“Why not? Why don’t you know? How long does it usually last?”
“I don’t know because I’m usually long gone by the time it clears.”
“But you’re still here!” I’m on the verge of pulling my hair out in clumps.
“You know, I take it back. You really are becoming quite the expert.”
I turn away from him and place my hand over my mouth to muffle my agonizing scream.
“Also, I don’t know because I’ve never released my ink sac directly into someone’s brain.” He blows air through his lips, causing them to vibrate, to intonate that it’s anyone’s best guess.
And just like that, I understand that Lily’s eyesight is not coming back. The octopus took it simply because he was bored and he could. She has seen my face, the world, her world, for the last time. She’s a blind dog now.
My quiver is emptying of arrows, but I mentally draw one of the few I have left and carefully take aim. “The octopus does have predators, you know.”
The octopus laughs. “Ha-ha. Yeah. Sharks!” He looks around the kitchen. “I don’t see any sharks here!”
This time I don’t say what I’m thinking. This time I hold my cards close to the vest. This time I don’t spill what my late nights of worry and reading have taught me. This time I’m one step ahead of him.
That’s right, sharks. And it’s true, there are no sharks here. But I also have reason to feel emboldened.
For octopuses have two natural predators:
Sharks.
And humans.
2.
The sun is hot and it’s burning my eyes, and the tighter I close them the more they itch with heat and sweat. I scrunch my eyelids, then loosen them; a kaleidoscope of colors and patterns floats in front of me. TV static, paisley, comets trailing fiery tails, sunbursts, tornados, violence, calm—all happening in the darkness behind my closed eyes. I wonder if this is what Lily sees, blinded as she is, if she can sense light, if her blindness is rich with colors and patterns. Or is it just darkness, her eyes painted in the total blackness of octopus ink?
I prop myself up on my elbows and slowly open my eyes to see the blue waters of Trent’s swimming pool. I look over at my friend. He’s lying on his stomach with his sunglasses hanging crooked on his face. I can’t tell if he’s awake or asleep. I reach for the plastic tumbler under the chair in the only shade to be found, but produce a bottle of sunscreen instead. When I find my glass it’s empty.
“Shall I make us more drinks?” Trent’s voice is groggy and thin and disappears into the ambient sound of the afternoon.
I turn to Trent, who still hasn’t stirred. “I’ll do it. In a minute.” My body is cemented to the lounge chair. There is no graceful way to get up, and it feels good in the sun. I’m almost relaxed, the most I’ve been in weeks. Lily would like this, the warm afternoon, the soft grass, a quiet backyard filled with smells. But since the octopus took her sight, I can’t trust her around water. A casual stroll across the yard could result in an unexpected dip in the pool.
Home life has been an adjustment, but we’ve managed. She has the layout of the house down from memory, but she can sometimes miss a doorway by a few inches or so. Our efforts remind me of the old Helen Keller joke: How do you punish Helen Keller? Rearrange the furniture.
Doogie was not surprised to hear of Lily’s blinding, although there wasn’t anything he or his staff could do to bring her eyesight back; our options are as bleak as ever. Instead, he said to pick a spot in the house to call “home base.” When Lily gets disoriented I’m to place her there, always facing the same direction, and say out loud, “Home base!” It’s like pressing a reset button to instantly orient her again. I always feel stupid doing this (Marco! Polo!), but it seems to work and Lily responds with appreciation. Slowly, we’re figuring this out.
How did Helen Keller meet her husband? On a blind date. Why was Helen Keller’s leg wet? Her dog was blind, too.
Over in the grass near the deep end, Weezie slaps around an inflatable beach ball. She’s easy to spot in her orange life vest made specifically for dogs. You don’t usually associate English bulldogs with swimming, and she looks a bit out of place—like Winston Churchill at the beach. I turn my head just in time to see her swat the beach ball into the pool. She watches with dismay as it slowly floats out of reach. Her tongue falls limp and she pants, anxiously begging for the ball to float back her way. It doesn’t, and just as well. If she had been able to get her teeth into it, that would have been the end of the ball.
“Where do you get your pool toys?”
Trent groans. He turns his head away from me, knocking the sunglasses completely off his face.
“Your pool toys. Where do you get them?”
“This place on Ventura.” He rolls over onto his back. “I thought you were making more drinks.”
“Do you think they have sharks?”
“Sharks?”
“Inflatable sharks.”