I don’t know what to say to that, so I just stay quiet.
“If I agree to this shit? If I give you a little more time, you’re going to tell me about your past. You’re going to trust me and you are going to accept my claim eventually. Let me hear those words out of that damned mouth of yours.”
Just agreeing to this is causing my heart to stutter and a cold, clammy sweat to pop out over my body. “If you promise to leave Michael alone, then yes,” I qualify.
“And you’ll be in my bed tonight?”
I don’t even have to think about that answer, “Definitely.”
“Then we have a deal, Hellcat.”
Chapter 26
Crusher
I’m lying through my fucking teeth, but if it gets my woman back in my bed, if it gets me the names I need to end the son of a bitch who hurt her and most of all gets her to the point where she will finally accept my claim, then I will lie. Fuck, the truth is, after a few days and nights without her, I’d do almost anything.
“Isn’t it kind of early to go to bed?” She asks as we make it back to my room. I lock the door with a lazy smile.
“If we were going to bed, maybe.”
She turns and looks at me and I can tell she’s nervous, but she’s also excited. She wants this.
“Hellcat, I should warn you, this won’t be my finest hour, because I want you too damn much to make it last,” I say while stripping.
“The fact that you’re saying it will last an hour proves you’re wrong,” she says taking her clothes off too.
Any other time I’d undress her, but I am dying here. I’ve spent the last two nights without her and fuck me, I need her. When I look up, she’s finishing taking off her panties and bra. She’s beautiful. I’ve always known it, but right now it’s driven home what a lucky bastard I am. Dani and I have so much back and forth arguing, then fucking and then arguing some more, sometimes I give myself whiplash. The truth is I don’t know shit about relationships and Dani’s so messed up from her fucker of an ex that I doubt it could be any different, but even with all the conflict—it’s better than anything I’ve ever had. It’s better than anything I’ve ever imagined.
I take her in my arms and instantly that empty spot that has haunted me the last few nights, is gone. She links her hands behind my neck and pulls my head down to her lips. Her warm skin is pressed against mine, but it’s still not close enough. I don’t think it ever will be.
“I’ve missed you, Zander,” she whispers, her sweet lips grazing my five o’clock shadow, her teeth nibbling the same path.
“God I have you too, baby. Climb up here on the bed and let me love you,” I demand anxious to get inside of her.
“I…I don’t want that,” she says pulling back slightly and disappointment swamps me.
“Hellcat, I know you…”
“Sit down on the bed, Zander,” her quiet plea has me catching my breath. I’ve always been the type to demand what I want in the bedroom, but right now I can think of nothing I’d rather do than obey Dani. I don’t know what she has in mind, but I’m anxious to find out.
I turn so my back is to the bed. I keep one of her hands in mine and my eyes on her, I back up the few steps it takes until my legs hit the mattress. I sit down. Slowly she lowers down in front of me on her knees. I don’t know how it’s possible but two emotions war with each other immediately. First and foremost is the urge to scream yes at the top of my lungs. Then guilt because I know she’s scared of this. I don’t know why, but I do know whatever the story is behind it, will be bad.
“Dani, sweetheart, you don’t have to do this,” I tell her and I end my sentence on a groan as she takes my cock in her warm hand and strokes it once.
“I want to do this, Zander. I might be a little unsure, but I’ve been imagining giving you this for weeks. I want to make you happy. I want to give you pleasure.”
“My sweet, Hellcat,” I whisper, bending down to kiss her. “I love that you want that, but it shouldn’t be all about me. Anything we do together should bring us both pleasure. If it doesn’t then we shouldn’t do it.”
“But…how?” She asks confused and I’m not exactly sure what she’s asking, but I go with it.
“How about you just play a little and if you don’t like it you climb up on my dick and ride me? I ask and when she still looks nervous, I add, “Anytime Hellcat, you never have to do anything here. I want you, just you and anyway I can get you.” I tell her, trying to reassure her. Then, I wait to see what happens.
Her hand reaches down first to cup my balls. I want to moan out loud at the way she gently massages them, as if she is testing their weight. Her hand comes up and wraps around my cock and pumps it up, and then slowly down.