Mason staggers back, eyes round and enthralling. The look on his face mirroring my own trepidation.
“I don’t understand what we’re doing and I just need a minute to breathe, okay?” Tears wet my cheeks. More threaten behind my lashes. “I need a minute,” I softly utter, wiping at my face and looking up at him.
God, what is happening to me? I’m yelling at everyone today.
He pinches his lips together through a tense nod, studying me with rapt attention. His eyes gentle yet gripping.
I try and compose myself. I manage to at least stop fresh tears from forming, but my chest feels tight and my hands are sweaty. I pray I don’t stroke out right here on the sidewalk.
Mason stares at me a moment longer, then looks over my shoulder and rubs at his jaw. “Why don’t we go grab some coffee? Sit down for a bit.”
I shake my head. “No. I need to get back to work.”
“Come on.” He reaches out for me, but pulls his hand back before he can touch my arm. He tilts his head with a tender grin. “Just a few minutes, yeah? I won’t keep you long. Just one cup of coffee.”
“I’ve already given you coffee today,” I reply, wrapping my arms around myself.
He seems to fight a much broader smile as he moves closer. “I know, sweet Brooke. But it’s either this or lunch, and I figured you’d be more agreeable to a quick beverage.” He sticks his hands in his pockets and jerks his chin in the direction behind me. “One more cup. If Dylan gives you grief about it I’ll say it was all my doing. That I kidnapped you and ignored your urgent pleas to return to work. You’ll look like the model employee, I promise.”
I bite the inside of my cheek and contemplate his request.
Coffee, then I can return to work. Do I even want to return to work? I’m beginning to think that maybe leaving the sanctity of my bedroom at all today was the biggest mistake of my life.
Everything seemed so simple this weekend. I was in my perfect little Mason bubble and everyone left me alone about it. I didn’t have to explain myself to anyone. I wasn’t being asked to define anything. Even though Billy and Joey were around Saturday night, they left the two of us alone and from what I can remember, I enjoyed myself. I usually do with Mason. But now the weekend is over. I’m being forced to analyze what I’m doing and what all happens in my perfect little bubble, and I don’t want to. I don’t even know if I can.
How am I supposed to explain this to people when I don’t know what’s happening myself?
I clear that question from my head and look up into Mason’s eyes.
He’s offering me a chance to delay further abuse from my co-workers. I’d be crazy not to take it right now.
On the other hand, agreeing to this means spending more time with the man I just stuck a label on.
My mind itches with hesitancy.
God, I seriously hate Mondays. I am never partaking in one again.
Wiping away another tear with the back of my fingers, I drop my arms and make my decision.
“Fine. Okay. One more cup.”
MASON
Brooke stares down at her fingers knotted together in front of her as I wait for our coffee.
She isn’t crying anymore, but she doesn’t look like my Brooke. No sweet-dimpled smile. No luminous spark in her eyes.
She looks unsettled. Caught up in some worrying thought she’s allowing to consume her. A stark contrast from the warm, gregarious woman I openly kissed and touched Saturday night.
The one who very openly kissed and touched me.
I allow my mind to go there for a moment. Be present with that Brooke. Feel her hands around my neck and her breath against my cheek. Remember her quiet words, the ones I’m not sure she even realized she was saying as I held her on the couch and enjoyed our time together.
With the softest voice, with her lips moving against my ear, she asked if I could stay a little longer, if I could hold her until her heart stopped racing. If mine was racing too, and if that was normal for me, because it wasn’t for her. She told me to kiss her, again and again, to move my hand a little higher and that no one could see us. That even if they could she didn’t care, and that she wondered what we looked like together, not just then but all the time.
“Do you think they know?” she whispered, her fingers filtering through my hair.
“Know what?” I asked, just as softly, pressing a kiss to her nose, the flush in her cheek.
“That you’re kind of my thing too.”
We laughed and talked until she fell asleep with her face pressed into my neck. I carried her to bed and lingered there. I didn’t want to leave. I was beginning to hate the moments I spent away from Brooke.
All of them. Each miserable second.