The hole it made in the plate-glass window of the corner market was small, like a bullet hole in a windshield in a television show. The cracks around the hole were the cracks around the hole in the ice on the skating pond in a movie and the little girl slips in, mittens flailing above the cold black water, and drowns.
Ruby stood, three feet above the sidewalk in the freezing wind, and stared in surprise at the hole in the window. The hole severed the stem of the letter T in the word MARKET. MIKE’S CORNER MARKET. Ruby felt her mother yanking on her arm, but did not see her. She saw only the mouth of the man who owned the store, Manuel (not Mike, there was no Mike), a nice man who sold her candy and Doritos. His mouth was moving, his missing tooth appeared and reappeared, a blink of dark space. Like the hole in his window. His face was contorted in mystified rage. He slapped the top of his shiny bald head with an open palm.
“What were you thinking?” That was her mother’s voice. “Hand it over this minute.” That was her father. They were all inside the store now, all of them in the narrow space between the counter and the racks of chips and boxes of power bars, in a line—Ruby, her father, who was pulling her slingshot from her frozen grip, her mother, her sister, who was white and awed but still wailing, Manuel, and a man Ruby did not know. Manuel’s voice was speaking Spanish. Manuel’s hand was pointing at the man who stood in front of the cash register. He was a tall man in a navy blue parka. His hair was soft and dark and fell over his forehead like a boy’s, but he was not a boy, he was a young man. He was wearing a small beanie, the Jewish beanie, she forgot the name. His eyes were bright and blue. He was holding a Kleenex to his cheek. It was bright red. Red with blood. He was the handsomest man Ruby had ever seen.
The Spanish words and the words of her mother were all mixed together with Cora’s wails. The noise was amplified by the constricted space, and the warmth was overwhelming after the windy street, and Ruby was sweating and crying, and her mother was holding her shoulders and shaking her, not very hard, and Manuel was slapping his head with both hands, and Cora was gulping her sobs down.
I’m sorry, I’m sorry, Ruby thought, but no words came out.
And then the handsome man put one hand on Ruby’s mother’s shoulder and one hand on Ruby’s shoulder, the hand with the bloody Kleenex. The blood was so bright. It was the color of the paper stuck in the bottom of the plastic container of raspberries. It was almost pink. The tissue had sucked the color up. It flapped like a flag. A horrible, bloodstained flag. Ruby stared at it, and she didn’t even hear herself scream, but she screamed, screamed bloody murder, as her father said later. And everyone else was suddenly quiet, even Cora.
Ruby screamed for quite a while, but eventually she heard what the handsome man was saying. He was kneeling down on the dirty bodega floor, and he hugged her and said, into her cold ear with his warm breath, “You didn’t mean any harm. I know that. Accidents are everywhere, just waiting for us, aren’t they? This accident is over now. No one was hurt. No one was hurt.”
She did not remember her father reassuring Manuel that they would pay for a new window or Cora telling her she would be paying for it from her allowance for the rest of her life.
The handsome man held her hand and walked home with them. He was a rabbi. Call me Rabbi Kenny, he said. That’s why he was wearing a beanie, she supposed (yarmulke, that was the name, she remembered). That’s why he forgave her. He was a man of the cloth. Manuel had given him a first-aid kit he sold in the shop, no charge, and it had two gauze pads, which the rabbi had unwrapped and placed over the cut. He asked Ruby to apply the Band-Aids to hold them in place. There was no blood coming through them. No more blood, said the rabbi. See?
“You might need stitches,” Daniel said.
The rabbi said, “No, I don’t think so. Ruby did an excellent job patching me up.”
Ruby’s mother gave Ruby a cold glance.
“Why did you do that?” Daniel asked for the tenth time.
Rabbi Kenny said, “It was a mistake, a lapse in judgment, and Ruby seems like the kind of person who learns from mistakes.”
“Well, that’s true,” Coco said. “She does. But we’re so sorry, Rabbi.”
Ruby was thinking how kind it was of the rabbi to refer to her as a person, rather than a little girl. Or a monster.
“I’m sorry, too,” she said, the first words she had spoken since what she already thought of as the Incident. “I’m really, really, really sorry.” She looked into her victim’s lovely blue eyes. She wanted to say, Forgive me, Father, for I have sinned. She had seen it on so many TV shows. It was obviously inappropriate for a rabbi, which seemed a shame, for she had sinned and she did want his forgiveness.
“People should wear helmets,” Cora said.
Rabbi Kenny lived a few blocks away with his wife and two small children. His synagogue was around the corner. They had passed it millions of times, but never gone in.
“We’re not exactly observant Jews,” Coco said.