She slipped off her loafers and put on the gardening clogs that were always by the door, then walked across her yard toward the cliff.
On the beach below, frothy white foam coughed onto the sand, then drew back, leaving its faded impression behind. Nothing—and no one—made a lasting mark on the beach.
She should have remembered that.
Crossing her arms at the cold, she turned and looked back at the house. Her house.
Now, with the sunlight hitting the white-shingled sides, it seemed to belong in Middle Earth, an enchanted cottage tucked between a green hillside and the gray ocean.
She tried not to think about the garden, and all the plans she’d had for it.…
It felt as if she’d been standing there a minute or two, but suddenly the cab was pulling into her driveway.
She whispered, “Good-bye, house,” and went to get her bags.
By the time she reached the airport, she was breathing badly again.
The trip from Portland to New York City was like climbing Mount Everest without oxygen. It went on and on, and by the time you reached your destination, there was no sensation left in your extremities. First, there was a flight to Seattle, then on to Detroit, and finally a landing at Kennedy Airport. All that paled in comparison to the cab ride into Midtown.
By the time the taxi pulled over to the curb, Elizabeth’s back was screaming in pain.
She paid the cabdriver and hurried into the building, barely nodding to the doorman. There would be time for introductions later, when she wasn’t in desperate need of chiropractic care and an Excedrin.
Clutching the key Jack had sent her, she rode the elevator up to the twenty-fourth floor and found his apartment.
“Jack?”
There was no answer.
She glanced down at her watch. “Jack?”
It was only six-fifteen. He should be home in the next thirty minutes.
She set her purse down on the floor and looked around. The apartment was as elegantly impersonal as an expensive hotel room. A narrow hallway led past a tiny kitchen and into a moderate-size living room. There wasn’t a personal touch anywhere. The floors were tiled in a creamy, brown-veined marble; the sofa was a sleek contemporary design, covered in taupe damask. Against either arm were glass end tables that held crystal column lamps. The coffee table was so cluttered with magazines and beer cans that she could barely see it. There were no pictures on the wall and no knickknacks on any surface.
In the corner by the window, a big black velour Barcalounger looked incredibly out of place. When she saw it, she remembered Jack’s phone call last week: I got a great piece of furniture last week from Warren. You’ll love it. She’d asked for a description and been told that it was a surprise. But I’m sitting in it, he’d added with a laugh.
“Nice choice, Jack,” she muttered, walking toward the chair.
It had a drink-holder built into the puffy, quilted arm.
Built in.
She sat down in the chair. A footrest immediately jerked upward and tossed her into a fully reclined position. When she clutched the armrest for support, the upholstered side flipped open to reveal a built-in minifridge. A few beer cans lined the narrow shelves.
She crawled out of the recliner seat and continued her inspection of the apartment.
The small dining room held a nice glass and stone table with four taupe-upholstered chairs. A matching sideboard stood against one wall, unadorned.
There was only one bedroom, of course. This apartment was meant to be transitional; still, it meant there was nowhere for the girls to sleep. What a lovely message to give your children: Sorry, no room at the inn. She wondered if Jack had even considered that.
The bed was big and plain, with ash-gray and taupe bedding. No doubt Jack had added the Fox Sports purple mohair blanket. She was surprised he hadn’t chosen pillowcases with tiny footballs on them.
She went to the kitchen (such as it was). A quick look in the fridge told her that Jack hadn’t been cooking for himself. There were three six-packs of Corona beer, an industrial-size tub of mayonnaise, and a bottle of Gatorade. A half-eaten sandwich was disintegrating into a moldy pile. In the weeks he’d been here, Jack obviously hadn’t eaten home much.
In the corner of the kitchen, by a small window, stood a big cardboard box. The side of it read: memories. Elizabeth had written that herself. The things in that box were the mementos she couldn’t live without.
He hadn’t even bothered to unpack them.
As usual, the details of their life were hers. He got to throw the game-winning passes. She got to take tickets and clean the stadium.
She poured herself a glass of water and opened the cardboard box. The top layer, sheathed in Bubble Wrap, was a collection of beloved family photos. She unwrapped them one by one, and placed them on the windowsills and countertops. Anywhere she could find.
She’d hoped it would give the apartment a homey feel, but when she finished, she stepped back and surveyed the results.
It didn’t help. The pictures only reminded Elizabeth of what a home should be.