“Such an alpha baby,” Dee mumbles.
“I’m going to head out too,” Melissa says. “Greg has Cohen down at the office, and the last time I let him stay all day, he was up all night fighting the bad guys. I swear, one day, that boy is going to turn into a carbon copy of Greg.” She gathers up the babies’ blankets off the floor, stuffs some of her diaper items back in the diaper bag, and snaps both girls into their car carriers.
“Do you need help down?” I ask.
“Nope. I’ve got this down to a science now. And like I would let your pregnant ass lift these heavy things. No freaking way. Later, Dee. Chelcie, I’m here if you need me, okay?”
I nod, standing to give her a hug before walking her to the door.
Once I come back to the living room, I don’t even waste any time. “Well, spit it out, Dee. I know you’re over there thinking all sorts of crazy shit.”
“What if this isn’t about the letter? What if he’s having second thoughts? I hate saying it, Chelc . . . Hell, I hate thinking it. This whole thing is crazy complicated between you, and I just don’t want to see you hurt. Maybe the letter is nothing? Maybe he’s just . . . God, I don’t know,” she sighs.
One thing that annoys me about Dee is when she lets her own insecurities about men in general pass on to others. I recognize where she’s coming from. You don’t just turn that stuff off—a pain that has been a part of you for your whole life—but that doesn’t give her a right to place that bullshit on Asher’s shoulders.
“Dee,” I warn.
“I know—I’m sorry. I just . . . Shit. I just worry about you.” She shrugs her shoulders and sinks back against the couch.
“Okay, Dee. I appreciate where you’re coming from, but let me tell you right now that if you ever insult the man I love like that again, I won’t be responsible for what I do.” Her eyes widen, but I keep going. “He has done nothing to deserve that shit you just spewed all over the place. He’s had a hard time, but you know that any one of us would have felt the same pain he did when Coop died. Yeah, I know how our situation is complicated, but that’s just it, Dee. It’s our situation. It’s brought us together. This baby, this very loved baby of ours, is our miracle. We don’t look at it as a complication. I can assure you that he loves this baby because it’s part of me. Yes, he loves this baby because he’s a part of his brother too—but that by no stretch of the imagination means that he is transferring his feelings for the baby into some confused love.”
I take a deep breath, never letting my eyes leave her shocked ones. I have never talked to her like this, but I’m not going to stand here in the middle of my own personal shit storm and let her throw Asher in the ‘bad guy’ category.
“We all have that person, Dee. Beck is yours. Axel is Izzy’s. Melissa’s is Greg. Hell, Emmy’s is Maddox. Every. Single. One. Of. Us. We have that person who makes us complete. He is my person.”
“You have been watching too much Grey’s Anatomy,” she says under her breath.
“Dee! Did you even fucking hear me? He’s my person! He would never doubt our relationship or me. What is complicated to you is our perfect. We took the lemons life threw at us and started a lemonade-making factory. This, this love that you’re questioning—this love is perfect.”
My chest is heaving. God, it felt good to get that all out. I won’t even lie—when I was on day five without seeing him, I let the same doubts filter through my mind until I realized how ridiculous I was being. Asher would never give up on me.
“I’m sorry. I just worry about you. I worry about you both, but I don’t like seeing you hurting.” She looks down, clearly ashamed that she let her own handicaps cloud what she knows is right.
“I’m only hurting because I don’t know how to help him. I’m not asking you to borrow trouble. My pain is because I feel powerless to ease his pain. Not because he’s hurting me.”
“I get it. Just promise me that, if you need something, you’ll call. Don’t sit here and let it fester a second longer. If you miss him again tonight, call me in the morning and I promise you I will make sure you can corner his ass.”
“That won’t be necessary, Dee,” I hear over my shoulder. The deep rumble of his voice sends shivers racing across my skin. “I can assure you that the only thing she needs right now is”—he pauses and looks over at me, his face unreadable—“her person.”
I melt . . . Right there, I melt. It all washes away—the last two weeks of worry, hurt that he’s shut me out, and pain that I don’t know how to help. All that matters is that he’s here now.
“Uh, got it. I’ll see myself out,” she meekly says.
I might have said goodbye, but the only thing my mind can comprehend at this moment is that my man is finally here. He isn’t avoiding me anymore and I can finally figure out where his head has been since that ill-fated night we opened that letter.
CHAPTER 25
Asher