Lies That Bind Us

“It’s so great that we’re seeing more of the island,” said Kristen. “Last time we barely left the hotel, apart from looking for bars and that one trip to the cave thing. What was that place called?”

I happened to be looking at Melissa as she said it, and I saw the change, the way her shoulders clenched and her spine stiffened, the freezing of the smile that had been so genuine only a moment before. And it wasn’t just her. There was a momentary stillness, as if the time had stopped and I was in a weird little bubble, as I had been in the scuba gear, a world unto myself. It lasted only a second, the spell broken by Marcus saying, “The Dikteon cave, where Zeus was born and hidden from his father, Cronus.”

“That’s right,” said Kristen, seemingly oblivious to the odd tension in the air, the way Melissa was studying her drink without actually seeing it. “You know I saw an old painting a couple of years later, Cronus eating his children. Awful thing. All dark and bloody, and he has this baby with no head, and he’s got these wild, mad eyes. Totally freaked me out.”

“Goya,” said Marcus. “It’s pretty horrible. He actually painted it on the wall of his living room.”

“In his house?” said Kristen, aghast.

“It wasn’t transferred to canvas till after he died.”

I remembered the myth. The Titan Cronus—Saturn—had been warned that one of his sons would take his throne from him and rule over a new order of gods, so he destroyed them all shortly after they were born, eating them. Zeus’s mother fed Cronus a stone in place of the child and hid the god in the Dikteon cave till he was old enough to fulfill his destiny, cut his siblings from his father’s belly, and imprison him in the underworld dungeon called Tartarus. The memory sent a tremor of discomfort through me, though I wasn’t sure why.

“To think we actually went there . . . ,” said Kristen with a shudder.

“More burgers?” said Brad, getting up and moving to the grill. It was a kind of joke, I guess, but no one laughed.

“I’ll get some more wine,” said Melissa, rising and heading to the kitchen.

Kristen looked up like a startled bird, vaguely aware that something had happened, but shrugged it off when Gretchen, who still looked a bit starry-eyed around her, said, “So tell me about filming. Do you get to write your own lines at all, or do you have to stick to the script?”

The atmosphere still felt just a little off, and when I looked around I thought Simon was watching Brad with unusual attentiveness as he moved the meat patties onto the cool part of the grill with a long-handled spatula. He felt my eyes on him and turned, snapping on a smile like a mask.

“More wine, Jan?” Marcus asked.

Before I could respond, Gretchen said, “Did I just feel a raindrop?”

It’s funny the way unimportant things can annoy you. It was a perfectly innocuous remark, and it quickly became clear that it really was starting to rain—hard, as it turned out—but it felt like she was pulling the conversation back to her, as if no one had been paying her enough attention, and all this talk of our last visit was getting on her nerves.

“I’ll take some of that wine,” she said to Simon as she got up. “But I’ll take it inside, I think. You coming, Marcus?”

I turned to her sharply, on the brink of saying “he was talking to me,” or something equally unwarranted, but managed to keep quiet. And in truth what I really wanted to say was “Why are you here? Who are you?”

Stupid.

I watched the way she trailed her hand as she walked past Marcus, grasping his and pulling him jokily up. He bumbled and went along with it, but I felt the blood rise in my face.

“Come on,” said Simon, giving me a look that was as close to compassionate as I have ever seen from him. “Let’s get inside before we get soaked.”



We did get soaked. At first it was just a few fat, oily raindrops, but the heavens opened before we could get all the food inside, and we went from a clear, if overcast, evening to a full-on storm in under three minutes. The rain washed away the lingering strangeness, pulling us together as we laughed at our saturated summer clothes and marveled as lightning flickered through the floor-to-ceiling windows of the living room. Our rediscovered happiness and exhilaration even survived the blackout.

We had been directly under the storm for maybe twenty minutes when the lights went out. The sky was just bright enough to see the way the trees bent in the wind, but the last glow of the sun was fading fast and the storm was, if anything, intensifying, rain lashing the windows so that great sheets of water ran down with each gust. The silence was almost as alarming as the darkness. Melissa had been shuffling through her nineties alt-rock playlist through the speakers wired to the villa’s expensive, if old-fashioned, hi-fi, and when the sound (Blink 182’s “I Miss You”) died abruptly, taking with it the soft drone of appliances that you barely noticed, I actually gasped.

“Damn,” said Simon. “Hold on. Let me check the breakers.”

The box was in a wall closet at the foot of the stairs to the tower, and he made his way there while the rest of us sat in expectant silence.

“Ooo,” said Gretchen. “Spooky.”

We heard movement from the kitchen, then the snap of switches.

“Anything?” called Simon.

A chorus of nos.

“No worries,” Simon proclaimed. “We are prepared for all eventualities. Brad, you wanna help me with the generator? There’s a flashlight in the cabinet under the kitchen sink.”

“Because of my experience as a professional mechanic, you mean?” said Brad. “What the hell do I know about generators?”

“I’ll come,” I said.

Even in the gloom and with my dreadful vision, I registered Simon’s hesitation.

“I know a bit about generators,” I said. “The store carries them.”

I was glad it was dark because even though I spoke with a hint of defiance, it felt like a confession. I was reminding everyone that while they worked with their brains, their talents, while they had money and glamour or a sense of purpose, I checked invoices and filled shelves and reported Joey Mansetti to HR for missing his shift, and was in bed by six in the evening.

“OK,” said Simon. “Though all I really need is for you to hold the flashlight while I pour the gas.”

“I’ll stay here and protect the womenfolk,” said Brad.

“My hero,” said Kristen beside him.

“Be quick, there’s a love,” said Melissa. “Sitting in the dark is going to get pretty fucking tedious fast.”

Simon made a noise that might have been a sigh and might just have been a breath. I felt my way into the kitchen, located the sink, and dropped to the cupboard beneath it. My eyes, already bad, were exponentially worse in the gloom, but my hands found the heavy rubberized barrel of the flashlight. I snapped it on, a good bluish brightness that made the shadows around me leap.

“This way,” said Simon, reaching for it.

I gave it to him and followed close as he led me round to the tower steps at the end of the open foyer.

“There’s a stairwell down here,” said Simon, opening a door I had assumed was a cloakroom or closet on the wall opposite the tapestry hanging. It looked like it should lead to a tasteful little half bath, but inside was only a cramped hallway with a stone floor and a bare light bulb hanging from the ceiling. It was dingy inside, and the corridor was less than ten feet long, ending in a much heavier and unfinished wooden door that gave the impression of having been there a very long time. It was barred with iron, and its joints were reinforced with large square-headed nails, black with age.

Simon gave the flashlight back to me and worked the bolts free while I guided its beam, and then he shouldered the door open. Behind it was a spiral staircase down into darkness, the steps a mixture of old stone and concrete. A heavy rope running through rings set into the walls provided a handrail. The stairwell smelled old and musty. I wouldn’t have liked it even in daylight.

“This is the less classy part of the house,” said Simon.

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