“I’m not going to get all squishy on you, but see that you don’t get yourself killed,” she says. “World’s a shitty place, but it’d be a fair bit shittier without you in it.”
I smile at her. “That’s by far the squishiest thing you’ve ever said to me.”
We part without further words, without any melodramatic last salutes. I just leave the bar to get my gear, and turn around at the entrance hatch of the bar to look back at my old squad leader. She’s sitting down again, one hand on her drink, and she meets my gaze. I raise a hand briefly to give her a casual little two-finger wave. She nods at me, and the expression on her face is her usual facade of mild, detached amusement, but her eyes convey emotions we wouldn’t be able to fit into five minutes of extended emotional good-byes.
Fair winds and following seas, my friend.
I return her nod and turn to leave On the Rocks, likely for the last time in my life.
There’s a tunnel that leads from the Ellipse straight to the airfield on the other end of New Longyearbyen. It’s a kilometer and a half, an easy walk on level ground, and I walk out toward the airfield in no particular hurry. When I am a third of the way down the tunnel, I hear the hum of an electric ATV coming up behind me, and I turn around to see Chief Constable Guest rolling up.
“Saw you on the security feed,” he says as he comes to a stop next to me. “Want a ride?”
“Sure,” I say. “Thanks.”
I take my kit bag off my shoulder and dump it into the cargo basket of the ATV. Then I take the passenger seat behind the constable, and he puts the vehicle back into motion.
“Figured you’d stop by the office to say good-bye,” he says over his shoulder.
“I was thinking about it, but I’m already kind of a mess as it is,” I say. “There’s a lot riding on this mission.”
“Tell me about it. I’ve got two girls and a wife down here on our little frozen paradise. If you don’t come back with a road map for all those troops to go home again, we’re about to have a very bad winter, and it’ll be our very last one.”
“I’ll do my best to see that it won’t be,” I say.
“I have no doubt that you will. But it’s not entirely up to you, is it?”
“It’s not even mostly up to me. I’ll just be another little cog in the wheel again.”
“Well, be a really good cog, then. I almost envy you in a way, you know.”
“How so?” I laugh. “You want to go in my place?”
“I would if I had the expertise. Beats having to wait and watch, and not being able to do anything to influence the outcome.”
“What are you going to do if we don’t come back?” I ask.
Constable Guest is quiet for a little while. The hum from the electric motor reverberates from the concrete walls, and the fat tires of the ATV whisper on the floor slabs as we trundle through the sparsely lit tunnel at a fast trotting speed.
“I’ll hole up with my family,” he finally says. “Down here in the tunnels. Stockpile whatever supplies we can, and try to make it stretch. Hoping someone’s going to come and resupply us before all the food runs out. As long as I can keep them alive, there’s always hope.”
I’ve been to Constable Guest’s office a few times, and I remember the pictures of his daughters he keeps on a shelf behind his desk. His girls are still young, in their early teenage years. He told me that they were born on Earth, but they’ve been here on New Svalbard since before they could form coherent memories of the old home. This is the only world they’ve known, and if we fail to find a way home for all those troops that are consuming the resources of the ice moon just to stay alive, then they’ll never know anything else. They’ll die with their parents, down here in these cheerless tunnels with their bare concrete walls and unpainted laminate steel doors, and the whole town will be buried under ice and forgotten, a very minor footnote in humanity’s short history. It’s a harsh life in the colonies, but it’s their only life, and I feel shame for having contributed to the very likely possibility that these girls and everyone else here will die. I didn’t have any influence on the military’s decision to come here and dump seven thousand extra mouths to feed onto this world, but I can try to help get them out of here again. It’s a much better use for all my training than killing Chinese or Russian marines over yet another untamed piece of rock circling some faraway sun.
We roll through the semidarkness in silence for a while. Then the tunnel ahead comes to an end. There’s a concrete staircase leading up into a little vestibule, and a heavy security hatch set into the wall beyond. Constable Guest climbs off the ATV, and I follow suit and grab my kit bag.
He holds out his hand, and I shake it.
“Faithless is he that says farewell when the road darkens,” he says.
“Where did you get that?” I ask.
“Oh, an old novel that I like. Orcs and elves and high adventure, that sort of thing.”
“Then let’s make it ‘See you in a few weeks’ instead,” I say.
“See you in a few weeks, Staff Sergeant Grayson. Thank you for sticking up for us colony roughnecks. And be safe out there.”
“You, too, Constable Guest.”
He gets back onto his ATV, nods at me, and drives back the way we came, leaving me in the dimly lit tunnel terminus. I watch as the blinking caution light on the back of his vehicle briefly paints the walls of the tunnel red in steady three-second intervals. Then I shoulder my bag again and walk up the stairs into the basement of the airfield’s main control center.
The brief lull in the weather isn’t very obvious on the surface. It’s still snowing, but at least I can see further than a few yards now, and the snow is coming almost straight down instead of whipping across the landscape horizontally. Out on the vast concrete tarmac, tracked vehicles with massive triangular plow blades are pushing snow out of the way. In the already cleared area, three Wasp drop ships, one Dragonfly, and two of the colony’s fixed-wing transport aircraft are in various stages of postflight operations, unloading their cargo bays or refueling their tanks from the airfield’s automated fuel probes.
I know the pilots of the Dragonfly assigned to the Indianapolis by sight, so I walk across the tarmac to where the hulking battle taxi is parked, mindful to stay out of the way of the ground crew and the refueling machinery. The pilots are in the cockpit, running through checklists. As I mill around near the port side of the Dragonfly, the loadmaster tromps down the lowered tail ramp. He spots me and comes walking over to where I stand.
“Sergeant Grayson?” he asks. I turn toward him so he can see my name tag, and raise the face shield of my helmet. The bitingly frigid polar air immediately makes my face numb.
“We ready to go?”
“Almost. We have to wait for some passengers from the Minsk. Their birds don’t fit into Indy’s docking clamps, so they have to switch rides down here.”