Joey remained fascinated with her pancakes. Her rucksack rested next to her, touching her thigh, the closely guarded life possessions of a street dweller.
Evan searched for something to say. He had no experience when it came to matters like this. His unconventional upbringing had turned him into something sleek and streamlined, but when he collided with the everyday, he felt blunt, unwieldy.
Then again, he supposed she wasn’t very good at this either.
He watched her eviscerate her short stack.
“If you’re fighting off an attacker—a real attacker—go for the throat or eyes,” he finally said. “Up and under. If you swing for the head, he can just duck, protect his face, take the blow off the top of the forehead where the skull is thickest.”
Her mouth gaped, but for once no words were forthcoming.
He sensed he had said something wrong.
“Are you seriously turning this into a teaching moment?” she said.
The best course of action, he decided, was to consider the question rhetorical.
But she pressed on. “Everything doesn’t have to be some learning experience.”
He thought of his upbringing in Jack’s farmhouse, where every task and chore held the weight of one’s character—making the bed, drying the dishes, lacing your boots.
How you do anything is how you do everything.
“Yes,” Evan said. “It does.”
“You’ve seen me fight,” she said. “I know how to fight. That wasn’t about fighting. It was just … a startle response.”
“A startle response.”
“Yes.”
“You need a better startle response.”
She shoved her plate away. “Look. I just got caught off guard.”
“There is no ‘off guard,’ Joey. Not once you get on that bus in Helena. Not for a second. That’s how it is. You know this.”
She collected herself. Then nodded. “I do.” She met his stare evenly. “Throat and eyes.”
Though the sky still showed a uniform black, a few early-hours patrons filtered in—truckers with stiff hats, farmers with worn jeans and hands that rasped against their menus.
“You’ll be okay,” Evan said. “The farther you are from me, the safer you’ll be.”
“You heard him. He’s not gonna let me go.”
“He’s gonna have his hands full.”
“I think we’re safer together.”
“Like at your apartment? The train station? That pest-control shop in Central Eastside?”
She held up her hands. “We’re here, aren’t we? And they’re not.”
The sugary scent of the syrup roiled his stomach. “This isn’t—can’t be—good for you.”
“I can handle it.”
“You’re sixteen.”
“What were you doing at sixteen?” She glared at him. “Well? Was it good for you? Or is that different? Because, you know, I’m a girl.”
“I don’t care that you’re a girl. I care that you’re safe. And where I’m going? It’s not gonna be safe.”
A patter of footsteps announced the waitress’s approach. “I just started my shift, and already I’m winded trudging all the way to you two back here.” She grabbed her ample chest, made a show of catching her breath.
Evan managed a smile.
“Anything else I can get you or your daughter, sweetie?”
Evan touched her gently on the side, not low enough to be disrespectful. “Just the check, thanks.”
“It’s really nice, you know, to see. A road trip. I wish my daddy spent time with me like that.”
As she dug in her apron pocket, Joey gave her a look that bordered on toxic.
The waitress pointed at her with the corner of the check. “Mark my words, you’ll appreciate this one day.”
She spun on her heel, a practiced flourish, and left them.
The bill had been deposited demurely facedown. Evan laid two twenties across it, started to slide out.
Joey said, “I didn’t do it.”
He paused. “What?”
“The duffel bag. The guy. I didn’t do it. I couldn’t pull the trigger.”
Evan let his weight tug him back into the seat. He folded his hands. Gave her room to talk. Or to not talk.
She took her time. Then she said, “I stood there with the gun aimed, Van Sciver at my back. And I couldn’t.”
“What did he do?”
“He took the gun out of my hand. And showed me…” Her lips trembled, and she pressed her knuckles against them, hard. “The mag was empty. It was just a test. And I failed. If I’d done it, if I’d passed the test, I could’ve been like—” She caught herself, broke off the thought.
“Could’ve been like what?”
“Like you.”
Silence asserted itself around them. Kitchen sounds carried to their booth, pots clanking, grills sizzling. In a booming voice, the short-order cook was telling the staff that he hadn’t had much luck with the rainbow trout but he had a new spinning lure that just might do the trick.
“Van Sciver unzipped the duffel, let the guy out. He was acting all along. Probably some psyops instructor. Van Sciver said he was gonna walk him out, that I should wait there for him. But the thing is?” Her voice hushed. “I noticed something standing there, looking down at the duffel bag. It had a smudge of blood on the lining. And I knew that I hadn’t just failed the test. I’d failed Van Sciver. And at some point it would be me in that duffel bag and another kid outside it. And when that happened? The gun wouldn’t be empty.”
She sat back, breaking the spell of the memory. “That raised office in the hangar, it had a window with a shitty lock. I kept a hairpin hidden in my hair. I thought it’d be wise to GTFO before he got back. So I did. I was on the run eleven months until Jack.”
“How’d Jack find you?”
The distinctive ring sounded so out of place here among the retro candy-apple-red vinyl and Elvis clocks and display counter up front stocked with Dentine. It was a ring from another place, another life, another dimension.
It was the RoamZone.
Someone needed the Nowhere Man.
25
Honor-Bound
The RoamZone’s caller ID generated a reverse directory, autolinking to a Google Earth map of Central L.A. Evan zoomed in on a single-story residence in the Pico-Union neighborhood.
The phone rang again. And again.
Evan’s thumb hovered over the TALK button.
He could not answer this call. It was out of the question. He had a girl to unload. A laptop to hack into. A death to avenge.
Jack’s murder had sent Evan’s life careening sharply off course. His dying message had shattered any semblance Evan retained of order, routine, procedure. He should be home right now, concerned only with his vodka supply and his next workout. Instead he was in a diner outside Missoula, stacking his proverbial plate higher and higher until everything on it threatened to topple.
Why hadn’t Jack made arrangements for Joey? Why had he saddled Evan with her? Jack had known that Evan had his own honor-bound obligations as the Nowhere Man. Jack had known that being a lone wolf had been drummed into Evan’s cells—hell, Jack had done the drumming himself. Jack had to have known that Joey would be an inconvenient aggravation at the very moment that Evan’s universe would compress down in the service of a single goal—the annihilation of Charles Van Sciver.
An unsettling thought occurred. What if there was some design behind the plan? Jack’s teachings always carried a hint of back-alley Zen to them.
If you don’t know what you don’t know, how can you know what to learn?
But why this? What could Evan possibly have to gain from this disruption?
Everything doesn’t have to be a learning experience.
And Jack answered him, as clearly as if he’d been facing him across the breakfast table in that quiet farmhouse in the Virginia woods.
Yes. It does.
Evan banished the thought. There was no design. No artful master plan. Jack had found himself at the end of the road and had sent up a flare because he’d been desperate and needed Evan to clean up his mess.
It was nothing more.
Joey was staring at him. “You gonna answer that?”
Another ring.
He clenched his teeth, gave Joey a firm look. “Do not speak.”
Her nod was rushed, almost eager.
He answered as he always did. “Do you need my help?”