“It doesn't even matter Harper,” He laughed humorlessly, “drop it.”
“It does to me! I'm so tired of this roller coaster with you. I never know which Chase I'm going to meet up with that day. Is it going to be the cold or the funny and caring Chase? Will it be the one that's with four girls in one night, or the one that tells me how beautiful I am, does amazingly sweet things for me and notices stuff about me that no one else does?” Okay so Brandon noticed, but that wouldn't help my argument right now.
He just continued to glare at me.
“You're all over the place, I don't know how to act around you, I don't know what you want!”
“I want you! All I've ever wanted is you.”
“Then why are you trying to hurt me again?”
“Because it's easier that way.” His voice was soft now, and I could see the pain in his eyes, “You're with Brandon. Do you know what it's like watching you with him? Wanting you so bad, but knowing he's who you should be with?”
“But what if I want you?”
“Harper, don't.”
“I'm so in love with Brandon, but I can't help what I feel for you, and I know you know what I'm talking about. Whatever this is between us...it's been there since we met. It's like I can't get enough of you, but all you do is push me away. It's all you've ever done!”
“Because I'm not what you need Harper!”
I stepped closer towards him, “Then why did you kiss me Chase? You knew it would change everything, and it did. So tell me, why did you do it?”
He ran a hand through his hair and blew out a frustrated breath, “I needed to.” He closed the distance between us, “You're all I can think about and it drives me crazy! I would have given anything for that kiss, and I knew I wouldn't get that chance again, so I had to. I had to know if you felt something too.”
I threw out my hands in exasperation, “Was that not obvious? Is it not obvious that I'm in love with you?”
His mouth was on mine then and my surprised gasp turned into a moan. He wrapped my legs around his waist and pushed me into the wall, his lips moving fiercely against mine. “Say it again.” His breaths were coming hard and fast as he kissed me again.
“Chase,” I grasped his face so he would look at me, “I love you.”
A huge smile spread across his face before I pressed my lips to his, “God Harper I love you too, so much.” He growled against my mouth.
Chase walked us into his room and fell with me to the bed. I pulled the bottom of his shirt up, and realizing what I was doing he let go of me long enough to rip it off and throw it aside. Our mouths slammed back together and he shivered when I ran my fingertips over his chiseled chest and stomach. My shirt ended up on the ground next to his, and my entire body felt like it was on fire when he kissed a trail from my lips to the tattoo he gave me. Slow enough to make me think I'd lose my mind, he took off my pants and added them to the growing pile of clothes. He pressed his body into mine, but it still wasn't enough. I didn’t know if I could ever get close enough to him.
“I want you.”
He groaned into my neck and nipped my collarbone, “I don't have any condoms here Princess.”
“I don't care.”
“Don't say stuff like that,” He huffed a laugh, “I'm only so strong.”
I reached for the button on his pants and struggled to get it undone, “Please Chase, I don't want to wait any longer.” I whimpered when he stopped my hands. “I want you to be my first.”
He sat back and searched my face, “I can't.”
“You don't want me?” My eyes widened and my heart sunk. I hadn't been expecting this.
“Of course I do!”
“I don't – I don't understand.”
His face was completely unreadable as he just stared at me.
“It's because I'm a virgin.” It was a statement, of course he didn't want to be with me, he'd always made fun of me for it.
“Not in the way you're thinking. Trust me, I want to make you mine.”
I cupped his face in my hands, “Then please.” I whispered
“Princess,” his voice sounded pained, “you can’t want it to be me. With what I’ve done…I don’t deserve to be given something like that.”
“It’s yours. I’m tired of ignoring what I feel for you and denying myself of what I want.”
I watched as his chest rose and fell again and again, when I looked back up into his eyes minutes later, he finally spoke, “You’re sure Harper?”
“I want you. All of you.”