He found an advertisement in the Ely paper to sublet half of a duplex and drove their truck full of camping supplies and tools to a house with peeling paint and a patchy, dandelion-strewn lawn. The woman who answered the door was bone-thin with crocodile teeth and sharp, hungry eyes.
‘Yes?’ Her glance measured up Josiah, Lucas, and the truck behind them, loaded with everything they owned in the world.
‘We called about the apartment.’
‘Right. It’s your lucky day.’ The rusting hinges shrieked as Heather Price opened the door wider. ‘There’s a special right now – first month free.’
8
Now that was a half an hour well spent.’
As Officer Keisha Miller and I badged out, most of the eyes in ward two followed our every move. The normal fights over the TV had stopped, hands twitched, and several heads had sunk behind the protective barrier of the couches.
‘It wasn’t my idea.’ I’d advised Dr Mehta that Lucas wouldn’t talk to the police, but pressure from the Duluth PD and the US Forest Service had become intense, so we agreed to facilitate ‘an interview’ with Lucas. Officer Miller, our liaison police officer, had asked question after question while Lucas clenched his fists and stared out the window. ‘He’s not ready to talk to the
authorities.’
I inched her toward the stairs as she methodically folded up the Boundary Waters maps and shook her head. ‘Got a giant F U plastered to his forehead, if you ask me.’
‘He’s a forensic mental health patient.’ Three more of them were peering through the door of the ward, tracking the receding flash of the officer’s tie clip and badge.
‘I just recorded thirty minutes of me talking to a wall. The chief said they’re desperate for leads and what am I going to give him? The most I’ve done today is chase two groupies off the property.’
‘They got inside the gate?’
‘Don’t ask me how. Both of them were carrying “Free Lucas Blackthorn” signs, which is the first time I’ve seen that. We’ve gone from interest to protest and now I’m clocking more time cruising the perimeter of this place than actually inside it.’ Officer Miller’s shoes echoed in the stairwell as we descended to the first floor. Next to her, my tread was almost silent. We badged into the main hall and toward the front entrance, where shards of sunlight sliced the walls.
‘I need a favor.’
‘There were more of them this morning.’ She nodded past the doors into the parking lot and beyond. ‘He wants out and they want in.’
‘I’m trying to piece together the Blackthorns’ last days before they disappeared and I need to find a copy of a police report. Josiah Blackthorn was arrested, no charges filed, in northern Minnesota.’
She paused near the security desk, putting her hat on. ‘That’d be public record. You know how to fill out forms, right?’
‘It’s urgent. And there might be a related case, but I don’t know the details. I wouldn’t know what to request.’
The men in ward two had exhibited acute stress response symptoms at the sight of Officer Miller’s uniform. Paleness. Dilated pupils. Shaking. I kept my hands still and waited while she looked me up and down. ‘You’re his speech therapist. Your job is just to help him talk, right?’
‘Maybe it’ll give us something to talk about.’
After a beat she nodded, slipped her sunglasses on, and told me to email her the details of the arrest.
Officer Miller and I had gone through the Congdon orientation together along with a roomful of other new hires and volunteers, back when I’d first started as an orderly and she was rotating in as our liaison to the Duluth police force. For two full days we watched outdated videos and reviewed policies while she compulsively checked her phone like she was praying for a domestic disturbance to save her from the PowerPoint. I assumed she’d drawn the short straw for this gig until the end of the orientation, when Dr Mehta joined us and invited the group to share any experiences that had compelled us to work at Congdon. A moment of silence suffocated the room before, one by one, everyone started telling their stories. Someone had a bipolar friend. Another person’s father was diagnosed with an antisocial personality disorder. One of the volunteers suffered from bulimia for most of her childhood until realizing she needed help. Every person in the room spoke up except the two of us, but then – after the tissues had been passed and all the bolstering smiles began to fade – Officer Miller cleared her throat.
‘I had a brother who was off, always low, never wanted to get help, never even wanted anyone to look at him. But I saw him. I saw him right up to the first morning of his junior year when he slit his wrists in the bathtub.’ Her eyes shimmered with deep pools of tears. I’d never seen an eye hold on to that much water, refusing to let it go.
That was my cue. I should have reached out for Officer -Miller’s hand or touched her forearm and told them how every night when my mother tucked me into bed I could see fault lines of pain cracking through her body, how the tighter I hugged her the more she crumbled away, as if the density of my love was too much to withstand, until one night she broke completely. She left a note on my nightstand, went to the bathroom, and ate two bottles of aspirin.
Everyone at Congdon had a story. Some of us had more than one.
‘I used to be a patient here,’ I murmured and picked at a chipped spot on the table until human resources started handing out badges and explaining the building’s layers of security.
What makes someone disappear?
After my mom’s suicide attempt, we all tried to pretend things were fine. Mom cleaned the house and lingered in the shadows outside my school, waiting to walk me home. She showed me how to make grilled cheese and ramen noodles and how to tell the difference between gabbro and basalt. We built a rock garden in a corner of the yard and I memorized every mineral, their Mohs scale hardness, whether they were igneous, sedimentary, or metamorphic, knowledge that seemed more vital than anything I was learning at school. Dad spent hours analyzing the composition of the lake bed, the shoals, all the underwater hazards that had wrecked countless ships like the Bannockburn. Maybe he thought it was something they could share, the intersection of rock and water, but we both saw how her eyes drifted off the map to places we couldn’t follow.
During Dad’s busy season in the summer, she took me up to her family cabin near the Boundary Waters, just her and me, and that’s where she seemed the strongest. We paddled through lake after lake, silent amid the towering pines that surrounded us like a cathedral, our feet baptized on the shores of every portage. When we returned to Duluth in the fall everything seemed dirtier, harder. She stopped waiting for me after school. Then one day she accepted a job conducting a copper study on the Iron Range – Minnesota’s mining belt that had once turned Duluth into a boomtown – packed a bag and left us a note saying she might not be back. Two months later she quit the job and began sending me rocks in the mail: a hunk of granite at the first snowfall, a nugget of amethyst for spring, carefully polished agates gleaming like birthday candles. I kept a rock and mineral field guide by my bed and studied them, trying to interpret whether a white hue meant purity or sorrow. Could I dissect her state of mind from an intricate banding pattern? There were never any return addresses on the boxes and the postmarks came from further and further away – North Dakota, Wyoming. I tried googling the towns, searching for her in newspaper photos and company directories, but the rocks were the only evidence she existed until one day even they stopped coming. She disappeared without a physical or digital trace. It was a gradual abandonment, like inching slowly into deeper, more frigid water until the bottom gives way. Was that better than Officer Miller’s brother, two swift cuts and a last cascade spilled neatly into the tub’s drain? They were both gone, leaving no path for anyone to follow.