Casey and Cameron are shooting looks at each other and at me, but I am riveted by Ivory Street. At the person she is, and the person June must’ve uncovered. Of what Ivory Street must’ve done to June.
Ivory fixes her eyes on me. “But look at you, dear. A lifetime contained and yet still you try. What a hopeful and beautiful thing you are. Waiting seven years after that failed escape. And still going on. Did you think she might come back for you? Is that what kept you going? I’ve spent a lifetime studying humans. I’m fascinated, really.”
“Genevieve died. She wasn’t coming back,” I say.
The lines in Ivory’s forehead deepen as she looks at me, tilting her head to one side. “No, not her. Your mother. Did you think she’d try again?”
“What? My mother had nothing to do with that.”
She waves her hand. “Of course she did. Seems she lost her nerve a bit after Genevieve’s death. Or maybe she was scared off by how it could’ve been you, dying in that van. I don’t think she has it in her, dealing in lives. Being able to make those decisions isn’t easy.”
She has succeeded in unraveling me. Because now I’m picturing that bridge, rising up. And I’m wondering if we were supposed to go over the ledge, if that was the plan. If we were supposed to end in the water, if the material across my chest was not for the tracker, but to help me float. If there was someone waiting in the water for us, even then. How close we were, how close we were … And my mother, planning, biding her time, and waiting.
“I don’t …” I don’t understand, and I look to Cameron to ground me. He is circling closer to me, the gun still pointed at Ivory, like he knows I need him to. I want to linger in this new understanding, let it seep inside and fill me up.
“Alina,” Cameron says, like he can sense me drifting away, letting Ivory Street distract me, disarm me. She could be lying. She deals in nothing but lies. Focus, Alina. Focus.
“June’s warnings,” I whisper, finding my voice again, “the names she released. There was never any real danger, was there? There was no indication those people would become violent. Lives were ruined, and it’s your fault.”
“Everyone starts with the best of intentions,” she says. “Even June. Now let’s not pretend she’s innocent.” Her name, even now, shoots straight to my heart. “Put down the gun, please,” she says to Cameron. “You’re making me nervous.”
This room is making me nervous. And I’m trying to find a place for everything she’s telling me in my mind, to make sense of it all, make it fit with my understanding of events. It’s too much all at once—my mother, Ivory, Edmond, June. The past life and this one are both different than I thought they were. So much bigger, so much more.
“The saddest thing is,” Ivory says, “the US justice system refused to do anything with the results of the study. Because we’re a system built on action, not thought. Even after the study, can you imagine?”
But the study was a lie, anyway. She used only the data that supported her theory, and she acted as if that were the only data. And, for the first time, I’m so grateful for our justice system.
“But the study enabled us to get further grants, to perform further research, and then, well, then the lovely June Calahan came into the picture. She and Liam hacked their way in—unbelievable, really—and they honestly believed. They truly were something else.”
“You were the blackmailer,” I say, as I understand what must’ve happened back then. June, releasing information. Everyone knew she was in the database. And Ivory, seeing the opportunity. Getting away with blackmail while using June’s name.
Ivory shrugs. “Me, the people who work with me … I’m not the only one, dear. I’m just the beginning. Blackmail is the short game. It’s not just money. If a person doesn’t want that information released, we can get them to do near anything.”
Ava, I think.
She walks toward us, even though Cameron is still holding the gun.
The clues weren’t leading me to any shadow-database, they were leading me here. We’re all here, looking for the database, looking for the next step, but this is as far as I’m meant to get. This is the end. This is it.
What June left me is not access to a database, it’s the truth. It’s the person who was blackmailing, the beginning of the conspiracy, the longest of the long games. A falsified study, the conclusion—that criminal history is passed on—used to blackmail those in power, or those with money. It’s Ivory Street at the center. The money was never with June. The money was here. It’s in her fancy car and the bricks of her house and the metal points of the fence. June was the scapegoat.
“Did Liam know, too? Or was it just June?” I ask.
“I assume they both knew someone was committing blackmail under June’s name, though they didn’t know who. They tried to deny it of course.” I remember her voice on the recorder: I did not blackmail or bribe. The truth will not die with me. It will still be here, waiting for me. “But it wasn’t until after Liam’s death, when June was hidden away with nothing but time, when she apparently mined the database herself before we figured out how she was getting in. I guess it was too late. She copied the data she needed, the souls with criminal activity, and all the relevant variables, and replicated the study on her own …”
“All this for money? People’s lives for money?”
“Oh, no, Alina. Not money. Though, to be fair, the money is nice. But control is better. At first, the study was a source for more funding, but it became so much more. Once June began speaking out, we decided we could do the same, attaching her name to it. But more importantly, we could wait. We could use what we knew to sway people, influence policy, public opinion. We could support certain people, get them into positions of power, and then use that information later to force them to act in our favor. The only thing greater than money is power. Who controls the country? Not the president, or Congress, or the people, even. They’re all figureheads. Puppets. Chess pieces. It’s the people in the shadows who determine what we see and how we see it. Who determines where funding goes, what bills go forward, how the media spins events? What gets reported, what gets covered up? Who decides what is wrong and what is right? Perception is everything.”
I remain silent. I imagine June hearing this same thing and what she must’ve realized: that she ruined lives, yes, and she ruined them for nothing. She was warning people for nothing. She was wrong. I imagine the guilt in her stomach, the regret in her heart. What next, June?
“Who’s in charge?” I ask. “Is it you? Are there others?”
She waves her arm. “It doesn’t matter. There will always be someone. The name doesn’t matter, it’s the idea behind it. Ideas do not die, Alina.”
“How do you get into the database?” Casey asks.
Ivory turns to look at her. “That I cannot do for you. I’m the one who controls the information, not the one who gets it. There’s a protocol to it. That’s not my part. I only had direct access during the studies.”
“You can’t,” I say. “But someone can. Who is it?” I ask. Where next, June?
Ivory remains silent, staring down the empty barrel of Cameron’s gun.
“We know you can get information. One thing, just one thing,” Casey pleads.
“I told you I can’t,” she says. And then she smiles. “But I can take you to the one who can. I’ll bring you to him. I’ll trade you for it.”
But Ivory deals in lives and lifetimes, and I don’t want her anywhere near us. Not any of us. Casey’s about to barter away everything we have. “Casey, want a drink? The kitchen is just down the hall,” I say. I try to use the random eye-movement code that she does with her brother, but I probably come off looking deranged. But this woman broke June, and she would break us in a heartbeat, and I will not give her that chance.