“So you’re willing to jump without looking again?”
Staring up into his fallen angel face, I knew I didn’t have a choice.
“Yes.”
The back booth of Tassel was supposed to be my information trafficking hot spot, and most nights when I left Voodoo and dragged my ass over here, it was. But tonight it had turned into something else completely—a place for too goddamn much introspection. After Vanessa and I had left the rooftop—separately—I hadn’t wanted to go home to my empty bed. So here I was.
What the fuck am I doing?
She wasn’t for me. I’d drag her into the gutter and dirty her pristine, lily-white reputation—and her life.
I stared down at my hands. One flat on the table and the other wrapped around a double shot of Wild Turkey.
Those hands had no business touching a woman like Vanessa.
I lifted the glass and sucked down the bourbon.
Not even liquor could burn away my need to bury my hands in her hair, slide them up and down her silky-smooth legs while I spread them wide and feasted on what my imagination had decided was the sweetest pussy I’d ever tasted.
I smacked the glass back down on the table. Drinking surely wasn’t going to help. If I hadn’t been so wasted that night, I wouldn’t have spent the last two years wondering if my imagination was right.
Those kinds of thoughts could wreck a man.
A dancer—a new girl—with dark skin, golden brown eyes, and velvety black curls sat down in the booth across from me. Normally, if a girl was going to attempt to get my attention, she made herself right at home on my lap. Not that it’d do any good lately, because unless you were a smoking hot society princess, my dick wasn’t having it. But still, this chick wasn’t even trying, which had my radar pinging.
If the girls were allowed to drink on shift, I would’ve offered to share, but given that I’d already ordered a half dozen or so to be fired for the offense, it didn’t seem quite fair.
“Can I help you?” I asked.
It was late, and I was ready to head home and escape from thoughts of Vanessa.
“Heard you’re looking for information.”
Her long eyelashes were fake and tipped with gold glitter, and she fixed her gaze on the table.
“I might be,” I replied.
The gold tassels hanging off her tits barely covered her wide nipples. She looked to be all of about twenty years old. I felt like an old man sitting across from her.
“What’s your name?”
She looked up, clearly surprised by my question.
“Gold Dust.”
I shook my head. “Your real name.”
She sat up straighter, eyes darting up to mine and then back down again. “Gina. Gina Mulvado.”
“How long you been stripping, Gina?”
“Just had my three year anniversary last week.”
“So you’re…what? Twenty-one? Twenty-two?”
“Twenty-one. Last week.”
The numbers lined up. “Started stripping when you were eighteen?”
One side of her mouth quirked up in a mocking smile. “As soon as they’d let me in the door.”
“Why?”
She finally met my eyes. “Why not? I got bills to pay. Ain’t like I got any other skills that’ll make me this much money, at least not without fucking and sucking my way across town.”
“That shit don’t fly here.” That was my policy, but it wasn’t like I had time to personally police it. My manager was on the up and up, and that was the best I could do. But I didn’t want girls using my place as a hook up for picking up Johns. It left a bad taste in my mouth.
“I know, and that’s why I like it here.” She tucked a dark lock of hair behind her ear. “So I heard you pay for information.”
“True.” And paying for information drew all sorts of attention my way. And some of that attention—especially from the gang bangers, ex-cons, garden-variety lowlifes—I’d never want spilling over onto Vanessa. Which is why keeping our relationship on the down-low was advisable on several fronts.
“Pay good?” she asked.
I surveyed her. “More than you’ll earn tonight otherwise.”
She nodded. “I used to work at a club on the other side of town, and there used to be this guy who’d come in for a dance once a week. He was always broke. We joked about having to dodge the quarters he tossed on stage because he could barely scrounge together a damn dollar.”
I rolled my shot glass back and forth between my thumb and forefinger, wondering where this was going.
“Well, one night he came in flush with cash. He went from digging in the cushions for loose change to tossing twenties on the stage and tipping fifty for a dance. He was drunk as hell, and rambling on and on about it being blood money for the little blood-sucking whores.”
I reached for the bottle of Wild Turkey and sloshed another three fingers into my glass as she continued.
“The girls started getting nervous, with all the cash flying around and his crazy ass comments, so we did some checking after he left.”
I swallowed a gulp, savoring the burn.