan said.
“Excuse me?”
“She doesn’t live here, Dad. She’s staying with us.”