Beck paused again.
“I admit the dog thing is disgusting. And it takes time. We don’t give her everything at once. We want to make it look like we’ve accumulated restaurant scraps. So, we have to keep the bags in the walk-in refrigerator until she’s done. About three weeks.
“I sometimes wonder if that woman has figured it out. It’s not like we give her a steady supply.
“But like I said, she’s crazy. Nobody can figure out what she’s talking about half the time.”
Beck stopped talking for a while. Feeling the fatigue and stress of the last days coming over him. But he kept the Maglite shining on the meat grinder.
“Cleaning that grinder is no picnic. Doable, but has to be done right. Cold water first. Then laundry detergent. Then ammonia. Then bleach on the concrete surfaces. I think there’s some other stuff the guys use. Enzymes or something to break down the protein. Everything washes down the drain, then we pour a bunch of bleach in the drain to get rid of any blood traces or scraps.
“We don’t keep the hacksaws. They end up in the bay.”
Beck paused, letting the circle of light from the Maglite rest on the floor drain.
“Doing it all down here is safer than hauling you out and dumping you someplace. A lot more work, but way more safe. No chance anybody sees us loading your body into the trunk of a car or something. Most important, zero chance anybody finds a body.”
Beck remained in the dark, just a matter-of-fact voice reciting the truth with the Maglite again shining steadily on the industrial meat grinder.
Finally, Sukol said, “Like you say, who gives a shit once you’re dead.”
“I agree. But trust me, some guys really freak out at the idea of getting eaten by a bunch of filthy mongrels and mastiffs. I’m like you. It’s the dying that I’d worry about. Just withering away down here in the dark. You’ve only been here about a day.” Beck shook his head, thinking about it. “You ever starve for a long time? You start really going nuts.”
Sukol had to concentrate on not screaming at Beck to shut the fuck up.
Beck let silence fill the dark basement as the Maglite beam drifted back toward Sukol’s cell. And then he said, “You’re thinking about how you can persuade me to kill you some other way instead of letting you just lay in there and die. Something quicker. You’re also thinking, fuck him. Markov’s men will be here some time or other. They’ll find me.
“But I won’t kill you any other way, because there’s no percentage in touching you. Or getting close enough so that you can touch me. I won’t put a bullet in you because that causes lots of other problems.
“And as far as waiting for that bald motherfucker or anybody else, forget it. This place isn’t anywhere near where they think I am, so even if they find me, they won’t find you. Nobody knows about this place. Nobody will find you, or hear you. There’s nothing above you or around you that has anything to do with me.”
Beck waited again. Letting it sink in. Then finally said, “And face it. Who’s looking for you anyhow? Who really gives a shit about you?”
After a while, Sukol said, “Then why are you down here?”
With that question, Beck knew he had a chance. He just had to play it carefully.
He turned off the Maglite. Beck suddenly felt exhausted. He’d had very little sleep since this all started. The cold basement pressed in on him. The knife wound on his thigh ached. Every time he moved pain flashed in his upper back. There were tender bruises everywhere: his arms, hips, ribs. And the constant tension was making his lower back stiff.
There was a row of brick pillars holding up the floor above the cellar. One of them stood opposite the cell, about five feet away. Beck sidled over to it, eased himself down onto the cold concrete floor, and leaned back, arms around his knees. He felt the moist cold from the floor seeping through the seat of his black jeans. He tried to position himself so his lower back stretched out.
Beck repeated the question. “Why am I down here?” He waited a few moments. “Sometimes it’s good to go back into the hole.”
“What do you mean?”
“You’ve never been in solitary confinement?”
Sukol didn’t answer.
“I did twenty-eight days once. Then another time, fourteen days. The fourteen days was worse than the twenty-eight. By then, I knew what I was looking at. The first time they turned the lights off and on, I thought I might not make it. But then your eyes get used to it. Yours are all fucked up now that I’ve brought some light in. You won’t be able to pick anything out for hours.
“And it’s almost worse when the lights come on. I was never sure they weren’t fucking with me. How long was it between dark and light? Eight hours? Six. Ten. A half hour. I was convinced they were using the lights to drive me nuts. But maybe I already was.”
Beck lapsed silent. Thinking back on it.
“So you come down here to remember how crazy you are?”
“You think that’s it?”
“No. I think you want to use me for something.”
“What can I possibly use you for?”
Sukol sat up suddenly, swinging his feet to the cold basement floor. “Listen to me,” he said. “I know things. I don’t give a fuck about Markov or Stepanovich. Stepanovich is a maniac. I hate that guy. I was just in it for the pay.”
And then Beck knew he had him.
“Uh, what the hell is your name, anyhow?”
“Ahmet.”
“Ahmet, why the fuck would I believe anything you say? You’re with the guys trying to kill me.”
Ahmet started talking. Fast. His Slavic accent became more pronounced the faster he spoke.
“Don’t believe me. Just listen to what I tell you. Then you keep me locked up here until you find out I told the truth. Once you know I tell you the truth, you let me go. Believe me, you will never see me again. I walk away. Nobody ever sees me again. For sure not that fucking piece of evil shit Stepanovich.”