In the hallway, Tina took her place with the other stragglers, lining up for one last head count. Instead of seeing that everyone was there, the orderlies were making sure no one stayed behind. At noon, Blackthorn’s doors were closing for good.
The majority of Blackthorn’s patients were still too crazy to be let loose upon the world. They had already been transferred to other state facilities, Heather among them. Tina was one of the few deemed mentally fit to be released. She had served her time. Now she was free to go.
After head count, she and the others were shuffled through the wide and drafty rec room, which was already being cleared of furniture. Tina saw that the TV had been dismantled from the wall and that most of the chairs had been stacked in a corner. But her table was still there. The table beside the grated window where she and Joe would sit and peer out at the woods on the other side of Blackthorn’s scrubby patch of lawn, naming all the places they would go once they got out.
Tina did allow one last look at that, instantly regretting it, for it made her think about Joe. She had been ordered not to think about him.
Yet she did. All the time. Leaving wouldn’t change that.
She had also been ordered not to think about that night. About the terrible things that happened. All those dead kids. But how could she not? It was the reason the place was closing. The very reason she and the others were being marched out.
Some of the orderlies came by to watch them go. Matt Cromley was there, that perm-headed prick. He had put his hand down Tina’s pants so many times she lost count. She glared at him as she passed. He gave her a wink and licked his lips.
Parked outside was a van that would take them to the bus station. After that, no one gave a damn where they went as long as it wasn’t there.
As Tina climbed aboard, Nurse Hattie handed her a large envelope. Inside was the name of a social service agency that would help her find employment, her medical records, all necessary prescriptions and cash that Tina knew would only last about a measly two weeks.
Nurse Hattie put a hand on her shoulder and smiled. “Have a great life, Tina. Go make somethin’ of yourself.”
Two Years After Pine Cottage
There was no one home. Tina kept telling herself that as she knocked again on the sun-bleached door. There was no one home and she should just leave.
But she couldn’t leave. She was down to her last dollar.
Tina tried to make a go of it, and for a while she had. Thanks to that nice lady at social services she had a job, even though it was bagging groceries at a gritty-floored supermarket, and a place to live at a boardinghouse built for people like her. But all those health code violations killed the store, which meant she couldn’t pay for the boardinghouse. Those unemployment checks barely covered food and bus fare.
So now she was back in Hazleton, still knocking on the door of a duplex she hadn’t seen in four years, praying no one would answer it. When someone did, she almost ran away. She’d rather die of starvation than be there. But she willed her legs to remain on that worn welcome mat.
The woman who opened the door was fatter than when Tina last saw her. An ass as wide as a loveseat. She held a baby on her hip—a writhing, crying, red-faced little shit in a drooping diaper. Tina took one look at it and her heart sank. Another kid. That poor, doomed thing.
“Hi, momma,” Tina said. “I’m home.”
Her mother looked at her as if she were a stranger. She sucked in her fat cheeks, lips puckering.
“This ain’t your home,” she said. “You made sure of that.”
Tina’s heart seized up, even though this was exactly what she had expected. Her mother never believed that Earl did those things to her. The touching and the fondling and the sliding under her covers at three in the morning. Shh, he’d say with beer stench on his breath. Don’t tell your momma.
“Please, momma,” Tina said. “I need help.”
The baby fussed even more. Tina wondered if the kid had been told about his half-sister. She wondered if she’ll ever be mentioned.
A man’s voice cut through the cries, coming from the living room. Tina had no idea who he was. “Who’s at the door?”
Tina’s mother stared at her. “No one important.”
Three Years After Pine Cottage
The bar was packed for a Tuesday night. All the stools were filled. Tables, too. Nothing like two-dollar beers to bring in the barely functioning alcoholics. The crowd kept Tina hopping her entire shift as heaps of empty mugs and ketchup-smeared plates came her way. She washed them all, her hands submerged in the water so long her fingers had become shriveled and bleached.
When her shift was over, she whipped off her hairnet and shucked her apron, stuffing them into the laundry bin by the kitchen’s back door. She then headed into the bar itself, claiming the employee-eligible free drink that was supposed to make up for how the owner skimped on wages.
Lyle was tending bar that night. Tina liked him more than the others. He had a handlebar moustache, a sexy overbite and thick, hairy forearms. He poured her drink without even asking what she wanted.
“And a Wild Turkey for Miss Tina,” he said, also pouring one for himself.
They clinked glasses.
“Cheers,” Tina said before downing the whiskey in a single gulp.
She ordered another. Lyle gave it to her for free, even though she told him she had enough cash to pay for it. She sipped this one, sitting at the far end of the bar, people watching. The crowd was a nondescript blur—an interchangeable display of big hair, beer guts and gin blossoms. Tina vaguely recognized most of them.
Then she saw someone she truly did recognize. He was slid into a back booth and getting grabby with a redhead who clearly didn’t want to be grabbed. It had been a few years, but he looked exactly the same. Not even his laughable man perm had changed.
Matt Cromley.
The orderly who had groped her and Heather and God knows how many other women at Blackthorn. Seeing him after all these years unlocked the box in Tina’s mind where the bad memories were stored. It made her think of all the times he had yanked her into that utility closet, plunging his hand down her pants while hissing, You’re not going to tell anyone, you hear? I can make things bad for you, you know. Real bad.
The only person she told was Joe. It made him so mad he offered to stab the slimeball, which is what had landed him at Blackthorn in the first place. Some community college shithead had kept bullying him. Joe fought back by driving a steak knife into his side.
Tina declined the offer. Only now she wished she had taken him up on it. Pricks like Matt Cromley shouldn’t be allowed to go unpunished.
That’s why Tina downed her drink. She slipped into the kitchen for a few supplies. Then she sidled up to his booth, gave him a siren’s smile and said, “Hey, stranger.”
Ten minutes later, they were standing in a patch of weeds behind the bar, one of Matt’s hands already snaked down the front of her jeans, the other furiously stroking that miniscule prick of his.
“You like that, don’t you?” he groaned. “Like the way Matty Boy makes you feel?”
Tina nodded, although in truth his touch made her want to puke. But she endured it. She knew it wouldn’t last long.
“How many girls did you do this to?” she said. “Back at Blackthorn?”
“I dunno.” He was practically panting, his voice rough in her ears. “Ten or eleven or twelve.”
Tina’s body went rigid. “This is for them.”
She shoved an elbow into his stomach, which made him double over and back away, taking his cold, slimy hand with him. She then whirled around and punched him. Repeatedly. Quick, sharp jabs right to his nose. Soon he was on his knees, holding his hands to his nose to try to halt the blood spurting out of it.