The voice we hear belongs to Coop’s acquaintance in the Indiana State Police. Her name is Nancy. She was a first responder to the sorority house after Stephen Leibman finished his bloody spree. She was also Lisa’s version of Coop.
“I’m not going to lie to you all,” she says in a voice made low by exhaustion and grief. “They’ve got very little to work with here.”
I can only half hear her because the email plays on a loop in my mind, read aloud in Lisa’s voice.
Quincy, I need to talk to you.
“Things might be different if those numbnuts had searched her place the minute they found her body, like I told ‘em to do. But they didn’t and God knows how many people tramped through there before they did. The whole scene is compromised, Frank. Fingerprints all over the place.”
It’s extremely important.
“So they might never know who did it?” Coop asks.
“I never say never,” Nancy says. “But, right now, it’s not looking too good.”
A brief silence follows in which all four of us think about the very real possibility of never getting more answers than what we already know. No killer brought to justice. No motive. No definitive reason why Lisa sent me an email not long before taking that first, unknowing sip of doom.
Please, please don’t ignore this.
Another thought slithers into my head, sinuous and alarming.
“Should Sam and I be worried?” I ask.
Coop scrunches his brow, pretending the thought hadn’t occurred to him, when, of course, it had.
“Well?” I say.
“I don’t think there’s cause for worry,” he says. “Do you, Nancy?”
Nancy’s wan voice emerges from the phone. “There’s nothing to suggest this has anything to do with what happened to all of you.”
“But what if it might?” I say.
“Quincy?” Coop gives me a look I’ve never seen before. There’s a sternness to it, mingling with disappointment that I might be hiding something from him. “What aren’t you telling me?”
Something I should have told him days earlier. I didn’t because it seemed like Lisa’s email was a desperate attempt to be talked out of killing herself. Now I know differently. Now I suspect that Lisa was really trying to warn me. About what, I have no idea.
“I got an email from Lisa,” I announce.
Sam at last looks up from the phone, hand still at her mouth, the nail of her ring finger grasped between her teeth. “What?”
“When?” Coops says, concern burning bright in his eyes.
“The night she died. About an hour before, to be exact.”
“Tell me what it said,” Coop says. “Every word.”
I tell them everything. The contents of the email. When I received it. When I actually read it. I even try to explain why I waited so long to tell anyone but Jeff about it, although Coop doesn’t really care why. His only focus is the fact he didn’t know about it sooner.
“You should have told me the second you got it, Quincy.”
“I know,” I say.
“This could have changed things.”
“I know that, Coop.”
It could have given the police a reason for doing a better search of Lisa’s house, leading them to sooner conclude that she was murdered. It might have even yielded an important clue into who killed her. I know all of this, and the guilt it spawns makes me angry. At myself. At Lisa’s killer. Even at Lisa, for thrusting me into this position. The anger fizzes through me, overtaking my heartbreak and surprise.
“It still doesn’t mean you or Samantha are in danger,” Nancy says.
“It might not mean anything at all,” Coop adds.
“Or it could mean that she thought someone was targeting us,” I say.
“Who would want to do that?” Coop asks.
“Lots of people,” I say. “Crazy people. You’ve looked at those crime websites. You’ve seen how many freaks out there are obsessed with us.”
“That’s because they admire you,” Coop says. “They’re in awe of what you went through. What you managed to survive. Not many people could have done it, Quincy. But you did.”
“Then explain that letter.”
There’s no need to clarify. Coop knows exactly which letter I’m talking about. The threatening one. The scary one. It unnerved him as much as it did me.
YOU SHOULDN’T BE ALIVE.
YOU SHOULD HAVE DIED IN THAT CABIN.
IT WAS YOUR DESTINY TO BE SACRIFICED.
YOU NEED TO BE BUTCHERED.
The darkness of the letters wasn’t uniform, indicating that whoever wrote it had used a typewriter. The keys had been struck so hard that, on the page, the letters looked like burn marks seared into leather.
Every O was actually a zero, meaning that key was likely broken. Coop said this hint could possibly lead authorities to discover who wrote it. That was two years ago. I’m not holding my breath, especially since every other means of identifying its author have already been exhausted. There were no fingerprints on the paper or on the envelope, which had been sealed not with saliva but a sponge and water. The same goes for the stamp. As for the postmark, it was traced to a public mailbox in a town called Quincy, Illinois. That wasn’t a coincidence.
Jeff and I had only been living together a month when it arrived. It was his first real taste of what life with me would be like. I was, of course, hysterical to the point of insisting we had to move immediately. Preferably overseas. Jeff talked me out of it, saying the letter was a very sick but ultimately harmless prank.
Coop took it more seriously because, well, he’s Coop and that’s how he rolls. By that point, our relationship had dwindled to a text or two every few months. We hadn’t actually seen each other in over a year.
The letter changed all that. When I told him about it, he drove into the city to comfort me. Over coffee and tea at our usual place, he swore that he’d never let something bad happen to me, insisting on a face-to-face meeting at least every six months.
“That letter was sent by a deranged man,” Coop says. “A sick man. But that was a long time ago, Quincy. Nothing came of it.”
“Exactly,” I say. “Nothing ever happened to the psycho creep who sent it. He’s still out there, Coop. And maybe he wrote to Lisa or to Sam. Maybe he decided to finally take action.”
I look to Sam, who’s reverting by the minute back into her old self. Her hair has fallen from behind her ears and now covers most of her face like a protective veil.
“Have you received any death threats?”
Sam gives a tiny shake of her head. “I haven’t gotten mail in a long time. One of the perks of no one knowing where you are.”
“Well, they know now,” I say. “It was on the front page.”
A fresh wave of anger crashes over me as I think about Jonah Thompson and what he’s done. My hands ball into fists against my will, clenching and unclenching, aching for the sensation of smashing against his jaw.
“Did Lisa get any threats?” Coop says, leaning into the phone to address Nancy.
“A few,” she answers. “Some more worrisome than others. We treated all of them seriously, even managing to track down some of the guys who wrote them. They were lonely quacks. Nothing more. Certainly not killers.”
“So you don’t think Sam and I could be targets?” I say.
“I don’t know what to tell you, hon,” Nancy says. “There’s nothing to indicate that’s the case here, but it’s better to err on the side of caution.”
Not what I want to hear, which keeps the anger rising. I long for an answer, good or bad. Something definitive and tangible I can use to guide me going forward. Without it, everything is as murky as the fog that shrouded Central Park last night.
“Isn’t anyone else upset about this?” I say.
“Of course we’re upset,” Coop says. “And if we had answers we’d give them to you.”
I turn away, unable to see the earnest way his blue eyes try to offer comfort but reveal only uncertainty. Until today, Coop has always been something solid and strong that I could rely on, even when the rest of my world was tilting into oblivion. Now not even he can make sense of the situation.
“You’re angry,” he says.
“I am.”
“That’s your right. But you shouldn’t worry that what happened to Lisa is going to happen to you.”