Tess changed my life, changed everything. After our impromptu picnic, we saw each other every day of that wonderful summer. I remember sitting side by side on a park bench, lunches on our laps, talking in the brilliant sunshine. She would turn to me, her face bathed in brightness, so that I would have to shade my eyes to look at her, and she told me stories that fed my desire for more stories, so that I might know her and not forget a single line. I loved each accidental touch, the heat of her, the way she made me feel alive and fully human.
On the Fourth of July, Oscar closed the bar and invited nearly half the town to a picnic along the riverbank. He had arranged the celebration in gratitude to all of the people who had helped in the search and rescue of his nephew, for the policemen and firemen, doctors and nurses, all of Little Oscar’s schoolmates and teachers, the volunteers—such as myself, Jimmy, and George—the Loves and all their assorted relatives, a priest or two in mufti, and the inevitable hangers-on. A great feast was ordered. Pig in a pit. Chicken, hamburgers, hot dogs. Corn and watermelon trucked in from down south. Kegs of beer, bottles of the hard stuff, tubs of ice and sodas for the youngsters, a cake specially made in the city for the occasion—as big as a picnic table, iced in red, white, and blue with a gold THANK YOU in glittering script. The party began at four in the afternoon and lasted all night. When it became dark enough, a crew of firemen shot off a fireworks display, fading sparklers and candles popping and fizzing when they hit the river. Our town, like many places in America at the time, was divided by the war, but we put Vietnam and the marches behind us in deference to the celebration.
In the languorous heat, Tess looked delicious that evening, a cool smile, and bright lights in her eyes. I met all of her coworkers, the well-heeled doctors, a bevy of nurses, and far too many firemen and policemen, baked tan and swaggering. After the fireworks, she noticed her old sweetheart in the company of a new girl and insisted that we say hello. I could not shake the sensation that I had known him from my former life.
“Henry, you remember Brian Ungerland.” We shook hands, and he introduced his new girlfriend to us both. The women slipped away to compare notes.
“So, Ungerland, that’s an unusual name.”
“German.” He sipped his beer, stared at the women, who were laughing in an overly personal way.
“Your family from Germany?”
“Off the boat long time ago. My family’s been in town for a hundred years.”
A stray string of firecrackers went off in a rat-a-tat of pops.
“Came from a place called Eger, I think, but like I said, man, that was another life. Where are your people from, Henry?”
I told him the lie and studied him as he listened. The eyes clued me in, the set of the jaw, the aquiline nose. Put a walrus mustache on him, age Ungerland a few decades, and he would be a dead ringer for the man in my dreams. The father. Gustav’s father. I shook off the notion as merely the odd conflation of my stressful nightmares and the anxiety of seeing Tess’s old beau.
Jimmy Cummings crept from behind and nearly scared the life out of me. He laughed at my surprise and pointed to the ribbon hanging around his neck. “Hero for a day,” he shouted, and I couldn’t help but break into a broad grin. Little Oscar, as usual, appeared a bit dumbfounded by all the attention, but he smiled at strangers who tousled his hair and matrons who bent to kiss him on the cheek. Filled with good cheer, the warm evening passed in slow motion, the kind of day one recalls when feeling blue. Boys and girls chased fireflies in crazy circles. Sullen long-haired teens tossed a ball around with red-faced crew-cut policemen. In the middle of the night, when many had already headed for home, Lewis Love buttonholed me for the longest time. I missed half of what he said because I was watching Tess, who was engaged in animated conversation with her old boyfriend beneath a dark elm tree.
“I have a theory,” Lewis told me. “He was scared, right, out all night, and he heard something. I don’t know, like a raccoon or a fox, right? So he hides out in a hole, only it’s real hot in there and he gets a fever.”
She reached out and touched Ungerland on the arm, and they were laughing, only her hand stayed there.
“So he has this real weird dream—”
They were staring at each other, and old Oscar, oblivious to the end, marched up and joined their conversation. He was drunk and happy, but Tess and Brian were staring into each other’s eyes, their expressions real serious, as if trying to communicate something without saying a word.
“I personally think it was just some hippies’ old camping ground.”
I wanted to tell him to shut up. Now Ungerland’s hand was on her biceps, and they were all laughing. She touched her hair, nodded her head at whatever he was saying.
“. . . other kid was a runaway, but still you have to feel sorry . . .”
She looked back my way, smiled and waved, as if nothing had been happening. I held her gaze a beat and tuned in to Lewis.
“. . . but nobody believes in fairy tales, right?”