"Stay here," he said.
She stood at the centre of the floor, clutching her handbag in both hands, while he moved from room to room, so silently that the only sound she heard was the opening and closing of cupboards. She began to shiver again, violently. He returned to the drawing-room, put away his gun, dropped into a couch before the fire, and set to work to build it into a blaze. To keep away the animals, she thought, watching him. And the sheep safe. The fire roared and she sat before it on the sofa. He switched on the television. It showed an old black-and-white movie from the taverna on the hilltop. He did not turn up the sound. He placed himself before her.
"Would you like some vodka?" he asked politely. "I do not drink, but you must please yourself."
She would, so he poured some for her, far too much.
"You want to smoke?"
He handed her a leather box and lit her cigarette for her.
The lighting in the room brightened; her glance went swiftly to the television and she found herself staring straight into the exciting, over-expressive features of the weaselly little German she had seen not an hour earlier at Marty's side. He was posed beside the police van. Behind him she could see her bit of pavement and the side door of the lecture hall, fenced off with fluorescent tape. Police cars, fire engines and ambulances bustled in and out of the cordoned area. Terror is theatre, she thought. The background changed to a shot of green tarpaulins, erected to keep the weather out while the search continued. Khalil turned up the sound and she heard the wailing of ambulances behind the sleek, well-modulated voice of Alexis.
"What's he saying?" she asked.
"He's leading the investigation. Wait. I tell you."
Alexis vanished, and was replaced with a studio shot of Oberhauser unscathed.
"That's the idiot who opened the door to me," she said.
Khalil held up his hand to her to be quiet. She listened and realised, with a detached curiosity, that Oberhauser was giving a description of herself. She caught "Süd Afrika"and a reference to brown hair; she saw his hand lift to describe her spectacles; the camera switched to a trembling finger pointing to a pair similar to those which Tayeh had given to her.
After Oberhauser came our artist's first impression of the suspect, which looked like nobody on earth, except possibly an old advertisement for a liquid laxative that had featured large at railway stations ten years earlier. After that came one of the two policemen who had spoken to her, adding his own shamefaced description.
Switching off the set, Khalil again came and stood before her.
"You allow?" he asked shyly.
She picked up her handbag and put it the other side of her so that he could sit down. Did it hum? Bleep? Was it a microphone? What the hell did it do?
Khalil spoke precisely--a seasoned practitioner offers his diagnosis.
"You are a little bit at risk," he said. "Mr. Oberhauser remembers you, so does his wife, so do the policemen, and so do several people in the hotel. Your height, your figure, your spoken English, your acting talent. Also unfortunately there was an Englishwoman who overheard part of your conversation with Minkel and believes you are not South African at all, but English. Your description has gone to London, and we know that the English already have bad thoughts about you. The region here is on full alert, road blocks, spot checks, everybody is falling over his feet. But you will not worry." He took her hand and held it firmly. "I shall protect you with my life. Tonight we shall be safe. Tomorrow we shall smuggle you to Berlin and send you home."
"Home," she said.
"You are one of us. You are our sister. Fatmeh says you are our sister. You have no home, but you are part of a great family. We can make you a new identity, or you can go to Fatmeh, live with her as long as you wish. Though you never fight again, we shall take care of you. For Michel. For what you have done for us."
His loyalty was appalling. Her hand was still in his, his touch powerful and reassuring. His eyes shone with a possessive pride. She got up and walked from the room, taking her handbag with her.
A double bed, the electric fire lit, both bars regardless of expense. A bookshelf of Nowheresville bestsellers: I'm OK--You're OK, The Joy of Sex. The corners of the bed turned down. The bathroom lay beyond it, pine-clad, sauna adjoining. She took out the radio and looked at it, and it was her old one, down to the last scratch: just a little heavier, stronger in the hand. Wait until he sleeps. Until I do. She stared at herself. That artist's impression wasn't so bad after all. A land for no people, for a people with no land. First she scrubbed her hands and fingernails, then on an impulse she stripped and treated herself to a long shower, if only to stay away from the warmth of his trust for a little longer. She doused herself with body lotion, helping herself from the cabinet above the basin. Her eyes interested her; they reminded her of Fatima the Swedish girl at the training school--they had the same furious blankness of a mind that had learned to renounce the perils of compassion. The same self-hate exactly. She returned to find him laying food on the table. Cold meats, cheese, a bottle of wine. Candles, already lit. He pulled back a chair for her in the best European style. She sat down; he sat opposite her and began eating at once, with the natural absorption he gave to everything. He had killed and now he was eating: what could be more right? My maddest meal, she thought. My worst and maddest. If a violinist comes to our table, I'll ask him to play "Moon River."
"You still regret what you have done?" he asked, as a matter of interest, like "Has your headache gone?"
"They're pigs," she said and meant it. "Ruthless, murderous--" She started to weep again but caught herself in time. Her knife and fork were shaking so much she had to put them down. She heard a car pass; or was it an aeroplane? My handbag, she thought chaotically--where did I leave it? In the bathroom, away from his prying fingers. She picked up her fork again and saw Khalil's beautiful, untamed face studying her across the guttering candlelight exactly as Joseph's had done on the hilltop outside Delphi.
"Maybe you are trying too hard to hate them," he suggested, as a cure.
It was the worst play she had ever been in, and the worst dinner party. Her urge to smash the reunion was the same as the urge to smash herself. She stood up and heard her knife and fork clatter to the floor. She could just see him through the tears of her despair. She started to unbutton her dress, but her hands were in such disorder that she couldn't make them work for her. She went round the table to him and he was already getting up as she hauled him to his feet. His arms came round her; he kissed her, then lifted her across his body, and bore her like his wounded comrade to the bedroom. He laid her on the bed and suddenly, by God knew what desperate chemistry of her mind and body, she was taking him. She was upon him and undressing him; she was drawing him into her as if he were the last man on earth, on the earth's last day; for her own destruction and for his. She was devouring him, suckling him, cramming him into the screaming empty spaces of her guilt and loneliness. She was weeping, she was shouting to him, filling her own deceiving mouth with him, turning him over and obliterating herself and Joseph's memory beneath his fierce body's weight. She felt his surge but clasped him defiantly inside her long after his movement had ceased, her arms locked round him as she hid herself from the advancing storm.
He was not asleep, but he was already dozing. He lay with his tousled dark head on her shoulder, his good arm thrown carelessly across her breast.
"Salim was a lucky boy," he murmured, with a smile in his voice. "A girl like you, that's a cause to die for."
"Who says he died for me?"
"Tayeh said this was possible."