So, I kicked off my shoes and did what she asked of me.
I lifted the comforter and slid in beside her, careful of her bandaged hand. As I stretched out on my side facing her, I didn't say anything, because I couldn't form words. I was barely capable of believing where I was. I didn't know how I'd gotten here, but now I worried I wouldn't be able to step back like I should do when it was time for things to go back to how they'd been.
Back to normal.
Would tomorrow be normal?
You know it won't be.
I shouldn't be here, but I couldn't be anywhere else.
"Thank you, James," she said so softly it was almost inaudible, as she slid her body closer to mine, "for everything you do for me…all the time."
Her eyes were closed again, but she'd turned toward me so I could see every inch of her face clearly. Winter had always been gorgeous in my eyes, but at twenty-four, she was even more beautiful than ever. The bathroom light had been left on with the door open enough to illuminate the darkness should she need to make her way there in the middle of the night. I used that tiny bit of light to study every feature of her face. I was close enough to feel her body heat. The warm ivory of her complexion contrasted against the sooty darkness of her eyelashes as they lay atop sculpted cheekbones. The pouty, luscious lips I wanted to kiss so badly that I ached, parted as if she were going to say something more. I could tell she was still in a fitful state as she struggled to find the peace of sleep.
"Shhh, I'm here now. And I'll be here until you go to sleep," I whispered against her cheek before pressing my lips there. I breathed in the scent of oranges laced with the antiseptic smells of a five-hour hospital visit and couldn't pull away.
She nestled in closer, her lips nearly against mine. "Don't leave after I'm asleep. James. Stay…with me," she whispered sleepily.
"I'm always close if you—"
Suddenly my lips were busy.
Kissing her.
To be fair, she kissed me first. And once she put those precious lips to mine, all bets were off. I wouldn't stop this. I was finally doing what I'd wanted to do for the better part of a decade.
It didn't matter that she was still reeling from a traumatic event and dosed with pain meds. I didn't care that she was half asleep from exhaustion. I had no will to resist. None.
She might not even remember this tomorrow.
I'd never forget this for as long as I lived.
Because right fucking now she wanted me in her bed, and she wanted to kiss me. And as stupid as it was for me to indulge in my long-lived fantasy with Winter Blackstone, I wouldn't deny her either. I'd let her take whatever she wanted from me for as long as she wanted to take it.
Fuck. YES.
I felt Winter come alive the second our lips touched. It was like she'd been waiting for it, too. Once we started, there was no reeling it in. Why the hell didn't I do this sooner? It was everything and so much more.
I palmed the back of her neck and kissed down her jaw to nip along her throat. I licked her skin, needing to know what that felt like. She gave me access by tilting her neck, and I understood her gesture for what it was. Submission. Winter was offering herself. All I had to do was take what she offered.
She felt so good.
So I took.
I found my way back to her lips with soft bites and nips trailing up her throat and across her jaw. Sweet. She tasted so sweet. When I pressed against her lips with my tongue, desperate to put any part of me inside her, she opened her mouth with a sexy moan that nearly undid me. With the wet warmth of her tongue tangling with mine, I had the first flash of worry of where this might go. The wild erotic creature in my arms didn't seem like she wanted to stop at kissing. She wanted more…
"James, please…I…I'm—"
"What do you want, beautiful?" I managed to whisper in her ear as I resumed my exploration of her lovely neck, unwilling to break our connection.
"I…I want you to touch…me."
My dick heard her words loud and clear, as did my embattled brain. "Where do I touch you?"
She moaned her answer. "Anywhere…everywhere…"
The princess had given me the keys to her tower with those two words. I would do what she wanted. I'd make her come and watch the whole amazing experience unfold as I did it.
I slipped my hand under the waist of the yoga pants and watched for her reaction. Her eyes were still closed, but she wasn't anywhere close to sleep. Winter needed something to take her mind off everything, so she could relax.
I needed to do this for her right now.
It was on.
She arched into my hand as I slid it down over the flat plain of her stomach, and kept right on going under the elastic of what I knew were lacy pink panties to find the prize. When my fingers met the soft wet heat enfolding her clit, she cried out and gripped my hand with thighs clenched so tightly I could feel them shaking.
"You are so fucking sexy like this," I told her, desperately wishing I could see where my fingers were buried. I felt slippery, hot flesh and couldn't resist going deeper. I dipped in one finger and then another, loving the tight grip of being inside her. "Is this what you wanted?" I asked.
Her answer was to ride my hand like a woman who knew how to get herself off.
But that was all I sensed coming from her. In her current state of mind, I realized Winter wasn't fully aware of me beyond being the source of a physical release she so desperately needed.
Still, I was at her service as I circled her clit and helped her get closer to it. I couldn't resist playing her body and controlling the delivery of the orgasms. Orgasms—plural. I would give them to her until she couldn't take anymore. The first came on very fast.
Far too fast for my liking.
She convulsed against me. I could feel her mouth working against my neck as she gasped out a few sharp shuddering breaths. Other than those small sounds, she was quiet when she came.
Very much to my liking.
The second orgasm arrived not far behind the first, as I fucked in and out of her with two fingers while working over her slick clit with my thumb.
Absolutely perfectly beautiful in the moment. This moment. All moments. I was so fucking lost to her already.
"Again," I told her. "Take it all."
I curled my fingers up and inward to find the rough patch of skin. From Winter's convulsive moan, I'd found her special spot and stroked her a little faster. I could have her coming for as long as I wanted to this way. The control was completely in my hands. Knowing she wanted me to do this to her?
Like nothing I'd ever known.
Somehow Winter turned everything around on me, and she did it in a split second.
"I love youuuuuu, Jaaaaaames."
She said it in a soft burst with her lips right against my neck as she orgasmed for what had to be the third time.
I heard her.
The words were spoken under the duress of dominant sexual manipulation by me, but they were said regardless.
"I…I…love you…I-love-you-I-love-you-I-love-you-I-love-you-I-love-you-I-love—"
I found her lips and covered them with mine in an openmouthed kiss.
So I could feel the sweetest words coming from her.
And into me.
I left her sleeping in her bed, and it was probably one of the hardest things I'd ever done, and it was only to clean up the mess in her kitchen so she wouldn't see it in the morning.
The cookies were a bigger mess than the blood actually. After putting the round ones into a plastic storage container, I gathered the deformed and broken ones scattered around the top of the stove and the counter and put them on a plate. I ate two of them. They still tasted great despite their odd shapes, as I knew they would. She made awesome cookies, something I'd known—and tasted—for years.